Travel, travel, travel. I've been in Charlotte NC, Miami and Montgomery AL, all this week. Not surprisingly, Monthomery sucks the most. Miami had some nice moments. I'm excited to get home. I had my adult stem cells isolated and stored last Monday. My daughters getting great on the violin. I'm heading to DC this weekend, but it's all family time. Would love to see my Hubski peeps. Not sure it's doable. Miss my kids. Have t seen them in a while.
Have you noticed how beautiful the clouds are? The shape they weave in our sight with the help of the sunlight can be astonishing. Deep. I never noticed that. Jogging helps a lot. I'm feeling confident enough to not attach myself to others as much as I did before. The fear of public humiliation has not yet disappeared, but it affects me much less and I notice it quicker. It makes you feel great, overcoming yourself step by step, day after day. That visit to the therapist I did weeks ago? It's still paying off. With a single string, I'm unraveling the whole fabric of my ego issues as well as the self-sabotage that I involve myself in. Magical how such a small thing can affect one to such a great extent. Had a dream the other day about a girl I can't get my eyes off of kissing me then running away, as if overcome with emotions. Can't figure out what it means. Is it my subconscious telling me that she likes me indeed, or is it the projection of my desires? Lastly: any advice on wireless headphones or shoes? I have no idea about either and could use both on a budget.
Your comment about the beauty of clouds reminds me of some ways of thinking from Stoicism and Buddhism. There is hidden beauty all around us, and we often take it for granted because we're used to it, or because we're too busy paying attention to our thoughts about a thing rather than truly paying attention to the thing itself. As for headphones: http://thewirecutter.com/reviews/best-wireless-exercise-headphones/
It isn't hidden if we just don't bother taking a look. As for the headphones link: I've already dismissed the article in question while looking through the Google results. I'm looking for a more classically-composed pair of headphones - the one that holds together by an arch over one's head - as well as leaning towards personal experience and facts that you might share that aren't present in the ads or product description.
Ah, I see. Personally, I trust The Wirecutter to have good product recommendations because they've been spot on when I followed their advice for printers and wired headphones. They also have recommendations for more classically-composed cordless headphones. Personally, I only have experience with wired headphones, and can offer some recommendations in that category if you're interested. What exactly is your use case for these headphones? Why do you want wireless? Are you planning on running with them?
The plan is to avoid the confusion I often get with wires when moving around the apartment looking for a better place. Long wires aren't comfortable to deal with in either of the positions I find myself most often because they tend to be unbendly, as durable as it makes them, and I'm not sure if I can have a short wire with a given pair of headphones. Wires are easy to break where they connect, in my experience, so I'd rather avoid having to spend money on a new pair every year.
So durability of the headphones, specifically the wire connection, is one of your main concerns, and the other one is the lack of comfort with a long, unbendly wire. That makes sense. I think you might like the Audio Technica ATHM50x headphones. They are wired, but the wire detaches and can be replaced. Also one of the wires is curly so it's short when you're nearby what they're plugged into. I have an older version of these same headphones, and I can tell you that they sound fucking amazing. If you've never had a quality pair of headphones before, the depth and richness it can bring out of music is out of this world. Given equal price points, the sound quality on a pair of wired headphones is likely to be MUCH better if you buy the right pair.
The ATHM50x looks badass. What bothers me about it, however, - and what you generally don't find in the lower-tier wireless headphones - is the earpillows, the padded circles around the sound sources. How do they fare? The only ones of this kind I had did not fare well: the pillows just kept pressing against the ears and made them sweat (which I didn't even know ears can do beforehand).
