Anybody want to buy a house in Chapel Hill North Carolina? Looks like I am moving to Ann Arbor, to run this company. Can't let mk and ecib run it in to the ground :) This is bittersweet. It's so beautiful where I live. My home is pretty kick ass and my friends and neighbors here are awesome people. The weather is phenomenal and there are a number of cool cities in the state; Charlotte, Asheville, Raleigh, Durham, Chapel Hill. The state has a lot to offer. Mountains, ocean. But I have some old friends in Michigan, my family is in Michigan and Forever Labs is in Michigan. Seriously, a tough, tough decision. I put my dog to sleep on Monday. I've had him since I was 27 years old. It's the end of an era. I looked into the eyes of one of my closest friends and watched him slip away with three sharp breaths, then several shallow ones and then gone. It sucked! My daughter is now 12 days old. She is beautiful, extremely easy to care for. She sleeps pretty well throughout the night already. Getting up once maybe twice for feeding. She's beautiful. I'm totally smitten. The company is growing and has procedures with three new doctors this week. One in Raleigh, one in New York City and one in Austin Texas. There is too much going on, it's hard to take sometimes. But, life is never a dull :)
move: I wondered if this wouldn't happen... bittersweet... but I'm excited for you. dog: we shared some messages. Not even a dog person, but I can relate and my heart aches for you babies: some magical-neruro-biological-emotional witchcraft in those first few minutes, hours, days... FL: I've already fawned all over how happy I am for you guys... keep it up.
If you noticed me sulking or posting less than cheerful things, my girlfriend broke up with me. And she chose to do it a week or so after I came to sober living in part to help our relationship and give her time to deal with her problems without worrying about mine. Her psychopathic ex husband went through about 300 hundred pictures I took and posted to a photo licensing site and found two pictures of her dogs, lost his shit again, so she decided it was all too much and let me twist in the wind for a week before I finally point blank asked her what she was going to do. And everything she said she couldn't deal with is something I can change or am trying to change. Or if was something that's been there from the start. That can still change. And she thinks I'm being mean when I tell her how I feel. And she thinks I'm being mean because I can't talk to her or be her friend. I just can't hear how she's doing. Or look at happy pictures of her. It's bad enough my phone is full of pictures of her. She thinks I'm trying to make her feel guilty. I'm not trying. She should. She devastated me. I feel guilty when I hurt people. It's called a conscience. This is all my fault basic. She got what she wanted because she can't even be technically with me while two hours apart and I'm handling it wrong because I'm fucking upset to put it mildly. I'm crying all the time for no outwardly apparent reason. And I'm surprised that's the worst thing I'm doing
I just registered for the Cebu Marathon in the Philippines. It's in three months (14th January). I don't really run that often, but this a way to commit and have a goal. We will see how it goes! I've been living in a hostel for a month and a half now in Taipei. It still feels good, I don't regret my choice. The location is really nice with great restaurants near it from all over the world (lebanese, russian, german, mexican, italien) and a lot of asian food (chinese-taiwanese, japanese, korean). University is close, it's cheap, and a lot of my new friends are living close by. I'm going to South Korea for six days tomorrow ! Looking forward to that :)
Cool, good luck! With a seven hour cutoff you will be sure to get a medal and shirt. Wikipedia says January is the "Cool Dry" season, which sounds good, but gives low temperatures of 22.6°C (72.7°F) and highs of 30.3°C (86.5°F). Maybe that explains the crazy starting time? Gun Start: 3:00 AM Cut off: 10AM (7 hrs) I'm going to try to beat the Oprah Line on Sunday. Looking forward to your next #tripreport! 42K
Good luck beating Oprah! Whether I come in under my goal time of 4:20 will probably be directly related to number of restroom breaks. My 18 mile run was on pace for 4:15 with zero restroom breaks. My 20 mile run had two breaks and was on pace for 4:25. How do you feel for this weekend?
