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I make travel videos sometimes:

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elizabeth  ·  8 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: 408th Weekly "Share Some Music You've Been Into Lately"

Damn, I thought EDC was about having a field notes notebook and a fancy pen for your run of the mill #deeptoughts

And that the knife was to cut the occasional piece of cheese and salami. Clearly misjudged the carriers.

The flip side of gun owning preppers are hippies preparing for the ecological disaster with self-reliant permaculture farms. It's like no matter what political side you're on, you feel that the world is doomed.

elizabeth  ·  12 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: November 11, 2020

I've been in an extra nostalgic mood lately. Maybe it's because there is nothing concrete to look forward to? I've been looking over old pictures quite a bit. Writing, and considering learning some basic code to make a non-wordpress website. One of those low-tech JSON blog type things. But I'm not sure i have anything worthwhile enough to say, that it deserves a special place on the internet as opposed to my notebook. Could be a cool winter project.

I had a thought recently, about maybe wanting to learn a martial art? I feel I haven't been active enough in my recent years, and would benefit having a regular exercise routine. I used to walk a lot - especially when traveling. And bike to work and around town all summer. Less so now that I don't have places to go.

I'm really dreading the winter, even if we bough ski passes. Something about the sun setting early, the coming cold and confinement makes me feel like i'm stuck. Like time is passing me by, and i'm not moving forward.

elizabeth  ·  24 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: October 28, 2020

Haha close - but not quite. I’ve actually met my current boyfriend 8 years ago when I worked as a councilor at a religious Ukrainian summer camp - and the priest there is really cool. I went to that camp as a kid, and protested all religious ceremonies because I was a little shit and he never had any problems with it. He’s a super accepting dude, that doesn’t care about other people’s beliefs as long as we provide a wholesome space for the kids. But this gig is for another religious group I don’t belong to ;) I don’t think they care about me being secular - they even said to me most immigrants are. But for sure the specifics of my wild lifestyle would be frowned upon. If I can hide those specifics from my parents, my employers are unlikely to find out. Can’t wait for the mini-satanic ritual we have planned tonight with some friends in celebration of Halloween 😈

elizabeth  ·  24 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: October 28, 2020

Thanks! Wise words - I’ve just been so privileged all my life to only do things I care deeply about, I had some guilt about not caring much at all for this project. But you’re right it doesn’t matter if I do good work :)

elizabeth  ·  25 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Merriam Webster: Time Traveler

Looked up my dad had he had Final Solution... oooof

It's a good snapshot of the world that year, 2020 is all Covid-related.

elizabeth  ·  25 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Merriam Webster: Time Traveler

My birthyear words are super woke! bottom surgery, cisgender, neurotypical, upcycle...

With a little horror: flesh eating bacteria, virtual colonoscopy, roofie, spyware

And some words, stuck in time: Botox, chillax, cybercafe

elizabeth  ·  25 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: So getting to know this place part 2 I guess?

I think i lot of people on here also use Reddit - but we also come here because it's a different vibe. It's like comparing Walmart to your favorite coffee shop. You can go to both, but for different reasons. Convenience vs community.

Would "Ello" be kind of like "it" in english? I don't speak Spanish, just wondering what would make it rude.

In French, the gender neural pronoun is iel (pronounced yell) but to me just reminds me of the year 2010 pop star Yelle:

Maybe i just need to spend time with french speaking gender neutral peeps to get used to it? They in english flows pretty naturally IMO.

elizabeth  ·  26 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: October 28, 2020

Ha! Here I was last week, saying I don't want to get a job, and now I've been hired on a short term, part-time contract for some basic social media management. It's funny how life works out sometimes. It's some super easy work, pretty good pay and I can go right back to government money once they stop paying me out in 6 weeks. It's a little funny that the organization I'm working for is a Cultural/Religious Community, that I only tangentially belong to and have never had any intentions of participating in. In big part because having grown up in a multitude of immigrant communities of the city, I'm too aware of how toxic it can all get very quickly. As someone integrated in Canadian/Quebecois society, I don't feel the need to find belonging with people from my origins. And these social spaces while useful and reassuring to new immigrants, to me feel claustrophobic and disingenuous. In their aim to help and support newly arrived people, they often also trap them in a bubble, an alternate reality of our society. Not to mention my lack of belief in their religious convictions.

