I went on a Bumble first date last night. The guy brought his gun. thank u, next.
I have another Bumble first date tonight, I'm more excited about this one.
I really just wanted to share because like, bringing a gun on a first date, not to mention telling your date about it, is pretty fucking NUTS right?
That's a really interesting question...
I concealed carry almost every day. I have a license, etc., so it is legal.
However, I also know that the presence of a gun is a problem for some people. So, for example, I talked to my massage therapist about it. Told her I carry. Asked about her opinion. And we came to an agreement. She is creating a safe space for me to be naked and vulnerable in, and I want to respect that, and not harm it in any way.
Now... if I was going on a first date with someone, I need to consider some things:
Option 1: Do I tell them about it so we are completely up front and honest about this? Starting off on the right foot?
Option 2: Do I not tell the person, since this is just a first date, and we don't really know where this is going yet.
If I take Option 1, then I risk alienating the other person immediately. Or, possibly start off a new relationship on a really strong foundation of trust and honesty.
If I take Option 2, and the date goes well, and there is another date... do I tell her then? After the 5th date? What if it gets down to heavy petting and she stumbles across it? What if I wait until I "feel something for her", and tell her then... and she's completely turned off? Then we both get hurt.
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Obviously, this depends a lot on how the conversation comes up.
"Don't worry about a thing, little lady. I can protect us." (Pulls back coat to reveal concealed weapon.)
versus
"I think it is important to be up front and honest with you, so I'd like you to know that I regularly carry a concealed weapon. How do you feel about that?"
... are very different conversations.
Further question: do you conceal carry when you know you will be drinking? Research indicates to me that’s pretty heavily frowned upon to illegal in almost every state.
Dude had 5 beers in 2 hours, which like isn’t crazy... but you’re carrying a gun.
I say tell the person, because if they have a problem with you carrying, are you going to stop carrying because you’re dating them? If it’s a dealbreaker, and you really do conceal carry everywhere and this isn’t something you’d want to stop doing, then you should communicate up front because it sounds like it’d be a dealbreaker for you to stop just as much as it would be for them to date someone who’s typically packing.
I completely agree that how you communicate this information to someone is as important and impactful to how a person’s going to receive it, as just the fact that you communicate it.
Oh, right! I forgot that this included drinking, too.
Then no. I wouldn't carry. If I am carrying a gun or riding my motorcycle I don't drink. At all. It's easier to be absolutist about it, than to operate dangerous machinery in an altered state.
- ...are you going to stop carrying because you’re dating them?
Possibly. I don't carry a gun every single day. Some days I am not up to the responsibility of carrying a lethal weapon, and therefore don't. It stays locked up at home.
If I were in a relationship with someone who was against CC, then I would have another factor to consider before carrying it every day.
There have been months where I haven't carried it. I was too angry, too frustrated, too worked up about the political climate... whatever. I just decided that I didn't need to carry one day. Then the next day. Then the day after. Etc.
I have many friends who have died at the hands of a crazy guy with a gun. That's why I started carrying: self defense.
However, if you are honest with yourself, a Good Guy With A Gun Stops A Bad Guy With A Gun is a trope, and is not supported by the numbers. Not by a long shot. (Heh.)
But there is something in the back of my brain that worries I can't protect my loved ones in the event of a loony with a gun, unless I am carrying a gun as well. So I carry. Sometimes. Most the time. Often. Not as much as I used to...
Just to be completely unambiguous, yes, that's fucking insane.
Now I'm interested if there should be another gunski discussion.
I went to a range recently and had fun there. I'm strongly considering a year membership for unlimited range time/rentals. Granted, I have no interest at all in owning a gun for "practical" or self-defense reasons. So maybe that's a separate (or really not at all separate?) issue.
What's Bumble?
Also yes, totally nuts. I mean, carrying a gun is nuts on its own, but telling your date about it means it's part of your persona.
A couple weeks ago some people I was with were talking about a type of beer I'd never heard of. It was something like beer that had milk in it? And maybe fruit? That made me feel old. I had no idea what they were talking about.
Bumble is a dating app where you swipe each other like Tinder, but the girl has to send the first message. Also, matches expire after 24 hours, so there is a time limit as well.
I am finding much more attractive/plentiful potential matches on Bumble than I did on Match. It would seem Match's barriers to entry (having a website that's straight from the 90s and a paywall) also kept out the cute younger guys (not surprising once I think about it). I did 1 Match date, but as of tonight will already be at 2 Bumble dates, having used the app for maybe 1/3 of the time I used Match (I paid for 6 months).