Thanks, I have some trepidation about Sunday, but it's too late to do anything to prepare beyond sleeping and eating well and staying healthy. My habit of signing up for long distance running events, while doing little running on other days, is probably not ideal. Waste management will be a concern. One of the benefits of trail running is that when Nature calls, Nature is right there. I sometimes worry about carrying too much water more than running out. At the 2011 Marine Corps Marathon, I saw lines at porta-potties on the course. I'll do my best to cut weight before the start, but there's no way I will be standing in a line after the clock starts. The plan this year is to give up my intention to run every step, instead taking walk breaks now and then to recover and eat and drink. I might try to keep the 4-hour pacer in view as long as possible. For the first few miles I expect to be stuck at the crowd's pace anyway.
That's consistent with my plan. I've been walking when I get water since I started with halfs, and I've find on my long training runs that walking a bit is ok. If I don't feel I need water, I'll stop for Gatorade anyway just because I want to walk for twenty seconds. My run should have a 4:20 pacer. I'm going to run with them. I ran with the two hour pacers a year ago, and it was great. They didn't slow down for water, but that was ok. I just caught up with them over the next half mile and then stuck with them until I needed water again. For my plan, 4:20 is a 9:55/mile pace. I think I'll feel good with a 9:40/mile moving pace, so that gives me about five minutes to work with to stick with the pace group. Do you carry your own water during the race? I have been on my training runs but look forward to using aid stations for the race. Standing in a line would be devastating. But, I do feel much better after stopping. I've never needed it in a half, but the long training runs have been mixed. I just need to pay close attention to my diet 48 hours ahead. No full bags of chips, no matter how much I want the carbs and salt. I think that's what got me last week.
I think I'll bring a hydration pack this time. It looks like it will be warm enough that I will want to carry fluid, but I don't want to be encumbered by a hand-held bottle or belt. I can almost ignore a pack half-full of water, and I'll use pockets for nutrition and grab sports drinks at the aid stations. Have to remember to bring electrolyte tablets and some ibuprofen too.
Is this your first marathon? I'm doing my first in three and a half weeks. It's exciting and terrifying. There are a number of runners on hubski, so certainly ask questions if you have any.
This will be my first marathon ! Good luck ! Please update on how it goes :)
I'm doing the Madison Marathon on November 12. It has a couple nice hills. The hill at mile 9 is a bit tough. It should be clear sailing from mile 9 to past mile 15. Mile 15 through 19 is what worries me most. It's a series of increasing hills. There's one more hill at mile 22, but that worries me less. If I can get to the bottom of that hill, I can get to the top. If I can get to the top, I can get to the finish. I'm very familiar with the course, but the challenge of that first 19 miles to see how much I suffer in the last seven will be interesting. I'm not going to do a long run this weekend, but I'll do one more 20+ mile run in a week. Then two weeks of taper.
Good luck with the marathon! Put together a race report or something if you have the time, I would love to read more on how it goes!
Ooo good luck! Marathons are addicting. Do you have a fuel plan? Also body glide. Everywhere. Especially if there will be any humidity or precipitation - it will make life more comfortable around mile 23. Also if you're food motivated like me, it might help to have someone at the finish holding your favorite dessert haha. It's literally all I think about the last couple miles. Hope it goes well! I'm sure it will be beautiful. Also have fun in S. Korea =)
I'm not popping corks on any bottles yet... but I had a second round of interviews today with a parade of VPs and the CFO. Nothin is certain until I have a signed offer letter in hand... but I think I crushed it. It all felt really natural and right. The role has changed a bit since our first meeting, but the hiring manager and I discussed at length, and it should be a healthy stretch of my abilities (also pronounced super challenging and almost daunting). I'm super stoked. Thank you all again for the support and kindness. I actually went to the post from last week and re-listend to all of the pump up songs on the drive in. Mr. Miyagi gets me every time... points come concentrate focus power remember balance make good fight straight up wisdom right there...Remember your defense
Per kleinbl00's tip, I have picked up a 3d printer off of craigslist. Is it steller? Nah. Does it work? Yes. Will I use it print out another printer? You fucking betcha. I've had to fix a few issues with how the previous owner assembled the kit, but it more or less passes calibration tests now! I haven't been this excited 'bout a nerd project since I installed Gentoo 1.2 on my iLamp.
