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Infrastructure & Planning student in the Netherlands.

Sometimes make things like this:

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veen  ·  12 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: April 7, 2021

The past month has seen the two big projects that I've been working on since last summer dwindle. One is effectively over, but still has a bit of work that's left to finish, and the other is in a lull as deadlines have been pushed back. I can work ahead somewhat, but it's obviously a lower workload.

The past month I've been struggling with feelings of inferiority because of my lower workload. If I'm busy all week, I rarely question whether the work I'm doing is fulfilling or not; I mostly hit the gas and keep going and going. As soon as I have the space in my calendar and the room in my head to ruminate, I will ruminate. On a rational level I can accept that after months of busting my ass of, it's good to have it a bit easier again. It's normal for there to be room to deload and take stock. But that doesn't stop my inner calvinist demon from making me feel inadequate because I'm not working the most I could at this particular moment.

The dumbest part is that it's not even a useful feeling. I shouldn't be near-overworking, it's not when I am at my best. I do my best work when I am not in a hurry and have a lot of free time, because then I can do what's most important instead of whatever's next in my calendar. I do my best work when I have the room to dive down interesting rabbit holes or can spend an afternoon digging into a problem.

I'm also much happier with the calendar that I have this week than the one I had two months ago. For the first time since... last summer? have I felt the energy to pursue side projects again. There's almost nothing that makes me happier than to dive into a new obsession and scratch my itch, so to speak. I still want to do something with generative design, so I spent the better part of my Saturday wrestling with Autodesk.

The past three days I've been obsessing over the Walstad method of keeping aquariums. My SO has had a tiny 20L (5 gal) aquarium stored in a box, which I was at first hesitant to use because it's so small. Most aquariums are either fake-sad nature, or expensive hyperregulated pump-galores, and I do not want to subject livestock to either. But I found this wholesome corner of YouTube where a one dude is getting millions of views documenting his effectively all-natural micro tank, a wonderful little ecosystem that he keeps in balance with some care, but almost no maintenance.

So now I'm reading the source book on the Walstad method, which is a chemist explaining how to maintain the chemical balance in one's tank to sustain an ecosystem. It's be a while since high school chemistry, but the basic rules and ideas are not that hard. Excited to go to the pet store soon and buy some stuff, see if I can grow some plants myself. In true Millennial fashion we already keep a few dozen plants alive in the house, so this fits right in with that.

veen  ·  20 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Yearly Hubski Check In.

I'm here, checking in every day for as long as I can remember, but I don't often reply. Chat is nice and low-key. I feel like I've found maybe one twentieth the number of good articles the past year, so I don't have as much to share or read or say, which is a bummer.

Things are bland. Or heart-breaking. Or both. We still have a long way to go until normal people can get a shot, and the next months are not going to be nice so I'm dreading that. I got myself undeep nasal antigen tests and have rarely felt more conflicted about spending money on my personal health.

veen  ·  24 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: The Bank Effect and the big boat blocking the Suez

There’s also this, which doesn’t help:

The survey my employer did ended up at 25% considering leaving, in a non-anonymous survey. So that 40% feels very true. I expect it to rip at the end of the year, when we’ve had a few months of normal life and people realize they don’t like the old normal anymore or simply have seen greener pastures. I’ve already noticed a few coworkers intentionally moving away from the office, buying homes and creating 90+ minute commutes. Doable, but definitely not 5-day-office-doable.

That third point on high productivity masking exhaustion is also something I’m seeing firsthand. What used to be 15% commute wasted time is now 15% extra projects and meetings. The people who started with us straight outta college are the most fucked, as they entered the workplace in a time where work-life boundaries were at its loosest, so they never taught themselves to let go of work in the evenings. I’m actively preventing exhaustion by setting the expectation of working a day less each week, and I know I’m not the only one because half of all 2021 team year-plans had some form “taking a step back to take care of ourselves” in it.

veen  ·  33 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: March 17, 2021

I just voted! Our ballots are hilariously large, as in 2 bij 4 feet large fold-outs. There was only one person ahead of me and I was done in less than a minute, most of the time was spent properly re-folding the ballot. The whole process was a wonderfully strict and orderly display of electoral logistics. Got to keep my red pencil AKA mark of democracy because of Covid restricting the use of reusable pencils.

It took until yesterday to decide which party to vote on. There were some newcomers, like the pro-European Volt movement and a new radical equality party, that piqued my interest. In the end I cast my vote (again) for the green socialists. There was some reluctance, but I realized nothing is more important right now than voting for a better climate and I think the green socialists have the best programme for that.Voted for a woman on the list who's been actively working on accessibility and justice and is also a badass wheelchair hockey world champion.

