I might make an Ask Hubski for this. We don't really do Ask Hubski as much anymore. I recently watched an incredible film about Marc-Andre Leclerc, one of the stars who burned brightest and flamed out quickest, in the alpinist community. If you have a chance to watch The Alpinist, I highly, highly recommend it. A deeply personal look at somebody who never had interest being on camera, who died at 25 having solo'd high-alpine routes which nobody had done before, and he left an impression on people he met and didn't meet.
One of the biggest questions I have been asking myself coming out of the film is something asked towards the end of the film: "What is that you could do if you could overcome the things you see as limitations? Or that things that you're afraid of? What would you do?".
...I might go do some mild soloing on 4th class terrain this weekend. Wouldn't be the first time, wont the last time.