I can't imagine that happening in Canada. Well, maybe Alberta.
The closest I ever got was this one guy. I had gone out with him once or twice. He became a little obsessive and phoned me. He said, "I need to see you -- even if it has to be through bullet-proof glass."
That's super fucking nuts. Run!
I'm curious, I was talking with a friend of mine that is a physician. She is single. She has begun dating a guy that insists that they split the bill each time they go out, even though he is the one asking her out. Is this normal? She recently asked him to dinner and she paid because it was at her invitation. Is it old fashioned to think that the fella should pay when he asks a girl out? What are your expectations, if any?
If anything above is less than PC, please be gentle in your reply. Any offense given was not intentional. I'm an old fool. Been married for 14 years.
I always make the offer to split. However I’m not often taken up on it. I went on two first dates this week — at the first, the bar put us on the same tab (which I didn’t expect) so when the guy closed, both our drinks were on there. I offered to pay and we ended up agreed that I would buy us a round. This wasn’t even financially but honestly I think the guy was assumed he made more than I do (which maybe he did — he said he bought his truck in cash, which is pretty substantial after all) and also this is the guy with the gun who I suspect buys into more stereotypically masculine/feminine “norms” or tropes of behavior. On the other date we were on separate tabs. The guy did say he expected us to be on the same but I told him not to worry about it and offered to buy one of his two drinks.
What I would say is it seems typical for the guy to expect to pick up most of the tab for the first date. I think if that happens it’s good behavior of the counterpart to at least offer to contribute.
Insisting on 50/50 splitting the bill for every date is like the other side of the pendulum. For me such insistence would be a bit of a pinkish flag; unless you know you’re both in the exact same financial situation, a 50/50 split isn’t necessarily really fair, just equal.
I went on a match.com date earlier this year to a movie and we split with him buying tickets and me buying drinks and popcorn.
For me, I’m very financially comfortable and I don’t expect everyone I go on a date with to have that same comfort. I also feel uncomfortable expecting a man to pay for everything (because then I feel like there’s an unspoken sense of obligation). On the other hand a person who insisted dates be split rigidly 50/50 would probably make me feel a little uncomfortable too. I like the middle ground where I always offer to pay my part of the bill or part of the bill or where both of us are contributing to the date (like the movies example). I guess I would call that “splitting the bill in spirit without whipping out a calculator to do it.” In my experience, guys generally seem to prefer paying at least 50% of a bill to a majority — but I’ve had some bad luck with dating partners in that realm, aka some guys who seem insecure about money/a woman paying. I wouldn’t expect that to reflect actual social norms or I would hope it didn’t.
I do feel like the expectation should never be that the guy or masculine person is going to pay for the entire bill and a good standard of “being a decent person” behavior as the non-masculine person is to at minimum offer or make a token payment. For instance if the guy wanted to cover the dinner bill I’d say “here let me get the tip.” I don’t mind being treated and I’m not gonna fight a person who wants to treat me, but I’d never go on a date I couldn’t pay for. In the pat on rare occasions when I have, I’ve made my financial status clear to the person beforehand and we’ve agreed on who will pay and what activity we will do.
It’s honestly a super complex subject from my experience. I have definitely known guys who liked to always pay. To me that strikes me as an uncomfortable power imbalance I don’t want to be a part of.
Thank you for the thoughtful reply. This is some solid insight for us fellas :) I like your approach. If someone pays for drinks, saying "I have the next round." Or dinner, "let me get dessert," is a really good way to maintain a "balance," in the budding relationship. Smart.
Isn't it crazy how complex human interaction is? It's easy to forget that there are thousands of years of conditioning informing how we interact with one another. We are living in a time when we are, perhaps, changing the dynamic between the sexes faster than ever before.
Depends on how big the gun was...or, you know, just generally absolutely insane.
Did you have an indication this guy was into guns from his Bumble profile?
Did he say why he felt the need to bring a gun to a first date? That's crazy. Someone you never met before for a date will almost never be comfortable with a gun in the open like that.
He said he always carries a gun. He said he is paranoid about shootings. It was conceal carried, not that that made me feel any better about it -- I would not have known he was carrying a gun except for the fact that he told me.
