The surgery I had three weeks ago was not successful so now it's "do minor fixes until you can't anymore and then more intensive and invasive surgery" really the cherry on top of the month of May for me.

Thursday works for me!

Job searching is rough. Looking like I'll be ending up in the SF area. Nothing wants to pay over 80k/yr at best, even with a Masters degree. And nothing that pays enough to survive in the bay area wants a kiddo with an MPH and public health/local government experience but no pharma/industry/research/etc., experience. I've applied to well over 100 jobs in the past week. And I'm pretty confident I'll get ghosted/no from essentially all of them. It's unbelievably demoralizing. I know my skills and my worth, and I know I will be successful in all the jobs I'm applying to. They won't even give me a look though because I don't have exactly what they're looking for and so an algorithm or some HR person pushes me away and I never get through. And everyone I know is East Coast, not West Coast, so I don't have a network to really tap and use to my benefit while I search. I've applied to pharma, federal, consulting, hospital, environmental, startup, and research roles, and none of them will get back to me. I'm so done with it and it hasn't even really started yet.

My uncle had a heart attack and died Monday at the ripe old age of 59, also meaning his mother outlived him. And he might not have a will. All my schooling is done and I walk across a stage on Saturday to receive a piece of paper that says "this kid knows things." I still don't have employment lined up. My family is insisting on still coming to my graduation and delaying the funeral. I have a surgery on the 12th of the month (minor, don't worry). I haven't slept well in weeks. I'm just so exhausted and done with it all.

Apparently Maggie Rogers released new music last year and I totally missed it