Repairs: I repaired a washing machine! Can't believe how easy it was to pinpoint problems once I decomposed it completely. All the gaskets/seals got replaced, gunk and lime removed from everything, and this thing works as new. It's likely that the bulk of my work wasn't necessary, but what the hell. It works. Chess: Last week I won, this week I was a million miles away and blundered myself into a draw. It is usually the point in any given tournament when I start losing every other game. Still, so far I'm 5.5 out of 6 and ranked as fifth overall. I guess that's something. As long as this tournament will not end with me being 5.5 out of 11, I'm OK with that. Lectures: I'm preparing slides and other stuff for my first uni-approved lecture. It's about determining the number of possible platonic solids and Kepler-Poinsot polyhedra. Timing everything is difficult. I have no idea how actual lecturers are doing it. Right now, it feels to me that I was getting much better results by winging it as I go and will likely do just that. Schemes: A few months ago I mentioned that there are some loopholes in regulations regarding our graduation requirements. You see, a lot of the courses from mathematical/theoretical physics count toward applied mathematics programme and vice versa. It includes grad-level courses I took/am taking! Apparently, it works as intended. Assuming that I'll play it well, I might be able to get two masters degrees in less than two years from now. Worth a try.
Can I see the game? A draw is still really good. Your score in the tournament overall still sounds like you being overly modest.
33.h5 doesn't even look like too much of a blunder, because you take on c6 the next move. I don't fully understand the .7 centipawn loss there, it just feels like such an even game. I really think that this game is indicative of how consistent you are as a player. Was there something to trading queens on turn 10? I know the computer says it's the best move, it already looks... drawish after the knight recaptures. I feel like Qg3 would have been more your style. I just got interviewed for a graphic design internship position for these guys today: http://chessbrah.tv/about-chessbrah/ I felt really good about the interview. if I get the position, I'll get to travel to Montreal, help them with their blitz chess stream, and get drunk with famous chess players. It's still really weird to me. I didn't have anyone else to tell right now, but I thought maybe you'd be amused by it. Also, I do the same about the downplaying, but I really think you're doing great! I'd love to see your next games.
It is raining and cold and lovely and wet and I am burning a scented candle and listening to an endless playlist of John Serrie. My daughter has been eating peanut flour in carefully controlled conditions for a week now with no ill effects. She got a check that is now in a college account I set up for her. It's not called "adulting" you pesky whipper-snappers it's called "being responsible" because some of us are past 40 and still feel fucking accomplished when we do the right thing. I have three instances of Altiverb and two instances of Speakerphone transforming one recorded-on-a-Zoom call to prayer into three different environments across eight seconds in 5.1. I was unable to find a decent recording of an IAI Heron circling so I built one using Reaktor and Altiverb. This movie is not worth it. Except maybe it is. It feels pretty fuckin' good to fabricate the sound of a UAV out of whole cloth using nothing but oscillators, reverb and doppler effect. My cousin asked me "why watches?" and we had an hour and a half conversation. then I showed him a vintage IWC pocketwatch turned into a wristwatch and he said "god, I want that" when he hasn't worn a watch in 20 years. It's funny. I tell people I'm learning how to take apart watches and they don't say "why the fuck would you do that?" they say "COOL" and start talking about how much they love these things they don't wear because they're too expensive. there is a market. I agreed to purchase a 2002 911 Carrera yesterday. Now I just need to go get it. I'm currently battling the twin emotions "why the fuck do you want to drive a goddamn Porsche" / "why the fuck doesn't everybody drive a goddamn Porsche" because on the one hand, douche. but on the other hand, holy fuck that's a fun little car. I got to take apart a real watch yesterday. Lovely Elgin, with a case and a crystal and a face and hands and everything. I discovered it's missing a jewel. I could maybe get it to run again. This simple task, this simple possibility, made me giddy as a schoolgirl. I mixed Laibach. It was 'eh. I worked with Louis Gossett Jr. all day once. It was pretty cool. This gorgeous little beastie? God I'm home. Spoke to my erstwhile agent. My book has been in limbo for a year because she can't receive the attachments she's asking for. Yeah. How you like them apples.