He mentioned the CA shooting which just happened, that it was at a bar (like the bar we were at). I knew, thanks to Hubski, enough about the shooting to know that there was a "good guy with a gun" inside the bar when the shooting happened and that person still got shot and killed and was unable to stop the shooting. I did not feel the need to mention that at the moment, however, as I was not there in an attempt to convert someone to my way of thinking and did not think I'd be successful at it anyway.
Present
One month and one day from this post, I'll have walked in my graduation ceremony. And damn, its a long way away from this post.
To that end, the advice I followed has me headed to class to learn more about what cometary dust tells us about the formation of our solar system. After which, I'm heading to a workshop on how I can best review the GIS modeling techniques of previous airburst/bolide (meteor hit) events for my capstone project.
Suffice to say, shit's kinda lit. Knowing I actually have less than 4 weeks since graduation happens after classes end is a nice reminder to plan backwards.
Post-Graduation
Heading to Cuba for a stint mid-January, then I'm off to Birthright in February. I want to lock in the farm to extend my stay there over this weekend.
Relationshit
I think I need to find other mediums alongside do another overhaul on my current dating platforms. 'Cuz this shit ain't happening. I've reaffirmed my standards are high in terms of emotional intelligence I'm looking for, so that may be a part of the latter...
On that note, I have been connecting with someone who is not available in terms of dating and that's ok. Someone recently shared a couple key points:
1) There is (socializing) stuff anyone has to do before dating is on the table. When you get to that crossroad, then you can start talking about whether dating is something two parties are open to.
2) As such, there is no pressure with this person. Have fun, see it as practice for the former and enjoy what I cultivate with them.
3) Networking isn't just a business term. Perhaps this person can point me in the direction of what I'm looking for.
Early Year in Review
I met so many goals I set for myself.
☑️ Job
☑️ Car
☑️ Gaming
☑️ Running
___ Graduate (PENDING)
The only couple glaring ones were fitness goals (absurd amounts of pull ups), and relationships (WIP). I found I could define the past few semesters by [failed] relationships. Each one had be get a little bit closer to what I'm looking for, alongside coming to understand redflags for me. And yet, my biggest take away there is the community I have around me to catch me when I fall. What I've learned from them on dating, how they've enabled me to work through getting 'unstuck,' and moving on to find/attract a more wholesome partner.
God I fucking love sub-titles.
On mobile all day, so no graphs at the moment, but I have links!
I'm looking at recorded events like Chelyabinsk and Tunguska in terms of the mapping of their area hit (or in gaming terms: area of effect). I'm looking to scrutinize the accuracy of the plotted areas on maps across a minimum of 3 models of how meteors fracture in our atmosphere upon entry. The plan is to validate said mapping techniques against newer models (I found couple fresh models produced last year and this year that I'm pumped to cross-reference).
My asteroids professor gave me a couple huge leads on who's research to dig into for the project. Other than that, I'm lucky to have found an amazing guidance counselor in my college.
So far none of yet, I'm narrowing down to Chelyabinsk's event at the moment from the astronomy side to get a clear picture on what I expect to see from the GIS side when viewing the existing paper's plots. My paper itself is still in the works, and I'm getting a couple opinions from some astronomy professors on how the different models of the energy emitted inform the break-up of the meteor.
Hoping to get enough material to make a plot to overlay onto existing papers using simple buffering tools (also highlighting individual meteorite falls with markers) depending on what I find.
If you're in the mood for learning a new skill, I highly recommend picking up PostGIS and SQL. It's a bit of a steep learning curve but it is an immense timesaver in any big league GIS work. Did a two day course myself and managed to write the Python/Arcpy model from my thesis in PG that ran in seconds, not hours.
Got plenty of time before traveling, looking into this now - especially with the Esri license expiring.
I'm a newbie when it comes to programming languages. How would you compare this to R? A friend started using R to support her own GIS thesis, which was the first language I was going to review when the license expires.
R is not meant for GIS - it can handle some geo data in tables, but it is really no match for PG or ArcPy. R is much better for statistical analyses and one of my colleagues does most of his work in Excel or R because of it. He’s the only non-geo data scientist, though, and he doesn’t use R’s geo abilities because it’s not powerful enough.
PG can do a lot, especially if you’re clever at combining the rather-basic-but-incredibly-fast functions it offers. (And then there’s always QGIS.) ArcPy has a larger suite of functions, but only within the realm of things Esri wants you to do, so if you’re out there doing anything groundbreaking, you run into barriers more easily.
