I have continued sewing and I am starting to feel a bit more confident in my abilities. The fact that I am a bit quicker as well means that I am not as scared of making mistakes and ruining a project. that will probably change when I start doing new stuff though, next up is sweatpants and leggings I think. I really like just spending a few hours sewing and listening to music. Sewing has just enough of a cognitive load that I can do it and still sit and appreciate what I am listenig to. It is also just really empowering to make something that I have a practical use out of. I can wear a t-shirt I made and feel happy that it looks nice on me and know that I made that possible. I hope to get to a point where I can make some really eleborate nice-looking stuff, as well as some really well made basics.

Climbing went well, I'm still sore. I'll probably go swimming tomorrow, they have quite limited opening hours and are mostly just open during working hours but I'll be able to fit it in before lunch. I'm hoping it's basically empty. I really miss swimming, and just being in water.

I'm feeling quite stressed about uni work and just having a bit of a mental slump. I'm really a person who gets stressed from being very scheduled and I've had something to do every evening since Sunday so I'm just feeling really rushed and like I get no time for catching my breath. I don't think I actually have that much to do - at least not an impossible amount - but I still feel like I'm not quite keeping up with it. It's natural to have slumps now and then I think and hopefully I'll get out of this one soon. Some more time for doing the things I like ,a bit more exercise and getting my apartment tidied up and I think I'll be on my way.

I'm going climbing tomorrow! The climbing gym near me has been closed for a while due to covid but they are now back with a fancy booking system and a hard limit of 8 people in the boulder-room at a time. I am beyond hyped to climb again and a bit worried about how much strength I'll have lost. At least I'll get the satisfaction of managing problems twice..?

I usually pop in and play the Christmas event every year.

Sweden did basically that for the longest time, only it was people under 70 who where able to live their lives quite like usual. I mean of course not all the way as usual, my uni was distanced, people were encouraged to work remotely, not go to malls, large gatherings were banned and so on.

But I went swimming, started climbing, met up with friends all while being pretty firmly within the recommendations. And my uni had a partially in person introduction for new students.

Now restrictions are harder, my climbing gym has closed, so has the pool and no one should gather in a group larger than 8 legally (and not really meet anyone outside of their household). But I can go outside as much as I want, and I'm meeting up with a friend who lives in the same building as me. And visiting my parents occasionally.

I have mixed feelings about it. I am very thankful i got to swim and climb and all of those things, and I think I'd have suffered mentally from the lack of it. In a way it feels easier to not have it now since I'm kind of used to the pandemic in a way. Frog in boiling water style.

At the same time over 10 000 people have died. But would me staying at home have helped that? Many of those deaths were in nursing homes due to structural problems like under-staffing and a too high rotation of staff. But if the level of covid-19 in the general population was lower maybe that staff wouldn't have gotten sick?

But countries with hard lockdowns also seem to be suffering. It doesn't seem to have solved the corona problem there, and it probably wouldn't have here either. Would it have helped? Would it have helped enough to be worth it?

"Educated: a memoir" sounds really interesting, although maybe a bit sad/difficult/emotional.

I've gotten "Every Heart a Doorway"s follow ups from the library and I'm looking forward to reading them and seeing what the author does with the setting. Hopefully something interesting.

I'm trying to get more in to non-fiction, I basically never read it and I also basically only read for fun so it has to be about a subject that interests me and in a style that grabs me.

Welp, I'm kinda, almost, maybe, probably, actually done with term 3 now. Halfway to a bachelors degree. Dang. I had plans to do a bit more with my app project but that didn't happen so now I might get a passing grade though I am kind of unsure. I'll continue work on the app in either case, so if I have to do more work for a passing grade it isn't that bad.

I miss my cat. Sometimes I hear the floor creak and turn around and expect to see her there.

We're getting kittens. I knew that I wanted to keep having cats after Kathlyn, but I did hope that "after Kathlyn" was going to happen far off in the future. I'm confident that the decision to get kittens is coming from a good place and not desperation to get back something that I can't ever get back. I feel like there is two aspects to feeling shit about my cat being dead, the grief over her being gone, and missing having a cat. And nothing but time is going to soothe the first one, but the second one can be solved.

Having this feeling of the one thing I want the most (my cat back) being out of reach has kind of made everything else feel less important which is kind of bad with deadlines looming. I managed the last one (though I don't know if I passed the exam) and I think I'll have something to hand in on Monday even if it isn't up to a passing standard.

A petty shit start to 2021 tbh, but I think it can still be a good year.