Been spending lots of time setting up the new place, it's been rewarding! I've been struggling a little lately. Objectively my life is going good but I'm a littl too stressed at work and low energy to do the things I want after. I still do them, but everything feels like a chore, even basic things. And by the time I'm done with life maintenance stuff I don't always have the energy for the things I'm looking forward to.

It feels like I'm spending all my time in a car, trying to get somewhere instead of in the world. But the road is rough, it's taking too long and I'm missing out on enjoying the journey. I don't know if it means that I need to slow down and enjoy things, take a different road or power through to get to the smoother road faster.

Not quite sure if this metaphor works, but I just spent one week in Costa Rica with some buddies and that was my literal experience. Our communal mansion was far from everything and I wanted to fit in many activities. In the end I spent a lot of my vacation behind the wheel when I could have chilled by the pool. But had I spent the time by the pool, I might have been unhappy with not doing much. Maybe the overall feeling of dissatisfaction is the problem. Or maybe I just needed a longer vacation.

I got myself a wax kit and brought back my old cross country skis from the cabin. There's been record level snow here and I now live a 5 min walk from the mount royal mountain that has groomed trails! Hoping the exercise will help, looking forward to my first outing today!