By the way - there’s an ArcGIS For Home license which gives you an Advanced ArcGIS license (including Pro) for $100/yr if you pinky promise to never use it commercially. I used it for my own experiments.
Jackpot, thanks for the rundown! I've been eyeing the Home license for Esri, but what I'm looking to do would be a mix of personal and business. The lighthouses in California map you posted a while back, which program did you use for that? Assume that qualified well for a personal experiment/ArcGIS?
I made the lighthouses with ArcGIS Pro, mostly because it's what I know best. But it was not much more than a good ordering of layers to get the desired effect, so QGIS would've worked just as fine.
My opinion is that it's personal until you start to turn a profit. Legal departments of large, loaded tech companies might disagree with me on that, but I haven't heard from them yet.
Scripts driving Cairo or just scribbling postscript to a file works fine too if you don't want to buy ArcGIS just to have it draw things for you. The ewkb you get out of PostGIS isn't hard to parse. Placing labels legibly is a more complicated problem than anyone expects at first, but the rest is straightforward.
I have been feeling sick for over a month. I finally went to my doctor, because my coughing was out of control, and she told me I have pneumonia. That's a first. I'm on day 3 of antibiotics. I am not myself, yet because I am the CEO/co-founder of a company I need to be myself. We have had no shortage of fire drills these past two weeks.
I'm always of the philosophy that you can turn tragedy in to triumph, meaning you can take a bad situation and create lifelong business relationships from it. I still believe this and I think it will all work out in this way.... but it's WAY harder to pull off when you have pneumonia. I'm very grateful for mk and ecib for their hard work. Thanks, fellas.
onward!
I'm in a full-on rage right now. The reasons are too numerous and long-storied to detail here. So let's hit the highlights:
- Sold my bike to buy a new one.
- New bike got sold before I got there.
- Found another of the EXACT SAME BIKE.
- Pressure from father-in-law to finish Wills is getting intense.
- Mom and Dad's heater dies. They are without heat for a WEEK.
- New bike fails final inspection and is taken off the market. Still no bike.
- Work is insanely busy and completely unappealing right now.
- My new job is heading in a direction I really don't want to go. But I still have to do it.
- Haven't seen any friends in a long time.
- Get to go away to a cabin for the weekend with good friends.
- Recharge.
- Come home feeling epic.
- Water main breaks.
- Minor (repairable) damage to the house.
- 2 days without water (after 3 days in a cabin with no shower).
- Crew says, "Sorry! Would have been here two days ago! Didn't know it was an emergency!"
- Work schedule gets even more insane.
- Find ANOTHER of the motorcycle I want. Can't take the time to go buy it. Too busy.
- Make sure everyone at work knows I am slammed through the week.
- Get taken off the "Priority 1" project I am working on all week, this morning, to deal with a stupid other project that is someone's pet project.
- Am still expected to hit the original deadline for the original project.
- Need software on my machine to do my job. Can only order it from Sharepoint form, which doesn't work in Mac-based web browsers. (Because: Sharepoint)
- Haven't eaten Keto in a week, due to lack of time to shop.
- Cognition is dragging from eating a shitty diet again.
- Wife is in the early stages of SAD, and is useless as support right now.
- I need to support her, so she doesn't get any deeper.
- My bedroom is getting genuinely cold now, because I haven't finished the ceiling/insulation project.
- My dog's undiagnosed itching problem is back. And her toenails are too long.
I'm fucking depleted.
Everything clears up at 2:PM tomorrow. Literally. That's when The Project needs to be in the hands of our shipping department. So there is light at the end of the tunnel, but fuck... it is very dim right now...
Unlike _ref_, I have take myself off of the dating market. I've had enough of relationships for a while, two very unsuccessful relationships in one year is plenty, thanks. Of course, I've met a trail running girl who seems perfect for me. She's only living here until mid January. Ugh.
OftenBen gave me a lot of encouragement. What with planning to move out of state in about 6 months, part of it feels like it could be a little silly -- the whole dating thing, I mean. But hey...it's about time I tried actually trying, even if it is practice-trying.
