Y'all, I'm doing really damn well these days.
I finally made the decision to stop stressing about my degree and just use my studies as an excuse to keep my visa (and cheap rent), which is really just what I was doing in the first place, except that now I'm being conscious about it in a way that takes a huge amount of stress out of my life. These days I'm free to focus on the things I care about: my half-time job and a few interesting courses each semester, but also reading for pleasure, playing in a 7-piece funk band (!) and a baseball team, and being an active part in the incredible community in my dorm. (And lots of foosball.)
After years of stressing about relationships and loneliness and sex, I finally feel like I'm at a point where I can just kind of relax. I really like being single, so if nothing happens, nothing happens, but I can also enjoy (purely hypothetically, of course) going on a first date with an incredibly cute Swedish girl on a Wednesday evening and walking her to class Thursday morning. It's nice.
I've even gotten to the point of moving therapy to once a month instead of once a week—my therapist and I put in the work and said fuck depression.
Oh, and term break starts today, so expect to see me back on here a bit more ;)