Good to hear bro, even though I don't know you, I can tell you that you can make it even better. If you are a spiritual person like me, looking at things from a vibrational point of view then.... think about it, it feels good doesn't it ? That's cause drugs seriously lower your vibration. I was a heroin addict for a few years and then after I kicked heroin, I found myself wanting to go back to other drugs as a crutch, benzos, other opiates, Molly, whatever. I used to get trapped in this pitfall because I never believed that drugs are bad in moderation and believe it or not, I would still vouch for people's freedom to put whatever they want in thier own bodies, although now I see things from a different point of view. I started spending my life trying to become more spiritual and when you get it right, you start to figure out what things make you feel better in the long run. I started out taking ormus.... It's an amazing thing, they believe it's the same substance that the Egyptians used and the same thing that Moses fed to his people when he melted down that cow. Anyways. I was super sick for years and I started taking the ormus and I got about 90% better. Then something happened and I plateaued. I couldn't afford ormus all the time and meditation helped but also was heightened by the ormus. I started eating better (mostly vegetarian with a bit of meat ). Then I came into a better understanding of manifesting happiness. Now I am exercising again for the first time in 15 years. Occasionally meditating, (which i need more of) and constantly thinking of ways to be happy while trying not to sweat the small stuff. And when you are doing the right things for the right reason then this magical thing happens. It all falls into place and makes sense. I never even crave beer anymore and when i do drink a beer, it just feels nasty to my awarness. I remember the highs and the lows with heroin and i have no urge to ever use again because if you can ve happy without a substance then why use it? I dont think that someone could pay me a million dollars to ever do that to myself again. The reason i am telling you this is because of that battle that most people face after getting sober and it may not be, meditation or manifestation or exercising for you that does the trick. Maybe it's getting a dog and playing football with your son,(if you have one). Just chase whatever makes you happy and eventually you will look back and you won't even be able to remember why you liked drugs or drinking or whatever. Just friendly advice from me to you man!!!!