Hmmm. With mine, my ears do sweat when it's hot or when I wear them for several hours at a time. But they're breathable enough to not make them sweat 95% of the time. You might be different, though. I'm reading on Amazon that this newer version has upgraded padding material. I don't know if one could say for sure how comfortable they would be without trying them on for several hours. I will say that these headphones are designed for long periods of use, since they're really designed for studio monitoring. Another caveat that goes along with them being for studio use is that they're very accurate, and some people actually don't like the way that sounds. They don't boost any particular frequency to make the music sound more "dynamic", the music sounds like however it was recorded. And the sound is so much clearer than cheap consumer headphones that you may find unpleasant surprises in music, like if a song is poorly mastered and has some clipping when it gets loud, you can hear it. On the other hand, it makes well-mastered albums sound better than anything I've heard before. For instance, I was never a huge Björk fan before I bought nice headphones, but I am now.
I wouldn't count on it. I noticed that Guitar Center has them in some stores. At least, they have them in stock near where I live. It also looks like their return policy will let you return them after trying them on. Or maybe they'll let you try them on in the store. Maybe you could go there, or if they're not nearby, maybe there is another store that has a return policy that will let you try them on.
If there are any legit running stores near you, go there and get their advice. Different shoes fit different peoples' styles differently. As for me, I supinate like a freakball and I'm almost always in Asics or Brooks. Asics what or Brooks what doesn't really matter; I usually get last year's model deeply discounted. But that's me, not you. I switched to some Newtons about a year ago and while it shaved a minute off my mile time initially, it also gave me a hairline fracture in a metatarsal and I'm about halfway back up, probably because when you supinate and your strike is limited to a 1.5" wide chunk, that 1.5" wide chunk wears down quicker. Why wireless? I go wired and when i sweat 'em out, it's $15. And I sweat them out, and they all suck.
I was more interested in shoes in general. I feel like I'm in a place where my choice is between wet or chilly as far as my feet are concerned, which is among the reasons I ask for advice. It's a vague asking because I have no idea how to pick the right shoes beyond the general "size fits" and "doesn't hurt walking". I'd like to take your advice on running shoes, but I don't understand half of what you're saying about 'em. :) Regarding headphones, see this comment for reasoning pro-wireless.
"Shoes in general" depends more on socks, then. Start to learn about socks. If nothing else, they're cheaper than shoes. Worthy of note: I live nowhere near Siberia so my conception of "wet" and "chilly" may pale compared to yours. It seems that you're not looking for workout headphones, which means the world is your oyster. However, the good ones will still have a cord. Sorry.
So I spent six weeks on Mount Rainier, 12 hours a day, 6 days a week, in the wettest winter on record. And I was given a truly meager budget to get comfy. But far and away my best bang-for-buck purchases were: 1) super-cheap Cabela's socks 2) $160 head-to-toe Cabela's camo coveralls I was surrounded by people wearing $3k in Arcteryx and I had 'em beat. Everyone laughed at my camo until they discovered I was the only mutherfucker that was comfortable. That realtree shit? It's no joke. Cabela's sold me an insulated pair of pants, a fleece, a jacket and a removable hood that makes no noise, has no odor, and can literally be submerged without getting you wet. It is the shit. If I could find the exact same ensemble in something other than realtree I'd be in heaven. Tellin' ya. I'm a big booster of REI and actual, you know, exercise but the huntin'fishin'froadin' crowd has the sit-on-your-ass-and-not-freeze gear handled and they do it for pennies on the dollar what REI wants.
I'm a fan of good socks. If your feet feel cold and you're wearing cotton socks, try wool or synthetic socks. Cotton traps moisture against your skin and makes you feel cold while wool and most synthetic fabrics do not. Wool socks can be made lightweight; they aren't only for cold weather. Merino wool is a specific type of wool that's popular and not itchy. A lot of brands use it, and my experience is with Smart Wool and Darn Tough, two popular brands available in my part of the US.
A decent driver requires decent power. Wired headphones draw this from the jack, and the headphone amp driving them. Wireless headphones must draw that power from on-board batteries, which also must power the wireless link. It's a choice - do you want fidelity, light weight or battery life? Pick two.