Hah, I'm on the other side of that circle. Spent enough time trying this year and gave a much greater understanding of my wants and needs...which is a lot longer conversation but boils down to "no dating unless I meet a mountaineer or trail runner who's my age bracket and single."
apparently today is a relationship-sharing pubski
this is my official announcement that i'm dating somebody! very cool!!! exciting!!!!!
everything else is going pretty good as well, which is nice - the most pressing long-term thing that i'm figuring out right now is my living situation next year (might be moving into an apartment as opposed to staying in a dorm). i got wind of a company in lansing that does translation/localization that has also hosted(?) a bunch of internships that other linguistics majors have done in the past, so i'm going to look into that over the next month or so. if all goes well i'll be doing that in the spring and/or something that'll give me money
i'm planning on applying for a language program in japan that'll be next summer as well - i'm 90% sure i'd be admitted to it, but it's a matter of paying for the thing so i'll be scholarship hunting as well
short term goals:
finish this semester (4.0 is in reach, i swear to christ)
continue enjoying life
reap rewards
even shorter term goals:
do well on the exam i have in 2.5 hours
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Love you, Hubskiers. (Hubskers? Hubskiites? Hubbers?)
Cards Against Humanity is not about winning. Unless I win, which I totally did the other day. I'll see y'all in hell. (It was a ton of fun though. Good tabletop games with the right people can be so great.)
By the way, does anyone happen to have a good recipe for tzatziki? I've been failing to find a good one in stores that can get close to the ones I had in Greece.
I make bomb tzatziki.
The trick is to use whole fat yogurt. No part skim lowfat nonsense.
Lots of garlic. A LOT.
Grate your cucumber, dont chop it. Drain it super well, even going as far as using a clean dish towel to remove liquid.
The rest of it you kind of just have to tune to your own taste. I'm not the biggest fan of dill so I don't use a lot of it.
- Grate your cucumber, dont chop it. Drain it super well, even going as far as using a clean dish towel to remove liquid.
And make sure you hold on to as much of the drained-off liquid as you can! Add some lemon juice to make the taste a little bit more bearable, and you have the single most refreshing (if kind of disgusting) drink I've ever had.
I just bought chips for poker. I'm trying to teach my wife and kids how to play. For the kids it's a great way to learn math and some critical thinking skills. They already, intrinsically know how to lie. For my wife and I it's just fun.
- By the way, does anyone happen to have a good recipe for tzatziki?
When I left Austin, I took photos of every recipe from the Greek place I worked at there, but I lost them somewhere in a file system 2-3 phones back :'(
If they ever turn up, I'll forward you our tzatziki :)
I've been removing most meat from my diet lately after seeing some of the recent reports on the necessity for this to counteract climate change. I've known it for a while, but I've never really done it. I'm not vegetarian per se, but I might go a week in between meat now. This feels like a sustainable lifestyle change for me, unlike most diets. I'm not really tackling dairy though.
We bought some flight to New Delhi January 16th to March 24th.
That colorful Holi festival is going to be on March 20th.
Currently researching the optimal way of going on a 2 week everest base camp trek in Nepal March 1st-16th more or less. From what I hear, it's one of the easiest and cheapest base camp treks in the world, so I'm willing to give it a shot.
Otherwise our time in India is pretty much unplanned and coming up with even a rough itinerary has been hard. There is so many interesting places, so little time and so much so consider! I have a list of some places I'd like to see, but even figuring out the order to do so is hard. Distances are really large and it's suggested to fly between a lot of these spots. Also, I'd like to do it in an order that makes sense weather wise and activities-wise to keep it diverse. And it's generally hard to gage how long we "should" or would like to spend in certain spots.
Everest base camp is on my realistic list of things I'd like to do. I hope you can make it work, and I'd love to hear your report on it. It all sounds like a great trip!
I can't believe the semester in Korea is rounding third base. Only six weeks left. I'll then spend a month in Thailand and Indonesia 8) with a short stop in San Diego to see my family. Then one last semester of Kolleg.
Everything is so different and yet the same. I thought radically changing my environment would radically change me. But that hasn't been the case. I'm still working through the same self-doubts, still looking for my tribe. I truly wonder if this sort of work ever ends.
On a few more positive notes, I've found an enthusiasm for... monetary policy! I love my economics course about this stuff. Tyler Cowen says macroeconomics may well stand near the summit of our epistemic limitations, but man is it fun to work through its puzzles. Should I go to grad school to have this love beat out of me? I've also been to all four corners of Korea. It's been as horizon-expanding an experience as I could've hoped for. I'm starting to realize all the things I will miss about it. The clean facilities. The insanely delicious food. The little shelves in the bathroom stalls for your to put your cell phone and wallet when you poop.
Mornin'.