We spent a long weekend at the SO's parents. A much needed change of scenery with lots of quality time. Board games were played. We watched a phenomenal weekly late night show together on TV, which is all about music and finding the joy of wonder in covid times. My soul hasn't been this soothed by something on linear television in...ages. Came back from the weekend refreshed, almost like we had gone on holiday!

veen  ·  35 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Elon Musk Is the New ‘Technoking of Tesla’ and CFO Is Dubbed ‘Master of Coin’

What bad news is he trying to hide this time around?

veen  ·  36 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: The Antikythera Cosmos

I still feel so lucky that I got to visit the actual Antikytheria. Dragged my friends to the museum in Athens, which hadn't had much going for it otherwise. Worth it.

veen  ·  47 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: March 3, 2021

The last few weeks have been a bit rocky from time to time, but things are going fairly well now.

Just came back from a wonderful walk in the woods and on the heather with a good friend, which was followed by a pretty fantastic one-on-one coaching session. A few weeks ago I decided that I needed career advice from someone skilled, so that I can be happier in my work, as I've been struggling to find the next step to take in my career. HR was open to that idea, so I'm not even paying for it.

The session was two hours of candid conversation, almost a therapy session in how deep it went. I can't remember the last time I've been so vulnerable with someone I've previously talked to less than an hour, but I had no reservations in giving my whole self.

The conversation made me realize just how wide and deep my interests and skills are, which is something that feels natural to me but really isn't. I'm not a "T-shaped professional", I'm more of a rake. Or like a really thick Swiss army knife. It reminded me how much I like to be building bridges between things - between people and ideas, between technology and people, between problem and solution. It feels good to re-evaluate my work-related values and work on myself with someone who asks the right questions. The past year has felt...unrewarding on that front.

Something I had a lot of fun with the past week was help mr. watch-amacallit (aka kleinbl00) by building a landing page for his watch biz. I very much played the part of "nah, we're not paying you to build a website, I have a nephew who can smash something together". The result's turned out pretty great I think.

veen  ·  56 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Daft Punk Break Up After 28 Years

For me it's the knowledge that we'll never get another album. I was still patiently waiting for an Alive 2017 tour/album. We got a Grammy performance but that's about it.

veen  ·  59 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: 12:30 p.m.—Perseverance Mars Rover landing day livestream for all students

It's only like an hour or two old, so can't blame ya. But this is one of the first of 30,000 full rgb high res stills were gonna get of just the landing, and later more of the drone theyre gonna fly as an experiment.

Millions of dollars will get us some dope footage.

veen  ·  59 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: 12:30 p.m.—Perseverance Mars Rover landing day livestream for all students

So turns out Percy has a TON of cameras, including on the sky crane itself? And it's also video? Which it sent along its umbilical cord be fore flying away?

veen  ·  60 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: 12:30 p.m.—Perseverance Mars Rover landing day livestream for all students

I'm watching the realtime simulation over at https://eyes.nasa.gov/, which is close enough to Kerbal to make me even more excited about this.

veen  ·  61 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: February 17, 2021

A player in my D&D group wants to run a oneshot which may or may not become a campaign. Another player and I decided to weave our backstories together, and the DM came up with the idea to run a prologue, so now we're doing asynchronous D&D in a Whatsapp group chat and I love it.

veen  ·  61 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Junk Cabin: Secretly building my wife a COVID office

Thanks! The more content to watch, the better these days. Have always enjoyed watching Adam more than the others, so it should be good stuph.

veen  ·  62 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: 421st Weekly "Share Some Music You've Been Into Lately"

I've been listening to CJSW again, particularly their show The A.M. (you can look it up on your podcast player of choice). It's three hours of Monday morning ethereal, ambient, slow, unwinding, low-viewcount music. Love it.

veen  ·  64 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Junk Cabin: Secretly building my wife a COVID office

I haven't been following his channel much the past year, all I got algorithmically reccomended were unedited Q&As which I don't particularly enjoy watching. Which videos are you referring to? :)

veen  ·  64 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: This Is Every Cyclist Who Was Killed by a Driver in 2020

What Ben says. We design many systems around the idea of human falliblity - but in most every country, walking or cycling people aren't protected from the failings of people in heavy machinery.

veen  ·  67 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: All of the World’s Money and Markets in One Visualization

That Fed red really puts the money printer in perspective. "Yeah, we added the same amount of money as all the gold reserves to our balance sheet in less than a year."