Can't do that. I have no idea which even might be good, since I have no experience in the field. That being said, I have been thinking about it and figured that wired headphones can't be all that bad, considering how little real trouble I have with them. I'll be following the recommendations already given in the threads and see what I will come up with. Thanks for the help.
Its just a nice luxury. Great for running I can totally zone out on the track and just focus on running and music, they never fall out or get loose. I think Ive probably spent the same amount over the years on IEM's Ive destroyed due to shitty quality.
Unlike what I stated in the previous replies to this question in the thread, I now understand that I was meaning to ask about shoes for daily wearing. I'm looking for the general guidelines for looking for shoes, as well as the specific information on which kinds of material are best suited for me. My feet sweat heavily, and while different socks might help, I heard my mother telling me to look for leather shoes, and I'd like to figure out if it's correct but have no reliable material. I'd like to get personal experience rather than trusting the online articles.For the shoes -- what style do you want? Sneakers? Running shoes?
I'm looking for something that looks semi-formal while being comfortable enough to wear for half a day or more. I wear a semi-formal combo of dark trousers, white shirt with sleaves rolled up and a plain casual black tie. I'd like something that says neither "office worker", "attorney" nor "hipster".
The change in your outlook from a few months ago is astounding and very encouraging. Keep at it!
Wow, either the bar is empty or I am up way too damn early. Countdown to Parental Armageddon is roughly two weeks and the preparations slog on. The other night I managed to grab some images of Jupiter and got the chance to test a few things. One of those tests determined that a lens I bought to help the camera collect more light has a serious chromatic aberration issue. This means that each colour of light comes to a focus at a different point leaving a ring of colour around the object that is tough to get rid of. I did manage to get a few decent images, and I present those below. Note how the colour shifts a bit when you can see the Great Red Spot; this is when I swapped to a different lens. I also retired an old server this week. She had been running for 14 years nearly non-stop and finally gets to have a Viking Funeral she so justly deserves. New servers have been spun up, and the cycle continues. And what the fuck people? This is the last Pubski in April, meaning it's already May. MAY This year is flying by faster than normal it seems. Link to album here: http://imgur.com/a/toZI6
Probably shouldn't drink in church but oh well. Tonight, and tomorrow night I'm performing my last concert of my first season with the new choir at the Rosary Cathedral in Toledo. It's got about 2 seconds of reverb through the hall, and combined with the Toledo Symphony we fill the space with thunder and lightning. I'm so glad that I made the decision to audition last summer, for all kinds of reasons. I'm honored that these men and women count me as a musical peer. Mentally, well I'm learning a lot about myself right now. I'm learning how to kind of just be okay. Not perfect, not in crisis, just how to be okay. I've also lost 2 lbs since Saturday :)
Knock em dead. I love that you did. When grown ups participate in "extra curriculars" like this... It reminds me to get busy living or get busy dying.combined with the Toledo Symphony we fill the space with thunder and lightning.
I'm so glad that I made the decision to audition last summer, for all kinds of reasons.
I actually went to a Unitarian church a few times in the past year because I've been trying to be get off my angry agnostic box and be more genuinely tolerant of religion/religious people. I can definitely dig the Unitarian vibe a lot more than the sad, condemned sheep bah bah bah vibe I grew up in. I like their emphasis on being 'The religion of Jesus, not a religion about Jesus.' Other than that, no christian sect has surprised me.
Warning signs from right to left: "Caution, Superman's farts are toxic and currently blowing in the wind."