I'll admit to being turned on more than I should be. My supervisor (pronounced: tells me what to do, doesn't understand our companies product line or operational strategy, and makes hella more money than I do) asked me how to forward an email message in gmail. I can't make that shit up. all that matters... It feels pretty fuckin' good to fabricate the sound of a UAV out of whole cloth using nothing but oscillators, reverb and doppler effect.
because she can't receive the attachments she's asking for
but on the other hand, holy fuck that's a fun little car.
It's peak TAL. Speaking of which, have you listened to the new Jon Ronson podcast series The Butterfly Effect? I think the first episode was on TAL, the rest is now an Audible 'exclusive'. On the one hand, it would've been better if it weren't forced into the podcast mold, but on the other hand it's a great story and I loved that we finally get to actually hear the people he describes.
Butterfly Effect was the podcast that made me realize I really hate podcasts. I love Jon Ronson, I love his writing, pornhub is actually pretty interesting, and I couldn't make it through an episode and a half. It's what I hate about podcasts: "if this were a radio broadcast, we'd have to be concise and edit it down for length. But since it's a podcast, we know you want to hear self-important rambling for 45 minutes." Audiobooks? No problem. Burned through two adjusting the valve lash on my Benelli. Podcasts? I finished one and that's because I was hoping to hear something insightful about Network Attached Storage. I will never listen to another voluntarily.
I've been waiting for it to hit general audience. Any idea when?
Had a great week - met AnSionnachRua in Amsterdam this Sunday! (First time I've ever met a Guinness World Record holder, too.) The weather was fantastic, so after lunch we walked to the Vondelpark and got ice cream. Hope you made it back safe 'n sound. Do you still have that picture we took? I bought a stupid-ass sweater that I think is funny. I already regret spending money on it. If someone can CRISPR my impulse-buying genes out, that'd be grreeaattt.
Scattered. Media I've started reading Reclaiming Conversation, and it's making me think a lot. Heading into the read I had already been thinking a lot about my relationship with media and technology, and feeling that it's not that healthy. Last night I made a decision to ditch Facebook with the exception of a page I manage, and to RSVP to events. No more posts, comments, photos, etc. I need to get away from my phone more. We need to get away from our phones more and pay attention to each other. Listing example after example which I have personally contributed to or encountered would be easy, but everyone knows exactly what I'm talking about, so it's pointless. veen what kind of impact did this book have on you? More Media What has/what will the recent "Me Too" social media campaign accomplish? What will social media activism ever accomplish? On Being Selfish Came to the realization that having goals, intense desires, and devoting your time to accomplishing them is not being selfish. I'm not imposing any of this on anybody else, it's all on myself. If that means a relationship fails, or an interpersonal connection suffers, that is not being selfish. It is a matter of life getting in the way. There's a huge difference there.
I believe the point is to showcase how widespread the problem is. That it’s not only limited to slutty Hollywood actresses, but perhaps your sister, classmates and best friends too. Hopefully some people will open their eyes, and say “bro that’s not cool“ next time their buddy cat calls someone? The point is to start a conversation about respect. I don’t know if many minds will change, but perhaps seeing it as a society-wide problem VS an isolated one will help. What has/what will the recent "Me Too" social media campaign accomplish?
Ah, I think that's where we disagree. While that may be the point, I do not see this actually opening up a conversation. Where is the outlet for a conversation to start? There is a statement, and an awful one at that, but a status and a handful of comments on Facebook makes not a lasting, impactful conversation. The quote veen pulled out of Reclaiming Conversation (and there are many, many other applicable quotes) call into question if we are really making progress, truly conversing with one another. In a few months I think we will see if that is the case or not with the recent "Me Too" campaign.
It's not likely to have an impact on you because you aren't a creepy guy or a woman who has been harassed. I'm not sure if it makes a difference on a bigger scale but I know that it does make a difference to individuals. Sometimes talking about this stuff opens up a conversation off the internet as well. Sometimes being able to share something like that in even the vaguest details is incredibly cathartic especially for women who have struggled to even put words to what happened to them. It's common to jump back and forth between knowing you were assaulted and thinking you're just overreacting because others had it worse. So putting a statement like that out can mean a lot to individual women and it can mean a lot to the woman who resonates with it when the post has some more detail.
