Yay! Running! Not sure if you have a goal with this, or already aware of Couch to 5k but it's an awesome little running plan if you're looking to get into it and (hopefully) enjoy running while you do!

How are you submitting apps? Primarily online or using your network?

Too much coffee and yoga is a good thing, I think. Or at least not a bad thing. Unless you have a caffeine sensitivity. Which reading list are you digging into, there's at least 2 kb reading lists.

Debating vocabulary and semantics in a report is an exhausting experience.

Did this thing three days ago. Feels more like three weeks ago. The amount of support and congratulations that came out after this was overwhelming, and it really made me feel like part of a community, spanning across multiples states, time zones, and points of life. There's a feeling of belonging and knowing that you all want to beat each other, but would never hesitate to help each other.

Followed that up with a yoga session Monday night, and had a thought that didn't feel like it was coming from me about forty minutes into the session. Everything will be okay, because it must. It was a similar feeling to a lot of the thoughts that were passing by when I was depressed, a detachment to the thought and a feeling that it wasn't actually coming from me. But there it is.

Where does your sense of self-worth come from?

I look at self-worth the same way I look at motivation vs. inspiration. It has to come from within to be sustainable. Somebody can inspire (external) you to do something, but if you don't have the motivation (internal) to follow through or maintain, then it's kind of like eating a candy bar. It's good in that exact moment, but long term it doesn't provide sustenance. Self-worth is a similar topic, you can derive self-worth from your relationships with others, but if you aren't determining what your mission is, what you want to get out of the things you do, or even making an effort to try and find out what it is that you like to do, your self-worth will be fleeting. Self-worth drives actions that are lasting and tangible. But a lot of work and exploration is necessary before reaching that point.

Post race bananas are maybe the single greatest thing in the world. There were some really inspiring moments during the race, such as the blind runner being guided by his coach, or the marathoners with their baby strollers, or the 60 year old guy who ran at attention for a full mile as he passed a section of American flags.

The atmosphere is amazing, you're spot-on about that. It's going to be a gradual thing, hopefully hit 8:20 miles, then 8:10, then 8:00. Do you have any races coming up?

Thanks cgod! Good luck to your wife on the full, has she ran a marathon before? I was thinking about signing up for the half but things like kind of dicey with the permitting situation with that race this year.

Fuck yes, Wegmans is the best. Go to Wegmans. Stop going anywhere else.

Well, part of it is that we as a country allow companies to do this. There are currently no regulations regarding the term "natural" or "all-natural" for food labels. That said, the FDA is currently requesting comments on this exact topic.

I was listening to Maron interview Bruce Springsteen last night, and a semi related topic was a major point of discussion. They spent a lot of time talking about two types of people:

1. Those who are hard on themselves.

2. Those who beat the shit out of themselves.

I think that a lot of what kleinbl00 brought up are societal conditions pushing people towards (2), where the kind of communities you bring up are people reinforcing their belief that they fall into (2). There is an inherent belief, I think, that things will not get better, that you will not be better, and that you do not deserve to improve when you fall into (2). The other side is people who become too consumed by improvement and grind themselves into a nib, also category (2).

I was living alone prior to this. It was awesome. I would like to return to living alone.

I don't need this shit.

Roommate 1: In her 40s. Has 3 cats, two are super cool, one is horrible and I spent a half hour this morning trying to coax it out of my room. Quit her job a couple weeks ago. A family member is moving in. Neither of them have their shit together. Oh and she baby talks her cats all the fucking time. Made a big deal out of making space and consolidating things when I first moved in, yet leaves her shit everywhere. Guess I know what that was about now.

Roommate 2: Extremely passive aggressive. Loud. Generally an unpleasant person.

Which is weird because I met em both through running and they're fine in those groups but, I'm moving out sooner rather than later. Make enough money to not have to deal with this kind of shit.