I'll be interviewing for the job I mentioned last week. Unfortunately, I am pretty sure I no longer want the job. The benefits they offer are significantly worse than my current ones in almost every way (5-10 less days vacation time, 4% less employee match on 401(k), extremely limited sick time, something like 6 days a year (compared to unlimited where I currently am), no work from home capability as far as I can tell, etc- the only benefits that MIGHT be better are the health insurances, which, as a relatively healthy 26-yo without plans to start a family any time soon, don't really interest me - oh, and my company currenlty pays for my cell phone, so I would have to buy one, which is a tangible increase in my own costs immediately) not to mention an additional hour tacked on to my commute, oh, and the recruiter has told me not to expect anything more than a 15% raise on my current salary (yes, I lied to her about my current salary), probably something closer to 10%. If I do the math on: increased gas, mileage, and the cost of me being in a car 10 more hours a week; me taking on new phone costs; me now paying taxes in two states; my loss on the 401(k); my loss on vacation days; plus the intangible costs of no longer being able to work from home, the stress of moving to a new environment, etc, etc, etc - a 15% raise on my "current salary" doesn't actually cut it. I wouldn't need much more than a 15% raise, about 19% is what I've calculated to be my "bottom number," but the fact is that I do like my job where I am and I don't really feel like fighting to get financial compensation for perks that I sincerely enjoy as perks right now. So that has been on my mind. In other news, I went on a second date last night, and it went very well. We watched Wes Craven's Deadly Blessing, which is available on Amazon Prime. Here's my advice to you: don't. Also, as a follow-up to my "Fuckin' Bookbinding, Yo" post ( elizabeth ) , I opened an Etsy store. It's here for those interested. I am skeptical I will sell much, tbh.
Two years ago I moved from walking-distance-to-my-office to 40-min-commute-distance without changing jobs, pay, etc, so I have an approximation of a controlled experiment. I thought I would hate it, because, well, why shouldn't I? I found myself not disliking it too much, because it gave me a chance to listen to the radio more, which I appreciate (though I would still walk given the choice). Then again, I moved because I was getting married and the wife didn't want to move back to the ghetto, so my effective income did actually increase (given that I was now only responsible for 50% of bills), so maybe I'm full of shit.
10 more hours a week!? That sounds miserable. Nothing wrong with an interview, but your current job sounds like a way better deal in just about every way. How long have you been in this job?
My commute right now is essentially negligible: 10 minutes if I choose to drive to work, so it would really be going from 0 to 10 hours, not "some amount" to "some amount plus 10." I agree, I think my current job does sound better. At least, the benefits are just phenomenal, I'm forced to admit. I've been in this current role for about a year and a half. The downside is that, due to what bank management is choosing to do with the bank overall for the next 2 years, we've been basically guaranteed that there won't be any promotions for that same time period (2 years). I don't personally believe in the direction snr management is taking us, and if it doesn't pay off after these 2 years, we could have spent a bunch of money with little to no payoff, which doesn't look good for my job/promotion potential either.
FYI: If I were to pick two years in the past 30 in which it would be good to have a stable, secure, under-paying job that's likely to be spared a layoff, those years would be 2008 and 2016. For purposes of resume-padding you can always ask for a title change at no additional salary. It demonstrates initiative, illustrates your drive and keeps focus on you at no impact to the balance sheet. And should the finance industry come crashing down (again) you've at least distinguished yourself a little compared to everyone else on the bread line. Also, if one were saving for a downpayment, an additional year or so of savings might reap substantial benefits in a down market. Just sayin'.
I don't have an idea about jobbing, but from what I'm seeing, you're not losing anything by staying where you are for the next two years. If it's promotions you're chasing - sure, change place, but it doesn't sound like it. If you like your current job, stay without regretting a thing; if you don't, you're better off spending more time looking for a better workplace than taking a worse choice just because it might pay off eventually.
That sounds empowering in a vague sort of way. Then again, I'm on a company laptop billing hours at a consultant's rate while I send personal emails and read hubski. And I don't feel much different than usual. Surely someone is getting screwed over by my semi-fraudulent behavior but I can't put my finger on whom.
I'm really excited to see that you've opened up an Etsy store. I fucking love art and artisan stuff, so I really hope things take off for you. Have you considered, in addition to Etsy, selling your stuff at shows and local fairs? Depending on the event, you can often rent a booth for a weekend relatively cheaply and can easily make your money back to cover booth costs so you can at least break even, if not turn a profit.