I don't disagree with you. But I also never said that it doesn't make a difference to the individual. I'm talking about actionable discussion or change on a larger scale and society/community wide, which you acknowledged. Two very different things.
I think it starts with individuals though and slowly becomes a more society wide change. Things don't change over night, people devote entire lifetimes to making small changes because it takes a while to really change society. I mean Australia still hasn't legalized gay marriage. Progress is slow with or without technology. If anything I would say technology, or I guess the access to information it provides helps move things along faster.
Well we can definitely say the internet helped push things along for Trump so maybe you're right.
Where to start... I jotted this quote down, which might be a good starting point: The focal point of her book, in my opinion, is that she describes our generation's 'flight from conversation'. She doesn't beat around the bush: we've willfully eroded and replaced valuable, face-to-face conversation in favor of easier, more comfortable but less meaningful digital communication. She uses a bunch of archetypes to hit her point home, for example when she describes the friend group where most people are glued to their phones most of the time. Or when she describes the 'always-connectedness' of highschoolers. Or when she describes teenagers unwilling to call because that conversation might not be perfect, preferring the comfort of a well-crafted email instead. Or the girl demanding that her parents stop using their phones and just talk to her. I am so guilty of the behaviours she describes. Obviously not to the extent she describes, but to an extent that I'm ashamed of. Because I bought into the aforementioned illusions of digital communications, the book felt like someone pulled the rug out from under me. As an example, I always loathed and avoided phone calls like a lot of my peers. So even though I've been living out of the house for years now, I've never called my family to just talk about how things are going. That was probably the first thing I drastically changed — I now call my parents at least once a week, usually more.Digital communication gives us the illusion of companionship, without the demands of friendship; it gives us the illusion of progress, without the demands of action.
I'm going to be reading that immediately following this book. I think.
I have read Alone Together a year or two ago but wasn't as impressed with it as I am with this one. If I remember correctly, she made some interesting points about how we interact with technology, e.g. our ability to do the heavy lifting when humanizing AI and robots. What made you feel so bad when reading it?
The inevitable drive towards a technology that, by her own investigation, we are hopeless to humanize and her steady qualification of her studies over the past 30 years indicating that human empathy has declined in lock-step with our adoption of technology.
Gord Downie died today. Unless you're Canadian or lived in a border state, you probably didn't know him or his music. I wrote a poem about it in the "Something Beautiful" prompt that tacocat posted. I'd been turning the prompt around in my head to find something to write about, and I guess i found it. University's going okay. It's hard being the out-of-towner, other people who've been here for a few years get the opportunities regardless of whether they're more or less skilled than you are. Time to build up my entire reputation from the ground up. Again.
It's a directed angst week, so that's good. This documentation thing is still an issue but I'm not going to let nihilism win out and I'm doing everything I can think of to put together a good proposal and get a lot of buy in. People seem tentatively excited but there's still a long way to go. I also got a Surface Book. I haven't been a windows fan in a long time but damn is it a nice machine. Lastly, I need a productive hobby. I've been talking a lot but doing nothing around this whiteness site. My wife is working a workshop about the role of women in the propagation of white supremacy, and if she can tackle the issue so can I. So yeah, I'm going to go do that now.
I'm in a cafe in Cheney, Washington. The first odd thing is that I am the only person in a 3/4 full cafe with a laptop out. It's very bizarre to me. I'm trying to be conservative with my computer usage right now. Quite a bit of turbulence on my flight to Washington. I stuck my camera to the window and held the shutter to get this: https://i.imgur.com/FXhTNH7.gif Finally got a portfolio for myself together before I left. Then one interview I had lined up in Spokane fell apart on me, found out a couple hours after I got off the plane. I came here to visit a friend, so I should focus on that. Trying not to think too much about employment, or maybe I should be. Trying to enjoy myself on vacation. Trying.
Last week my wife and I planned all our meals in advance. And it worked great - good food, easier to prep ahead of time, which meant less time cooking, using one meals leftovers for the base of the next day's. This week we totally choked because we didn't plan it all out on Saturday. Monday I'm joining a different project in a different department using different software doing different stuff... I had one guy tell me "they're a fun group," and another tell me "it's chaos, they have no idea what they're doing." The next 6 months will be interesting.
