apparently the author got metoo'd and suspended from the labor party about 6 years ago for groping some lady, and ever since then he's made his career about going to places and feeling sad about things

𝅘𝅥𝅮𝅘𝅥𝅮shey laft mey reuuuuuses bouy tha steeeeyrs𝅘𝅥𝅮𝅘𝅥𝅮

first job training starts early tomorrow morning

i picked up a cat off the street and fed him and brought him to the vet and now he's mine, we named him funky

little man was crusty

it's easy to stay alive once you have inertia on your side

if it was deliberate, did the jews make it or the chinese? in your opinion. and how did the sino-hebraic alliance begin?

if he's fully vaccinated and so are his kids, and he also believes vaccines are unsafe and cause autism, etc, doesn't that make him both a hypocrite and an idiot?

using a pejorative to describe somebody? it's just what he continually and publically espouses. it's not a pejorative, it's a descriptor. if you think it makes you marginalized to have what you say be described, then that should tell you something about what you're saying

he thinks that vaccines cause autism, brother!

pro vaccine safety is a clear dogwhistle. you don't need to be pro safety on something that is near-universally safe. if you describe yourself as "pro armchair safety", that means that somebody's putting spikes on the chairs.

the tactic of hiding behind "I'm just asking questions, further research is needed into the issue" is cowardly and is made without evidence on the actual position being taken. there is no evidence that vaccines cause or are linked to autism, but RFK JR has been saying it for decades. now he's repeating the canard that endocrine disruptors in the water are causing feminization and transgender-ization. there's no evidence that this is the case. why is he suggesting that "research should be done?" to seed the ground for calling transness artificial, man-made, and a medical illness.

if i come out on stage and suggest that being molested as a child actually has hidden health benefits and that further research should be done, i don't get to say that I'm just asking questions. it would be obvious that i am a pedophile trying to drum up support. but it's easy to see that pedophilia is wrong, and apparently much harder to see that when it's about autists and trannies

and that reference was

"At a dinner event in July 2023, Kennedy said "there is an argument that (COVID-19) is ethnically targeted", adding "COVID-19 is targeted to attack Caucasians and Black people. The people who are most immune are Ashkenazi Jews and Chinese ... we don't know whether it’s deliberately targeted or not.""

he said that it could be deliberately targeted to avoid jews and chinese. are you serious? you're so committed to being openminded that your brain is gonna fall out. be less concerned with somebody telling your kids you're racist and more concerned with not blindly supporting jackasses because they confirm your priors

this is worse than 9/11

search engines are just unusable at this point and it's atrocious. it feels like everything is AI generated or backfed through google translate or just scraped off of a bigger site. i'm not smart enough to know how to deal with that, but i hope it weans me from the internet a bit more

she's runnin over pedestrians when she drives

she's runnin over pedestrians when she drives

she's not looking at the crosswalk

and she's speeding on the sidewalk

yes she's runnin over pedestrians when she drives

still unemployed but getting processed for a govt. job (through contractor middlemen) that pays shockingly well for shockingly little work, so i'm looking forward to seeing how much the catch (inconsistent work schedule and limited hours) will take me. signups for this year's JLPT haven't opened yet but i plan to sign up when they do later this month. next year i might be translating for money and not just for friends

yesterday i hosted a fourth of july party for some friends and it was a great time - somebody i met thru the trans group (whence discord server, whence reddit, whence desperate google search), her fiance, and somebody i met on a dating app. we potlucked and feasted and drank and i was thinking in the middle of it how crazy it was that i used to be alone, and how acclimated to it i was

i want to marry my boyfriend someday. i feel stupid talking about it but lately i've been questioning why that is, and finding no good answers. we've survived 4 years of monogamy and 4 months of "do you care if i have sex with so-and-so" so i guess we can keep hammering away at the ties that bind for another 4 years and see how sturdy they end up. maybe we'll be the youngest swingers at the sex club. under the cynicism i love him more than i can put into words so if i end up being wrong then i can be honest in saying that i couldn't see it coming

i wrote 3 chapters of a YA-type book and it feels good to write something real. i put what i've finished so far up on the only other place on the internet i post on so give it a read if you have time to spare and you like that sort of thing. my buddy that i brainstorm ideas with ("i want to write a story about pirates" - "what if it was a city that lived on the water") said that i should try to publish if i ever get it finished, but the only thing i know about being an author is that it's the worst job in the world on purpose so i think beyond vanity there's no reason to do that

i've been having awful nightmares all year, and beyond that for a long time, but before this year i never remembered my dreams unless they were particularly heinous. i have dreams where i get raped. i have dreams where i get into terrible arguments with people i love. i have dreams where my teeth turn liquid or wiggle and fall out, or where my toes get torn up and cut off. the last couple days it's been every night, and every time i nap during the day, too, and i'm tired as shit. i'm gonna try getting a sleep test because i've been suspicious for years i have sleep apnea. my boyfriend says i talk and cry in my sleep, and get startled badly

i don't know what's going on when every store i go into is understaffed and yet it takes 4 months to get hired. i could be shooting for too high a wage or too prestigeous a position, but when the mcdonalds has a 400 dollar signing bonus and 15 bucks an hour i don't know how much anything matters anymore. i'll get under any big-gut small-business satan for 15 bucks an hour at this point

enjoying my first hot girl summer very much

one day a student asked the master over dinner: how can one love a woman who was born a man?

the master pointed at his plate and replied: once cooked, fish and chicken are both meat.

the student was enlightened.

TL;DR:

the two fears of being a trans girl is being found to be masculine or being found to be too feminine - if you're masculine you're a fake or a predator and if you're feminine you're trying to trick people. you see stuff on the news where girls get catcalled and then the guy gets mocked by his friends or whoever for hitting on a tranny, and then the guy proves he's not gay by beating the shit out of her

the perverse part of the whole thing is that it's straight guys who are into trans women, because they're the ones attracted to women in the first place. straight guys find me attractive until i tell them I'm trans and the disgust response kicks in. and many many men are perfectly happy with the genital misconfiguration as long as you give off femininity

we have this stupid need to pretend that the only thing attractive about another person is what's in their pants.

no way on earth are you gonna tell me it's gayer to be into hunter schafer than into buck angel because hunter has a penis and buck doesn't

rest in

Wednesday bed

- midweek blues -

what comes of

quiet days

in days of old the men would work

the fields to earn their way;

the maidens met inside the church

on Sunday holidays.

now maidens make the money for

the men, who never pay;

"well sure I'm unemployed," he says,

"at least i still get laid"

the words get worse when the wine hits

white woman wishes she wasn't a wife

we watch her walk off worries

while Walker whips the kids