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tacocat  ·  link  ·  parent  ·  post: Sci-fi club special issue: Kung Fury

Read Oryx and Crake. I don't dislike science fiction, I just don't like the kind that sci fi fans like. And that book is awesome.

I don't feel better now, but I now think I might feel better tomorrow

tacocat  ·  link  ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: April 26, 2017

Hey now. I've been making those for fun.

tacocat  ·  link  ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: April 26, 2017

I'm doing both actually. She makes me want to be better. And I know I'm pretty smart and talented. But now I'm all that and motivated.

tacocat  ·  link  ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: April 26, 2017

Life is great. To me at least. From a different point of view it's a dumpster fire.

I picked up my 60 day AA chip yesterday. It's the longest I've ever been sober since before I had pubes. I told my story the other day in IOP (intensive outpatient rehab) and everyone was very impressed by what I've been through and where I am now. Last weekend I went to a reunion at the residential program I was in and my girlfriend came from Alabama to be with me. We went to an art show that night that my old boss was having.

But when she sat in my car, which I haven't driven since October, there was a pint of vodka behind the seat cover. It was embarrassing. I had her throw it out of the window. I honestly also wanted to drink it. I don't know what I would have done if I'd found it first. It was my worst craving since February.

I went to see her at her place last week. Which was awesome but I was sitting with her in her apartment and looking at the life she has, which is not even that representative of where she is since a lot of stuff is at her house where her husband is living, and I felt like such a loser for wasting so much of my life drunk. She's unbelievably successful at a young age and I have no idea what she's doing with me. I try not to question it and accept how lucky I am. Also, while I was there and she was at work there was a bottle of liquor in the freezer. But I didn't want to drink any. I thought, "That is something that people can drink," and that was about it.

It's advised not to start a relationship or make any major life changes in the first year of recovery. And I am not taking that advise. My new relationship saved my life. It's a bit difficult sometimes. We both have baggage, she's going through a divorce and I'm a newly sober man-baby, but I think I'm handling it pretty well for the most part. I sometimes delude myself that I'm uncommonly mentally healthy when I know I absolutely am not. But at least I'm willing to work on myself. And I think I conceptually know what a healthy relationship is like even if I've never been in one and I'm very in love and very committed to making this work.

Thanks to everyone who listened to my story. I know it's long, longer than the attention span of the Internet, but a few people have listened to it and I hope they enjoyed it.

I don't think anyone cried but I got a hug from a kid who was the last person I expected it from. There was also some good stuff shared after the story, general recovery talk.

I read the whole article and the only thing they didn't find was video of him using reddit while talking about creating theredpill. And he still did exactly what I thought he would. I can't wait for the full schadenfreude to kick in when he loses his job.

That was a fucking delicious takedown of an abject piece of shit. I eagerly await the denial and its claims of persecution by the vagenda of manocide.

I say it's easy but I've never tried this:

Start with a soft stone like alabaster and you should be able to get the basics pretty easily. Easy to learn, hard to master.

I did find a skeleton key in a drawer at my parents house but I was reluctant to assume it doesn't unlock something.

Crashing with Pete Holmes on HBO. I'm surprised he curses in it. I thought he was too square to ever say 'fuck.'

You're the Worst is probably my favorite show that isn't animated (muthafuckin' Rick and Morty!)

I will finish Girls when I'm done with Crashing.

Bob's Burgers.

The Last Man on Earth.

I started This Is Us and intend to finish it at some point.

I watch a lot of TV for someone who doesn't watch TV.

Then there are shows on my to-do list and shows I'm done with and waiting for the next season...

tacocat  ·  link  ·  parent  ·  post: MeetUpSki Location Location Location

Atlanta, Birmingham, AL and Gulf Shores, AL for the Hangout Music Fest

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