Some weeks I have big updates, and other weeks I have small ones. Sometimes my updates are big because I have strong emotions that I need to release, and sometimes my updates are small because I have strong emotions that need to be hemmed in.

This week I have no strong emotions of either variety, and that has me feeling emotional in an unfamiliar way. It feels like I'm wearing a thick wool glove and grasping at my emotions, trying to describe the texture of them.

It sure does fucking suck to have a broken leg. I wish I could ambulate farther than a city block's length before needing a break. I wish I could ambulate with my own legs instead of metal crutches that bruise my hands and clang around when I drop them. I'll be better in a few months, but the next few months are going to continue to suck.

How's it going, Hubski?

I didn't hear about ilex or her chickens this week! How goes the conference prep? Are you already on the road?

applewood I'm still planning to watch Godzilla '54, but I've had less free time than I thought I would! It's still on the list. Have you done any crafting since last week?

I've got to say, as much as I enjoyed the writing, it was the absolutely stunning visuals that made this so compelling for me. The use of parallax scrolling transitions was masterful, and the photography was stunning!

However much I want to front as an eidolon of willpower, I can't say for sure how I would have handled that craving without the support and transparency between me and my family. They've been caring for me since the surgery, and the accountability to my parents is a huge factor in summoning the willpower - I wasn't just doing it for myself.

I also don't know how I would've done if I hadn't just quit smoking. I have a feeling it'd be easier to develop another addiction if I was still embroiled in another.

I'll have to check it out, then!

I used oxycodone for a week after breaking my leg, and hydrocodone for two following my surgery. Having just quit smoking, I can recognize the familiar way that substances pull at your thoughts. It's different, but not that different.

I've used less opiates than most in my situation (based on "research" of some collected anecdotal evidence) and I've had a few stone-cold, honest to god cravings. That's fucking terrifying, and it prompted me to go cold turkey sooner than my doctor expected me to.

Someone else would be addicted right now. Opiates aren't a fucking joke, and in my opinion this guy deserves more than the sentence they've given him.

Oooh, I didn’t realize it was out already! Is it as good as its premise?

Well damn! How nervous are you feeling? I’m sure you’ll kill it

It was my full name, and enough to freak me out! It’s pretty recognizable. Not out of any hidden fame or anything, it’s just intensely whimsical :)

It gets a little philosophical. I'm assuming we're all familiar with deontology and consequentialism, but I've had to adopt a deontolgical position with my own actions in climate change. Individuals are contributing very, very little to the degradation of the planet's climate (local environment being another discussion, obviously - if you litter, you're still a piece of shit), but I still want to reduce my emissions because it's the right thing to do.

We're fucked if we don't get everyone on board with putting serious limits on industry, particularly the barges that ship goods across the Pacific...But yet, I'm still going to recycle and take shorter showers. I'd rather take a train than a plane. It almost certainly won't make a difference, but I'll still do it because I feel like I have to.