Girl troubles
Hey thanks everybody, sorry I missed you all. After about half an hour I decided just to sleep; fortunately I found myself dreaming of better days. In other news, I've decided to hibernate until college. nowaypablo tacocat caelum19 ButterflyEffect viceroy flagamuffin _refugee_ E: I wrote this poem too Up among the rooftops
my sorrows
melt away Pulled to the earth
like falling stars
the prey of gravity A shadow flickers
and is gone
perished into mist
I guess that's where my first 'kiss' was thenewgreen Here among the rooftops
by a soft breeze
kissed
In the words of Matthew McConaughey, "All right, all right, all right." Last night, I was watching 30 Rock, as I am wont to do, and after about 3 episodes I decided to call it quits. I turned off the TV, got up from our recliner, and was suddenly overcome with a wave of emotion. For whatever reason--call it chance, unidentified triggers, or just bad luck--I immediately began missing my ex like hell. A brief interlude, to provide some back story: I was sort of crushing on her for a couple months about a year and a half ago. Around last December, we started a quasi-relationship; in February, she broke up with me. Then in March we got back together, but by the end of the school year she broke things off again. After a summer apart, I was fairly convinced that I was over her. The first time we hung out (in the weeks leading up to this school year), though, that all went out the window. I've been pining over her pretty consistently ever since. Anyway, last night: I was texting one of my other friends about how shitty I felt for a while, and eventually he said something like, "You should probably just get over her because she told me she's definitely not looking for a relationship." This was news to me. It felt like a punch in the gut. That's about where you all came in. I was in dire need of a distraction. I like her a lot, and it sucks. The weird thing is, rationally, there's no reason I should like her this much. She's not my dream girl or anything. We don't have that many common interests; some of her behaviors really grate on me; we disagree on a few fundamental matters of ethics. But in spite of all this, I am fantastically attracted to her. Physically, emotionally, inexplicably--I can't shake it, and it's awful.
Yeah, it hurts the first time, and also the second, third, fourth. In time it will qualify as a "life experience," though. Dubiously reassuring as that may seem. Had I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
It's a very pretty poem, I'm sorry that it had to come from a point of anguish in your life. Hang in there pal, the clouds will part. They always do, though I know that doesn't always seem likely.
I'm not the greatest at comforting people but I'm the king of distractions. Pirate photoshop and try your best editing animal heads onto pictures of people. If you already have it and are any good find a challange at /r/photoshopbattles Go to Codecademy and learn how to make a website, if that's too easy then learn a new language from there. Find a crinkled, old piece of paper and use a pencil to create a picture around the crinkles. Clean everything. Edit/create a wikipedia page, if that sounds like too much effort Uncylopedia is good fun, it's like Encylopedia Dramatica but more intelligent and with less gore/nudity.
Kerbal Space Program The free demo is still pretty good, if you already have it try getting to Laythe, Eoloo, Bop on hard.
Procedural games and reddit are also great ways to waste time, but they're pretty un-productive and if you do them for too long you'll start to hate yourself. I hope you start feeling better soon :)
Hey bud we're on IRC, get your ass online edit: Never mind we are not on IRC that was 7 hours late, but I will be anyway lol. Hop on everyone(?)