Swedish teen who definitely does not do IB. Likes writing, music, computers, politics and many other things. Blogs never.
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I'm playing a lot of pokemon go and ingress. It is not the most productive of things to spend my time on, but it gets me moving and it gets me outside. I am getting to know the local community of players as well and they are really nice.
I have done my first instances of being a theater-school leader. I am a leader together with two other people who are more experienced than me, which is nice. It makes me feel like I always have someone as backup, and could sit in a corner and fetch stuff if I don't feel confident about bossing the kids around. It is less scary than I thought it'd be, and hopefully I'll grow into the role more. On Saturday we are going to spend a few hours learning about being a leader and hopefully I'll be more confident after that.
That is a very good point. I think why I set that goal was that I had in some ways stagnated in my swimming. I was swimming 1km every time and I didn't really think that was good enough exercise. And well, this year I am still mostly swimming 1km each time and then calling it a day. A better goal to have would perhaps be to "challenge myself more when swimming". That one is harder to procrastinate on as well.
I am so often amazed by what a maze the US political system seems to be. I voted for the first time last month. I got my voting card in the mail, (without having to ask for it). I brought it to my designated polling place and stood in line for a bit. I voted. I could also have gone to my local library and voted, any day of the week, for like a month prior to the election.
The fact that voting seems to be such an ordeal in america is fucked up.
I think I am going to miss one of my goals this year which was swimming 1000 m freestyle without stopping. I base this assessment on the fact that it is October and I haven't really been working towards it. I should start working on it though, it might still be possible.
Swimming is nice in that it is hard to injure yourself even while doing things wrong, and in that it is self correcting to a certain extent - you can kind of feel what gives you more forward motion per stroke.
I've had a period of "I need to take care of myself better" recently. I am new at this "being an adult" thing, and not being someone else's responsibility feels a bit strange. But it is also quite nice, being able to independently decide what will make myself fell better, what will make me relax, what I need to feel better in the long run... It makes me feel competent. And competent is one of the main things I aspire to be.
I've had a bad week mental health wise. I bad month mental health wise really. And it's fine, I've rearranged my life to the point where I can take time off without falling behind and then having to catch up and without having to justify it in detail. I have access to healthcare.
It still sucks though.
And I am feeling way better than before, a year and a half ago I was in a really dark place. Now it's more like light gray. It sucks but not a lot. I still go swimming and go to outdoor gyms and play pokemon go. I have started going to raids and the people in my local raid group are nice and interesting to talk to. I play DnD (though my DM might be sick this week), I do theater, I try doing some schoolwork.
But I do really miss just being functional where i didn't have to make an effort in daily life. And I'll get back to that. But it is much nicer to not constantly have to try.
But I am capable of trying.
So mixed feelings all around.
Doing theater is one of the hobbies that I've stuck by the longest. I'm even going to be the leader of a youth group this year.
I've also gotten better at exercising, I try to swim three times a week, though its been more like two these past months. This fall I hope to do a bit more training at outdoor gym/obstacle courses. I recently tried it and it was rewarding working towards getting over an obstacle.
Yes, and I really like it. It is quite relaxing, you don't have to keep track of sets or exercises (if you don't want to). It trains the whole body without much effort, and just the feeling of weightlessness in the water is nice.
People who swim laps at the pool range from people doing breaststroke with their head above the water to ex-competitive swimmers. So you'll probably not be out of place.
I finally found my way to the outdoor gym that is quite near my house. It is quite a nice one and I had a good workout. I now have two types of exercise that i enjoy, swimming and this kind of obstacle-course-ish thing.
I also went to the opticians. My eyes are apparently quite out of sync. I then had a migraine for two and a half days. I have an appointment tomorrow with someone who is more specialized in the problem that I have. So hopefully things will get solved soon, because I read a lot and use computers a lot and getting constant headaches is not fun.
In a way it doesn't even feel that hard anymore. Even now, while being on hour 5 of a horrible migraine. A surprising amount of problems in life can be solved with positive thinking. Granted, you need a functioning brain for that, which I now have thanks to my lithium deficiency being solved.