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necroptosis  ·  26 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: January 4, 2023

I talked in a past pubski about how I felt a general lack of purpose and desire to do more. The feeling has gnawed at me for ages... I lost all interest in medicine and have quite my program. So I returned to Ukraine about a month ago. The sense of purpose is back and I feel more content than I have in the past 6 months of comfy living going to school in San Francisco. It's been a great time, working with interesting people for a shared positive reason. It's a completely different vibe than the last time I was here-the country (at least the area I am in) has settled into wartime in a weirdly easygoing way. There are plenty of oddities- I watched a Kalibr missile fly past me the other day, just cruising along at an incredibly low altitude.

That being said I know I can only do this for so long. This organization has zero ability for forward progression and the work is very repetitive. For my actual career I have no idea what I truly want to do. I want to do more and achieve more but hell I have no idea what that would look like. I have the conflicting goals of wanting to work in remote areas/emergencies and building a family with a solid home life. I've been advised to work with a career counselor, which I guess can't hurt. After a decade of being so sure of my path it's a weird place to be.

necroptosis  ·  26 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: January 4, 2023

I'm so sorry man. I know how hard and rare it can be to meet someone you're truly excited about. And how difficult it can be to slowly realize it won't work out. We tell ourselves so many things to try and make it work, but in the end for whatever reason some things just aren't right-and it fucking sucks. Wishing you the best

necroptosis  ·  26 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: January 4, 2023

Everything counts. Putin and his cronies will pay eventually, in part to donations like yours.

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necroptosis  ·  61 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: November 30, 2022

It's scary how quickly a dependence on alcohol creeps up on you. So many of these social situations you feel like you have to drink. Then it becomes habit, and not just on weekends-pitfall of socializing. I most often relapse when I'm living/staying with others-it's hard not to drink when it becomes an integral part of your socialization. I hope moving back helps-a change in scenery can often help kick the habit.

necroptosis  ·  61 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: November 30, 2022

Congrats man! Hope you're already sitting happy in Brussels

necroptosis  ·  74 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Is this the end of crypto?

Along the same vein:

necroptosis  ·  76 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Sam Bankman-Fried tries to explain himself

Ah i'm ok with that aspect honestly. Let people feel smug about their donated money, it enables more donations. My hate goes towards those who front that they are altruistic solely as a means to an end. SBF, as further shown by these messages, is a prime example.

necroptosis  ·  76 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Sam Bankman-Fried tries to explain himself

This is the epitome of Silicon Valley altruism. Everyone’s start up is going to change the world and help out millions of disadvantaged people. But it’s all about money and power, what a farce. At least I now have a solid thing to point towards when people ask why I originally left the Bay Area and why I will always stay away from tech.

necroptosis  ·  95 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: October 26, 2022

You're 100% right and I've known it for a while. For some reason it's harder to pull myself from them then it really should be.

necroptosis  ·  95 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Was it about the friends we made along the way?

Ah yeah, everything about this tracks. I hope the nightmare does have an effect for the better. I've seen some libertarian's change their mind after reality set in. Some, not many

necroptosis  ·  96 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Was it about the friends we made along the way?

Hey man BFX made his comment in good faith. This could have opened a discussion about the incident and maybe improved a fault of this community. Instead this cynicism is quite rude to him and contributes nothing.

necroptosis  ·  96 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: October 26, 2022

I'm coming up on a year out of the military and have spent a bit of time reflecting. I always heard about guys getting out and feeling lost and without purpose. I always thought I'd have a little of that but it turns out it's been an overarching theme this entire year. The truth is nothing really feels like it matters. There's no sense of purpose, no stakes, no objective. Going to school is beyond bland and most dates I've been on just feel meh. I strongly dislike how much this sentiment is leaking into my life but I just can't seem to help it. The weeks I did in Ukraine were the closest I felt to satisfaction. The last thing I want to do is spend my life chasing more but it looks like it may happen anyways-I'm working through details of going back shortly. I'm meeting up with a Ranger Regiment guy who got out 10 years ago next week and am hoping he can provide a little guidance. I have a lot of decisions to make in the next couple months and am unsure on a lot of fronts. It looks like I may forego the medical school path in favor of nurse practitioner or physician assistant.