But... this organization seems sincere in their ambition to help, have places for kids and adults to meet and find community, learning opportunities, good deeds and all that. I don't mind doing this work for them, I feel it's not my place to judge anyone's beliefs and everyone I have met so far seem very nice. I just feel a little guilty for being an outsider I guess? While i'm helping them, I'm motivated by money and would not be doing any of it otherwise. I'm not very used to work on things that I'm not passionate about, where I have a detachment from the work. I think it can be a good experience - being very emotionally involved with my work is my usual thing, and it can affect my mood in other aspects of my life. Maybe i'll find out a little distance is good? Maybe i'll hate it? Let's see how this goes!

I'm just a little... offended? when my mom was proud of me for getting this job. I feel i'm massively over-qualified, and am doing much harder and more meaningful things with the non-profit. I don't make money - but that's a choice, not that I don't think I can land a job at some corporate office and start earning. This work is almost like supermarket-level grunt work for my industry, and it just confirms to me she doesn't really understand what I do or who I am or what I value :(

elizabeth  ·  30 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: How to Battle Kitchen Burnout

I've occasionally gotten "free trials" of those mail in meals. Tried both hellofresh and goodfood - and to be honest, it's kind of exciting to open a box and having a whole recipe prepped for you, with all kinds of techniques and flavour combos I would not put together myself. But at 10$/meal, I don't see myself actually subscribing. One time, the meal they sent me was literally 4 potatoes to grate and bake, with some yogurt sauce on the side. I would have felt pretty dumb if I had paid 20$ to bake potatoes, but the techinque used was actually nice and the result delicious.

The pandemic has made me appreciate cooking a lot actually, and I feel like my cooking skills have improved quite a bit. I'm better at improvising, tacking more complicated recipes... When I'm stuck at home all day, sitting in front of my computer on the couch, i start to feel trapped. Spendig 1-2h messing around in the kitchen is a nice escape where i'm totally focused on something else.

elizabeth  ·  34 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: October 21, 2020

Made my first stamp that's not carved out of a potato! Thanks _refugee_ for the inspiration :)

There's been some really good and significant progress in our plastic recycling non-profit. Enjoying doing tests, coordinating and onboarding new volunteers. Finally getting a little back into the marketing groove, now that my presidential duties on the board have settled down a little. Soft-launched the Patreon on the mailing list, will start posting on regular socials shortly and getting into the website re-design. The distancing rules are making things a little hard, but we've been finding solutions and things are definitely moving along. It's just too bad there is not real money in the project, at least in the short term. I'm definitely putting 30h/week into it, if not more and seeing progress has really motivated me lately.

I'm really loving my life balance right now, where I'm leading a meaningful project, learning a lot and collaborating with people (which is new for me, i've aways been a solo-project kind of person). I have time for personal hobbies, seeing family, reading lots, cooking good things and keeping the house organized, having really good times with friends, spending time outside... Twice in the past 10 days I went to sleep with this overwhelming feeling of being loved and well surrounded - like this weird warmness in my chest on a regular day when i think back on some talks or moments with my buddies.

I really really don't want to get a dumb job to take away my time. Shoutout to the Canadian government for paying my bills, but i'm a little worried this will end soon. Got a call from the Quebec revenue agency about some weird filling details in 2018. I always had a feeling my accountant did not understand a lot of what I do, and now I'm worries she mis-filled some of my income. I'm poor - so it's not like they can claim I owe them money but that's stupid and stressful shit I didn't want to deal with right now. Definitely going to get a new accountant, because I have a feeling the Federal governement will fine-comb the fillings of all of us fuckers that got free money come tax season.

elizabeth  ·  38 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: October 14, 2020

I had put my travel-vlogging days in an indefinite hiatus before the pandemic started, so that was no big deal. But not being able to meet new people and see new places has been hard. I've come to realize i'm addicted to novelty, and I start feeling trapped, stagnent and bored really fast. I've been coping with multiple new hobbies and skills, getting to travel mentally with books and films, spending time out in nature, working on the plastic non-profit... but it's all going to get harder in the winter and I already dread it.

elizabeth  ·  38 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: October 14, 2020

The place seems more empty, stale and also lots more spammers. I think to improve the site we need more people, not less. Confusing mechanics are not helping.

I've almost invited my IRL friends to join Husbki a few times over the summer, was about to send a link to the site and then didn't because I'm not sure what would be the appeal for a person that hasn't been here the past 4 years.