Hey, I have been meaning to get back to you from Day 1. It's a good question, and also thanks for your enthusiasm! I really doubt this will turn into anything much, though, tbh. I have absolutely considered trying to get in at local art shows or fairs. I'm interested in doing so, because I honestly think I'll have better chances actually selling anything at face-to-face events with impulse and holiday/birthday present motivation driving on-the-spot purchases. However, I know for most fairs there is an entry or booth fee. I haven't taken the next step of finding out what fairs are upcoming and what the cost to become a vendor would be. I also am not sure if it might not be better to have multiple kinds of art products, aka stuff besides books, if I were to go that route. I'm not sure. i could always sell my paint-by-numbers. The problem is that the income from each book sale isn't pure profit, so while I think you may be right that at a good fair I could net recoup my booth fees, I really doubt that I could gross recoup them and profit, unless I had significantly more stock than I do now, and maybe if it was a book or literary festival - themed, so the audience would be more likely to want artisan books. - Actually - that's not a bad thought.
Well, of course it's important to have fun above all else, but it'd still be pretty cool if things took off for you. :) Diversifying your product offerings is probably a pretty good idea, as it increases your chances of selling something. You should really go to some craft fairs and art fairs this year if you can, for fun and looking around, not for selling stuff. It'll give you a chance to see what other people are doing, the quality of their craftsmanship, and you'll get a good idea about fair market prices. Plus, if that's the kind of stuff you're even remotely interested in, it can be a lot of fun. The wife and I haven't hit up a craft or antique fair for a few years now. I think we're overdue.I really doubt this will turn into anything much, though, tbh.
It has been quite a week. I went to see Hans Zimmer at the Palais des Congrès and it was an amazing performance. Probably one of the best experience of my life. The Orchestra played Gladiator, The Lion King, Pirates of Caribbean, Inception, Interstellar, Batman and more and you felt everything. I recommend it to anyone. Here are some excerpts, but it's orders of magnitude better live : I have some interviews coming this friday and next week for 6-months internships in Private Equity, Management Consulting and M&A. It's going to be quite hard but I'm going to prepare and we will see how it goes. I went to see a conference of Jean-Yves Le Gall (CEO-equivalent of the CNES (Centre National d'Etudes Spatiales) -equivalent of the NASA here) and it was quite interesting: - Fun facts: it seems that the main reason the ISS stays up in the air is because we don't know how to bring it back to Earth. (the size of this thing is crazy: length 78.8m (239ft) ; width 108.5m (356ft) ; height 20m (66ft)) - Google X works on a live Google Earth, I didn't know this. It could have tremendous application, especially for self-driving cars if the network knows in advance where are moving things and in which directions. - Jeff Bezos really knows his science, he was able to talk at a rocket-science level for 2 straight hours with specialists and journalist at a conference 2 weeks ago. - There was a dinner between Obama, Hollande, Elon Musk, Jean-Yves Le Gall and others. During the dinner, when Jean-Yves asked Musk about a possible collaboration, Musk told him that if he wanted to collaborate he would have to set up an appointment with Human Resources at SpaceX. Typical Musk. - Ariane 6 is going to be completely new and have a cost effective approach, trying to respond to market needs (3D printing of parts, reusability, etc.) - Concerning SpaceX, his group of experts told him that the design of the rocket wasn't going to work and was going to explode at high altitude due to fluctuation. That didn't happen. They also told him that the first stage would just go through the barge, sinking both the first stage and the barge. That didn't happen either. So now they take new entrants way more seriously.
Thanks bartender. Mmmm, delicious. Where I am: Lake Huron. 44.2997° N, 81.5881° W Cool, but sunny. I was given a bluetooth headset as a present because someone mivasairski wants me to be hands-free. Tomorrow, I am probably getting a modern communication device to go with it. Never again will someone look at my flip phone and say, "What's that?" Will I go through with it? I'll let you know.