Went to bed last night feeling like a champ. Woke up this morning feeling like a loser. Must have been a dream I had last night. I was gonna make a rant about how much I hate Nat Geo Wild and how I think the channel is sensationalist and borderline exploitative reality TV bullshit that puts what should be a historically well respected organization like National Geographic to shame. Decided not to post it, cause it's just too fucking negative. Seriously though, Nat Geo Wild is mostly shit. Read multiple articles in the newspaper today dogging on my city, my county, and my state. I mean, I know this place isn't paradise, but hot damn, it's not that bad. I'm wearing an undershirt, a flannel shirt, and a sweater and I still can't seem to get warm. Maybe I'm sick. I've been getting sick a lot lately. Don't know what that's about. I'm gonna go draw something now and devise a plan into tricking thenewgreen into selling me his house for like, $100 or something.
Coming back from NYC. I was able to dine with ecib, his wife and some good old friends last night. That was wonderful. We opened NYC with today, and the doc, clinic, and clients were great. Then to a potential investor meeting. One of my favorite parts of FL is meeting clients at their procedures. It's oddly like Hubski, unusually intelligent, cool people. Half of the time, they bring up cryptocurrency. I'm in MDW, and I'm tired. Next week is all travel. I need a week at home. I'm reading Man-eaters of Kumaon by Jim Corbett. It's amazing. Highly recommended. Before that I read Hummingbird by (Rude) Jude Angelini. It is a work of art. Do read. I knew him casually growing up, and always admired his wit and genuine nature. The book is raw.
Life is life. I'm still working on my music daily which is resulting in some cool stuff. The website I'm building for work is coming together nicely. I'm enjoying living in the city again; it was cool to see my old uni mates and tutors and hear their music. I'm also on a 120 day streak with my meditation. Not much overly-exciting, but not much dullness either. I also bought some Beyerdynamic DT-880 headphones as an upgrade from my 8 year old original ATH-M50s (which now have a broken hinge RIP). I am very pleased with them. I anticipate that they will be an asset to my mixes.
Continuing my streak of mind-melting drill sequence reading/organizing. At least things make sense now that I have a better handle on the macros, plus I found out this fantastic piece of 2003 NASA history exists. Came for the rover drifting, stayed for the algorithms. Goat milk didn't work very well for yogurt... maybe I didn't use enough starter? Maybe the different structure of goat milk protein means it needs to boil/incubate for longer? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ The tasty, sometimes very stinky, experiment continues. If anyone has yogurt making tips I'm all ears! Also picked out our wedding colors so yay for progress.
Yeah, it just didn't look any different than it did right after I mixed in the cultures. No gelling and (surprisingly since it's not homogenized) not much layer separation. No idea what the pH might have been since I was a bit afraid to taste it since it wasn't doing what I expected. My method - Bring a quart of goat milk to just below a boil in a dutch oven - Put the top on and let it cool off the burner for 15 mins (or until lukewarm - 15 mins worked for me) - Whisk in 1/4 cup yogurt <- my issue may have been here since the recipe I used the first time around was with a half cup, and we just didn't leave enough of the last batch - Put the lid back on, and put it in the oven with a light on for 4-6 hours (check at 4 for gelling, my first batch was good at 4.5 so I figured a cap of 6 hours would start getting too sour for me) - Put it in the fridge once finished. Any suggestions for a culinary pH meter? I hadn't considered that as a gate check for yogurt making, but it makes a lot of sense. Not sure what else I can use it for, though I'm tempted to just start poking all kinds of things and get some food science data going ha. And haha right!
No worries - busy week for me too. Hmm I'll try this and see what happens. I'm starting the cultures over tomorrow since I threw out everything from the botched batch, but for the next week I'll try this and see if it helps. Also you've inspired me to to screw around with some pH strips in food this weekend, ha. Thanks!
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. I hate my brain some days. See last weeks post about rotting, stinking corpses. Work is work, tonight I'm getting dinner with some friends I haven't seen in a while. One is about to go bum around Thailand for a month before starting a apprenticeship at a really bougie restaurant in South Korea, the other has a girlfriend who is more into her cats than she is into him.