I've wondered what it would be like to be 'healthy' since I was a child. It moves me to tears every time I let myself stray too far down that path.

I'd like to think that everybody has their own definition of what "healthy" is. Physically, mentally, emotionally, they all mean different things to different people. You likely have a much better idea of what that means to you than most other people do.

By losing themselves in the crowd, is that Emerson's way of saying they become complacent, or too comfortable in their own living?

On the flip side, you could see companies start to push for automation because of those exact reasons. It removes a level of uncertainty from your supply chain (when will my truck actually arrive, versus when was it scheduled to arrive, versus dock pick-ups, etc.). Would also eliminate the risk of cross-docking loads en route to the recipient. Lots of little technical things which could be solved or at least clarified by tricking automation. Sure, the truck companies might not love going in that direction, but I think all the customers would.

Do you have the intent on owning a pub sometime in the future? Congrats on the sisters house. Having occasionally helped out, and very occasionally born witness to, a complete interior remodeling of a house, that is no joke of a task.

It bothers me to no end that I feel guilty about having my kid doing daycare at a private school even though it's a non-profit and we're on scholarship and that I'm wracked with guilt over the thought of buying a 16-year-old sports car even though it costs less than a mutherfucking Prius. And I don't even know who to be mad at.

Hmm. Why feel guilty about the private school thing? Especially since it's a nonprofit which I'm sure is doing a lot of good work for the community it serves (or, at least, I hope it is). The Porsche thing I can kind of understand, given appearances.

Trying to move towards not taking things personally. A lot of that change is stemming from the impossibility of getting people to come from Seattle to anywhere that's not Seattle, and also a recent event wherein a friend is putting me in a position to chose between a couple of different things when we had already made previous plans. It's nothing about me, against me, it's about them. People make their own choices, and they are responsible for them. And that's okay, just have to keep living my life.

  This is what it's like
  You take the first step out of your room
  And the next leads you into the street
  Where the people you see and the people you meet
  Are the people you leave and you leave and you leave
  
  You've tried to get by and fade into the night
  The smiles you see are trying to say
  We've been watching you and we don't like what we see
  But you're too far into this now and you wanted to know
  Is this what it's like to be and to be

  When everyone else is just trying to speak
  You hold that glazed look in your eye
  Well you're trying to lie
  "Yes I'm doing alright it's just a bit of a phase"
  When you wake up you'll feel like you're making a hit

Nekooo...the Case, Lang, Viers album was one of the better things to happen in music last year. I would still see The New Pornographers. And especially Destroyer because I love me some Dan Bejar. Yeah Metric and Stars are great. Well, Metric is consistently good, and Stars put out an album better than anything Metric has done with Set Yourself on Fire.

Tegan and Sara are consistently good and write great pop hooks nowadays. Not my favorite band by any means, but I enjoy listening to them.

When it comes to mid-2000s Canadian bands, what about The Weakerthans!? Though they're more late 90's to early 00s I guess.

but the real treat was seeing Feist and Kevin Drew sing Almost Crimes.

I would have died in that moment. Goosebumps just reading that sentence. Ugh, would love to see BSS sometime. Them and The New Pornographers are on the list.

My headspace is ambiguous at best these past couple of weeks. Went on a nice, long (13.8 mile) run on Sunday but have been dealing with a hamstring issue for about a month now. Thinking about seeing a PT for this and a couple of other small, nagging issues. It's a constant journey and I'm always meeting a lot of interesting people through running. Starting to give back by volunteering at races, too, which is very rewarding but in a different way. Seeing people succeed or push themselves against themselves for 26.2 miles (or 13.1, or 3.1, etc.) is inspiring especially when you understand what they are feeling.

So, that's mostly good. Likely going to be joining the Board of Directors of a second Non-Profit in November(ish), this one will be running related. It's funny how once you maintain a residence and involvement in the community you start to see the same people in different organizations and capacities, and you start to be a name that pops up in rooms you're not in. The same thing is happening at work. All of these things are good.

There's a lot of emotional difficulties, though. I don't feel capable of having an intimate relationship at this stage of life. After the last breakup I went back to the whole online dating thing for about 3 weeks, deleted all of those accounts (not just disabled, to remove any temptation). I'm slowly trying to remove myself from the dating pool but honestly, it feels like I've been removed for a while now. My emotional availability is just not where it needs to be to be fair to another human being in a romantic capacity. It's nobodies fault, but it has become incredibly easy for me to strike up a conversation with somebody and hell maybe even be friends with them but anything beyond that is a massive struggle. Does anybody still get that kind of fluttering, nervous sensation when they meet somebody or are out on a date? I don't. I haven't in years.

We're going to have to embrace cold (emphasis - BORING) statistics in our efforts

A big chunk of my job is driven around collecting and analyzing data, and making statistics into something useful in a manufacturing environment. Even Engineers as a whole don't have a firm grasp of both definitions and the math behind statistical analysis (why does normality matter, yo?). The shitty part is if you don't set things up correctly, or you p-hack, etc. etc. then your statistics are junk. So, I agree with you, but there is a lot of danger there, as I'm sure you already know. How do you educate people on this kind of thing?

The two biggest problems I think we have (what do you think here?):

1. The Fairness Doctrine needs to come back.

2. We need to have a massive overhaul and reinvestment in our public educational system.

Are either of these things going to happen anytime soon (if ever)? HAH.

Ah, if that's the case the you would think #wanking is accomplishing the same thing as the article ;)

What can I do to impact a person in any part of Alabama? Or rural Michigan? Or suburban Texas? Fuck all, really, I don't live there, I don't have family there, I have no connection to those places whatsoever. Shy of moving to any of those places, the best I can is to donate to political races, the ACLU, the SPLC, Planned Parenthood, etc. To think there is more I can do for those places and people is to put a savior complex on myself. What am I doing? Volunteering for two organizations regularly, three others on occasion, donating to certain non profit agencies, and trying to make the world immediately around me a bit better of a place.