Fortunately, there's a lot of good. This summer I worked as a camp counselor at a camp I went to as a kid. Despite being one of the oldest people there, older than most of my supervisors in-fact, I was able to settle into the role really well and had an extremely restorative summer. I'm thinking I'll go back to work there in the future, it's by far one of my favorite places on the planet with one of the best communities around. Trying to work out how I take a summer off from now until eternity and still have a career. I've recently moved to San Francisco and so far absolutely love the city. I'm living in a great area with fantastic roommates and have started to build a small community, something I often lacked with the constant moves of the military.

Dating in a city is something I've never quite experienced to this level (at least in one where everyone speaks english). I've been on quite a few dates, it seems there are plenty of options. So far though most have fell fairly flat. I had drinks with a women a few or two ago who worked at Meta and spent a good 20 minutes talking about how the company wasn't really that bad. I do feel like I'm chasing the ghost of my ex and hope I can just move on from that eventually. I think I'm going to delete dating apps and take a break-they feel so hollow and 9/10 I come out with a bad taste in my mouth.

All in all life is pretty dang good, just need to ponder some decisions. No place quite like the pub..ski

necroptosis  ·  98 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Was it about the friends we made along the way?

I'm not a fan of this take. While I barely participate, the times I do mean more to me than anywhere else on the internet. The pace is slow here and that is ok. Many recent posts have very good thorough discussions. If you remove hubski then you remove the community that it created-sure you can still interact with individuals but will you interact with the collective?

necroptosis  ·  127 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: September 21, 2022

Jesus, a decimation of young males. So much for learning from our mistakes

necroptosis  ·  127 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: September 21, 2022

300,000 conscripted troops with a possibility of 700,000 more means a TON of possible deserters. Russia has an officer driven military. Those officers will be very few and far in-between and in charge of keeping large numbers of conscripts in line. The Russian logistical network is also rough, and I highly doubt they'll be able to keep up with 300,000 new people. Which basically means:

1. Executions for deserters will skyrocket

2. Food, medicine, and supplies will be minimal. Including winter gear..

3. The Ukrainian POW system is going to be overrun with people. They are probably taking better care of prisoners than the Russians (recent footage from prisoner exchanges have been horrid). But not that much better.

Best option is to get out before they can snag you. Deserting is the last ditch of all attempts.

necroptosis  ·  136 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Ethereum blockchain slashes energy use with 'Merge' software upgrade

Wait you're using allnodes? I would not have guessed that you are using a third-party staking service.

On another note staking is a lot more accessible nowadays with the prominence of liquid staking derivatives.

necroptosis  ·  269 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Five original paintings I haven't shared on Hubski yet

Wow these are fantastic, I absolutely love them

    who cited his hundreds of hours playing Call of Duty when asked about his military experience

I’m dying right now. So many idiots making idiotic decisions.

necroptosis  ·  302 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Feb 22, 2022: "Putin is about to start the most senseless war in history"

There's a lot not being said about the IL and one of those is that you most likely would have never been allowed into country in the first place. For the best, that is not a place you want to be. At all. Should I go it will not be with the IL.

I hope that things getting worse in Russia will lead to changes. It may be a misplaced hope and we do truly see a NK equivalent, but in the meantime it gives me an excuse for having the same terrible thoughts as you.

necroptosis  ·  303 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Feb 22, 2022: "Putin is about to start the most senseless war in history"

    "If you ever wondered what you would have done during the holocaust, it's what you're doing now."

Fucking hell man, there hasn't been a day gone by where I haven't thought about accepting the offer to fight. Volunteering was able to scratch the itch.. but this is just something else. Fuck.

necroptosis  ·  307 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: ‘We Don’t Know How to Phone It In’: A Final Visit With Taylor Hawkins

I just watched a doc on Alanis Morrisette and apparently they called Chris in after auditions completely on accident-they had meant to call someone else. Taylor Hawkins made a comment that he didn’t know who Janes addiction was at the time, which is perfect considering he now plays with them. What a cool guy to know.

necroptosis  ·  315 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Signs of Lviv

Thank you. I speak a decent amount of Russian and I had a Ukrainian friend check my other translations. One small other linguistic fun fact- иди на хуй, the Russian phrase for "go fuck yourself" is more or less directly translated to "go sit on a dick".