The other day I was chatting with a friend who's also a drummer (younger-- still in high school) and out of the blue he asked, "galen, why don't you study music?" And I realized I don't really have a good answer. I'm finally playing in a band again, and it's kind of the best. What happened to the dream of becoming a musician? Well, I wanted to get a liberal arts education first, and then the school I picked had only a tiny music program with an even smaller jazz band, and I didn't have a drumset on campus anyway, and I couldn't find a decent band to play with. But all of these were temporary concerns! I could still pursue music.
So I've been posing the question to a few people that I trust: "...would it be crazy if I finished my bachelor's here, but then went home and did a second degree, studying music at UT?" And I've gotten answers from "don't wanna be mean, but you have to be, like, super talented to study music" to "NOT CRAZY AT ALL!"
Hm.
*Editing for context here: the first response was from a friend also studying English here, and the second was from a friend who is a professional musician/teacher/mother. So, y'know.
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I've been watching Queer Eye on Netflix. Are you guys watching queer eye? You need to be watching queer eye. I've seen 7 episodes, and 5 of them have made me cry. It's such a Good and Wholesome show. Also I really like being queer.
The Fab Five also convinced me to finally clean my room, and it's freaking incredible how much more prepared I feel to deal with stress when I have a home that's not just another source of stress. I started making my bed! It's wild, you guys.
I was a jazz studies major right out of high school.
The second best saxophonist in the city of Detroit was one of my teachers.
One day he told us that if we wanted to be professional musicians we should get up and walk out of the classroom and never look back.
Just something a bad ass musician told me about studying music.
- finally clean my room, and it's freaking incredible how much more prepared I feel to deal with stress
I agree! Even little things like folding my underwear and putting them away instead of picking them out of a clean pile of laundry. Sure they don't need to be folded, but it feels nice to have things where they should be.
I'm toying with a marathon training plan that has running only three days a week but maybe four runs. That's then mixed with swimming and cycling. I feel like the swimming and cycling is helping my running. My glutes feel stronger.
I swam 1100 yards yesterday. It went really well. I still rest for 30 seconds every 100 yards, but I don't feel like I need more than that. I used to rest longer but every 50 yards. And before that rest every 25 yards.
I also went to a gentle yoga class. I need to do more yoga.
Hung out with the guy who restored Maillardet's Automaton. 127 linear feet of programming, XYZ plotting, capable of reproducing details less than a mm across.
In 1790.
He showed me an unsigned vienna grande sonnerie movement that's probably 270 years old. It still works. It has a fusee chain that would be dwarfed by angel hair pasta.
Somebody made that. By lamplight. With nothing more technologically sophisticated than an archimedes drill.
Me? I spent 45 minutes turning a larger Delrin cylinder into a smaller Delrin cylinder on a shitty Taiwanese lathe. Having a hard time being enthusiastic about my education at the moment.
I dont get it KB, why waste your time on a formal education? Why not just go out, buy some equipment that will hold value and spend you time building things, learning from practice and maybe doing workshops with real pros once in a while? Do you need that piece of paper to get a loan or something?
I'm not doing the piece of paper. I'm doing the "make me do what you want so that I can get some time on $150k machines" dance. We've reached an agreement that next time it will literally be me paying for independent study. There's an effectively-new Doosan Lynx in the corner that nobody knows how to run; I'm going to spend some time running parts on it.
This quarter was the impetus for formalizing that arrangement. 'cuz my piece of shit Delrin cylinder was supposed to be a piece of shit foamcore cylinder. And fuck everything about foamcore.
I got a call yesterday about a drawing for a trip for Hawaii. I learn next month if I win or not.
I'm crying a lot lately. It's been a roller coaster and I'm pouring myself into music... so a lot of Mac Miller again.
I think my craving for mac and cheese is going away too.
I'm kinda laughing because I just realized how filled with "mac" my life has been for the past couple of days. Ridiculous.
I'm writing a lot more as the days get colder.
I've got a few interests, but most of them don't want to date me or are in unstable conditions.
So... I'm really liking my bed, solo style, lately.
Haha nice timing with the relationship-sharing pubski
Got broken up with yesterday night but I'm doing better than expected. I've got a lot of good shit going on in my life, and it turns out that most of it isn't even dependent on being in a (weird "casual") relationship! It's kind of nice dealing with something shitty and realizing that... maybe I'm not as fragile as I feared? Maybe I'm learning to swim. So that's cool.