I thought you were at bamboozled.twofold.brochure but it turns out you're at milked.crafty.wanted. Somewhere there's a meme with a bunch of dudes and their bluetooths and it says "Aliens are tagging the world's douchebags to monitor their behavior" or something.
I ran 5.97 miles (a new high) in 63 minutes last night and felt great and able to do more at the end of it. So now I'm thinking about signing up for a 12k that's in June. Would have to move a concert I'm working on booking though if that were to happen. Also trying to figure out a vacation or something. (oh dang I can cash in my time off???)
Nice job! Much better than what I did. I went running for the first time in, like, a year this Friday. Didn't really do a good warmup and ran 3 miles straight, 8-9 minute mile. It's the stupidest thing I have done this week. Saturday I was so sore that I had a headache and painful legs all day long. Lesson learned...
It a device that reflects ions through a giant vacuum chamber. The time it takes for those ions to travel through its very controlled electromagnetic field is proportional to their mass-to-charge ratio. So with a metal screen (2nd to last picture in top comment) you can detect how many ions came through and calculate how long it took to see them relative to an initial electromagnetic pulse that flings them through the chamber.
It's fascinating how much medical imagining and space plasma imaging techniques have in common. What do you use for your signal multiplication scheme? Channel Electron Multiplier? Avalanche Photodiode?
Ah, you've just gone past my physics knowledge right there. I believe the instrument above is a channel electron multiplier, but it looks like our newer one uses a differential amplifier
Are you my professor? I'm in the middle of a Fourier analysis of the power spectrum radiated by a charge trapped in a magnetic field (for a velocity much less than the speed of light, aka cyclotron radiation, the relativistic case being synchrotron radiation). It's analogous to the Orbitrap's electric field trapping mechanism, those calculations were so last homework set. I've just stumbled (and rather stupidly) into a scenario where a few sentences led to wedding math concepts with the utility of code to tease out the charge/mass ratio using this detection scheme. Thanks man.
Highly doubtful, given I work in a bio lab and it sounds like you're into physics. That sounds crazy though, I think the least intuitive thing about the orbitraps is to me that it's not the frequency of spinning around the trap that's used for m/z calculations, but the frequency of oscillating from one end of the trap to the other. It blew my mind when I first learned that.Are you my professor?
To beat this horse dead: I found the SIMION simulation of the "quadro logarithmic potential", which is what causes the bouncing you've brought up. It's basically using electric potential(/field) geometry of the inner spindle to trap the particles in such a way that you've dictated all variation in their horizontal movements (in terms of manyyyy cycles per second) to be only dependent on mass/charge. So I was slightly wrong about the mechanics, thank you. But then yeah, they'll emit radiation, which you can model as one dipole moment for each particle oscillating in the plane formed by your viewing angle and the Orbitrap's axis of symmetry. Anyway, biophysics is great, I'm just such a sucker for space.
I didn't either before ~15 months ago, but as with most research topics, when you're in a lab you're surrounded by experts (i.e. my adviser built one of these for his PhD) and learn about how they work pretty quickly. If you have a high-school-level of physics, you can pick up on things like "magnetic fields move charged molecules" even if you don't know the physics-PhD-level equations to describe those movements or the MechE-PhD-level skills to machine one yourself.
It's my last week of university. Graduation is quickly approaching, and I'm super excited to hear Obama speak at graduation. On the other end of things I'm really trying to push myself to take the trip to Canada on my own. I've gotta start looking for work, and stuff. I'm still aiming for a two year program at the UN, but no positions have been open. I've begun to branch out looking for work for other NGO's. Sometimes it's a lot, but I'm taking things slow.
You're up for an exciting speech, it seems. Take the trip. Have it be both the widest and the deepest you can make it. See a lot and talk to a lot of different people. They're the same continent and the same language, but a different culture, and you can learn from the way the live. Visit some weird-choice country like Russia, while you're at it. Stuff here's going to be extremely cheap for your pocket, for one thing.