I think the hostility can partly be attributed to the pandemic. In a time where everything is changing, switching up the mechanics of a place I spend my internet off-time is also kind of annoying. I get it that it's your place, and you can do whatever you want with it. But this also reminds me it's your place, not mine so with less feeling of ownership I'm less inclined to post OC, comment and participate.

elizabeth  ·  39 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: October 14, 2020

i think the 12h rule doesn't apply to the Pubskis, but I have been finding the link-discussions particularly stale lately.

elizabeth  ·  40 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: October 14, 2020

Yo! Had a great weekend with a couple close buddies out in the country. It's getting cold, fires are not helping as much as they used to. So it had a real feeling of the "last hangout".

Brought some oysters to shuck, ate some delicious asian soup, bloody ceasars, a wild partridge gifted/ gutted in front of us from the friendly talkative neighbour... All around great low key thanksgiving weekend with a couple close friends. We also played Catan, for the first time ever for the 4 of us, with a game master that explained the rules (thank god for the briefing, reading those rules on paper would have been hell).

I think my favorite moment of the whole weekend was a bit later in the night, when we were all mildly altered. We're outside, under the tarp playing dominoes while a big storm is brewing. Music on the speaker is some piraty gypsy-punk. My friend is standing in a bright yellow rain coat, looking a bit confused by the game rules. And then the storm and wind really picks up and we're in the middle of a tornado, trying keep the game going. We're shouting because the rain is too loud, the dominoes are falling, the beer bottles are just sliding away on the table with the wind while we're all huddled up around the game - is this a double ? is it my turn ? we're sinking! shit, i skip! we're going to capsize It felt like we were on a sail boat, in the middle of a storm, like old Italians from the 1950s. My first game night was a success. All following ones are ruined unless there's a worthwhile weather event.

elizabeth  ·  41 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: October 14, 2020

Yes! bouldering is super fun, and accessible. I wish I had a gym nearby that was close enough to justify getting a membership. I never done too much of it, but the first few months, you improve like crazy and it's awesome.

elizabeth  ·  43 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: I Did It. // (OC/Linocut Series)

I love this! I like the test print more, with the fewer colors, and i think these prints could also look super cool in funky not traditional peacock colors. It's great to see your progress. I've made some prints with a potato earlier in quarantine, and with a small wood block last week, but the lines/my tools were not precise enough. Time to pull the trigger and buy that amazon kit you recommended, for lockdown winter arts and crafts.

elizabeth  ·  47 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: October 7, 2020

I've been really enjoying reading more lately. I noticed my time at the computer strongly correlates to unhappiness (not sure which way the causal relationship goes, possibly both). In non-pandemic times, seeing friends have been my go to. It's often hard for me to motivate myself to do something without a little external push. But reading has been the easiest way i've found lately to get out of a computer refresh loop. It's just super low effort but also quite rewarding in the end.

It's stupid, but a small setback today has really fucked up my day. I've been giving lots of energy and time to a specific project. Including a video shoot this weekend that was technically against the newly instated Covid-stafety rules (self-imposed by the project, not by the government, the shoot was done as safely as possible). Our team had a way smaller 2h video shoot planned in the same space next week, but I decided to do the right thing and clear it with the board first. And got a unanimous decline, by the same people that had no issues being interviewed for a video, just 2 days ago. Because "rules". After spending 20ish hours helping them on their thing, but not having that same goodwill extended to us, i'm hurt and pissed off. I know i should not expect anything in return for the time I give, or expect any special treatment. But I've also felt unappreciated in a lot of my work lately, and this was just an extra thing that cements this thought. I really need to re-think things because this is not a healthy outlook, and I know it.

It's a really small thing - not being able to have our video shoot at that location is not even that big of a deal, since we have a marginally less cool office space available to use. And that shoot was not of major importance. I'm actually quite surprised how much this has affected me today. I haven't been this emotionally impacted in a long while, and i'm struggling to make sense of it. I feel a pettiness rising in me, i hate it. Because I know for a fact a lot of these people are going though some tough times. I need to get over this thing to not affect the political climate, or snap at people needlessly, but I also can't stop tearing up when I think of this for some reason. I'm annoyed and frustrated with my friends and myself, maybe a good night's sleep is going to help.

Sorry for the rant about stupid shit and small problems, I was thinking maybe some word vomit on a semi-anonymous place is a goodplace for my frustrations. But I also feel guilty adding negativity in the Pubski,when we can all use some good vibes.