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psychoticmilkman  ·  1 day ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: May 4, 2022

Medication is the logical next step for me, I've just been resistant despite multiple recent therapist's suggestions.

Physical health and diet are naturally an issue. And are being addressed, certainly less vigorously than would be best. But it's progress, which is a win right now.

The trial and error of finding the right medication and the right dosage is an experience I'm hesitant to revisit.

Also the old man cat has hyper-thyroid issues and is now on medication : / hopefully that chills out the yelling.

psychoticmilkman  ·  4 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Elon Musk says he would reverse Twitter's permanent Trump ban

Deactivated my 14-year-old account. It had at least 17 followers, most of which also stopped using twitter about 8 years ago...

That'll show 'em.

psychoticmilkman  ·  11 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: May 4, 2022

I'm closer to speaking with a psychiatrist about medication than I've been in 20 years. My experience being medicated was feeling empty and numb 24/7...but right now I'd take that over the constant panic I've been in for the last 3 years.

My life has been going from one distraction to the next to minimize the time I spend alone inside my head.

I've been given amazing support and an opportunity to start new. But I'm just so lost. New city, so there's the option of literally getting lost. Speaking less to my ultra religious family. Lost a friend to the political craziness. Still get pointlessly nauseous if someone without a mask gets within 6 ft of me. Very specific tech knowledge for a field of work I never want to do again. I can't finish any creative project I start. The old man cat just screams a lot, fucking with my sleep even more.

psychoticmilkman  ·  11 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: May 4, 2022

I'm lost, and I have no idea where to start looking for myself.

Where do you start looking if you've never felt you belong anywhere?

When you've never had a plan for the future, only fear. Where am I supposed to look?

psychoticmilkman  ·  21 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: 481st Weekly "Share Some Music You've Been Into Lately"

I'm definitely going to get stoned and listen to Psychedelic Porn Crumpets all day now....thanks : )

psychoticmilkman  ·  28 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: 480th Weekly "Share Some Music You've Been Into Lately"

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