So I took the GRE monday. I got 167 verbal and 161 quantitative, which translates to 97th percentile verbal and 80th percentile math. I'm an electrical engineer, so that was a surprising score and actually a bit disappointing. My work pays for grad school, actually they kind of make you go to grad school, but not in any particular field. If I want to get into an EE grad program at my university of choice, I would have to retake the GRE to get a better math score. Not sure what I want to do yet.
Hey folks, Remember when I said I was happy to see my ex with new people? Turns out I wasn't quite ready to SEE it, which happened this past friday. By saturday, I was mostly fine. Sunday, she kind of exploded at me - not really AT me, she just exploded and was talking to me at the time. I took that as a sign to give her a few days with no communication, which worked well. Things are good again, and we're figuring out new dynamics, as always. I realized how desperately I need new female friends. All of the people I live with are straight guys, and it's driving me insane. I've been reaching out to old friends recently, and started hanging out with some of them, which has been nice. I am excited to be able to have a completely new group of friends soon. I am graduating in 16 days, which is kind of insane. I am happy to be out of here, but jeez, that is fast. Kind of scary. Especially because I am going to Europe on may 17th (and getting bees on the 14th!), and haven't planned for it a lick. On top of that, I have to finish mixing a friend's album, put together a house show, make another web app, and pack up my apartment. Oy. I wasn't able to vote in the primaries yesterday because the town hall had my birthdate down as 1/1/1880. Unfortunately, I didn't have the time to do much about it, because I had a tight schedule for getting back to school. Bummer city. EDIT: I also made the lamest impulse buy ever: a domain name. I've been having some fun with it so far.
The whole world is opening before you now. I already said to War: visit some place you wouldn't think of usually. Some small town in Poland. Some mountains in Montenegro. A ghost town in Germany (if there are even any; I'm just wildguessing). That bar all the locals are talking about but no guide tells you of. Roads best lit, while safest, are also the most boring. Man, I'm jealous of your travel opportunities. For how long is your trip?
There's probably a few in the east, or places that will soon be demolished for open pit coal mining. That said, all I see on wikipedia are troop exercise places.A ghost town in Germany (if there are even any; I'm just wildguessing).
UK has quite some history to uncover, all over the place. It's a much smaller country, so I presume your endeavour can take a deeper turn here and there. Stay curious, and you'll be able to find the most exciting things in the most ordinary places.
Wow, this has been a perfect week. I'm basically all-around happy :)
Nothing feels better than getting back in the rhythm of the gym. 2 miles, sub-15 mins. 5x5 squats, finally got to back 135 today. 5x5 bench, finally got back to 135 today. 5x5 deadlift, finally got back to 135 today. 2 sets of 20 push ups and 1min planks, cried inside less today. After a year of fucking around and losing all my strength and a all my muscle, it's fucking really good to be back. Celebratory cigarette on my walk home? possibly the worst decision I've made in weeks. Never said I'm perfect :S
It's just what I'm capable of at the moment :D I could definitely put up the deadlift but I'm trying to perfect my form, and still havent decided if the regular or sumo lift is better for me.
My guess is that it's because of the different kinds of muscles used - your back muscles combined are, for almost everyone, stronger / bigger than their leg muscles, which are stronger than their arm muscles. My deadlift PR was almost twice my squat PR, just as an example.
Shame. Think of it this way, then: you're beating everyone who isn't doing any weight right now. If you measure your life from the successful people's, you'll always find yourself missing something, when in fact, the truth of what you have comes from what you had and what you gained. I came to call it "measuring from zero than from a hundred", referring to percentage of achieving some sort of an ideal that we chase blindly. It's not what we don't have that defines us - it's what we do have, and right now, you have it quite well, don't you?
What I left out was that my bench PR was half my squat, and that my squat form was appaling. Either the squat weight is too light to matter or my weak as shit ankles were in the way. Everyone in the gym sucks in their own special way. That said, eat more proteins and heavy reps will get better over time. It's the trendline that counts, not the outliers.