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Swedish person who definitely does not do IB. Likes writing, music, computers, politics and many other things. Blogs never.

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In Sweden admission to most majors is jdone on pure numbers. You have several categories, grades, grades if you've added courses after graduation, högskoleprovet (kind of like the SAT i think) and then some others. Everyone is ranked and if you're ranked higher than there are places you're in. You also have specific courses you must have read to be qualified to the course.

The idea of having to send in an essay, having to have done extra-curriculars, having to show your love for the school you're applying to well enough and then maybe being rejected because of something completely out of your control is so stressful. I get that there might be benefits to having those extra selection criteria but for the individual student it just seems like an enormous amount of anxiety. And an enormous amount of work for the schools.

swedishbadgergirl  ·  16 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: September 2, 2020

First week of school is not treating me well. I had the fortune of not having any lectures the half term before summer, just project-work, lecture manuscripts to read through and zoom mentoring sessions. Nothing that entailed sitting in front of a screen for 2 (or 4) hours at a time, having to memorize and retain as much information as normal but without having the benefit of a classroom setting or a lecturer who is able to read the room, and with all the distractions of being in your own home.

I really didn't think I would find distance-mode that awful. Yeah, it would suck getting zero human contact most days, and losing contact with my class but when it comes to the actual learning I didn't think I would find it all that hard. After all, spring term went fine and I did over half of high-school from my home.


As I've now learned there is a difference between content designed to be taught from a distance, and content having to be taught from a distance despite not being designed for that. (And also this material is harder to grasp than for example high-school natural science.) So most lecture so far have been a vicious cycle of the following.

1. I try and pay attention.

2. I don't feel like I am following or understanding the material.

3. I look at twitter, or reddit, or cookieclicker to distract myself from the anxiety of not understanding/the boredom of listening to something I don't understand.

4. I feel guilty for not trying hard enough.

And then that over and over for 2 hours. I realize that I need to break this cycle, and the best way to do so is to try and just... Be okay with not getting it, and hoping that something will click in place once I have to use the knowledge I have gained practically. And then just pay attention and not fall into the trap of "well I'm not getting this so I might as well just look at my phone". Because then even if I don't get the subject I'm not feeling like shit over not paying attention properly.

I'll try and knit or something on Monday, because then my hands will be occupied with very little brainpower used and it will hopefully be calming and distracting enough that I don't just sit and think about how I am fucked because I don't understand.

And like, I am academically competent. I am in general confident in that I will pass my classes (eventually) if I put the work in. I have read the prerequisites for my classes, I am not in a bad position when it comes to getting the material. But it does feel like nothing is entering my brain at all.

I try and tell myself it's just been a week. We've had very little practical work and assignments were we apply our knowledge. I'm not even behind, even though it feels like I am. I'm just hoping that everything will feel like it clicks eventually, hopefully real soon.

I just hope Amazon fails.

And now we're going to have them and their union-busting in Sweden. Where having a union contract is the norm.

Is "Christians" here just a dogwhistle for "white and far-right"?

swedishbadgergirl  ·  22 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Wait, are we doing it wrong? [Potential major Hubski experiment]

Holy damn, that was 6 years ago.

swedishbadgergirl  ·  24 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Wait, are we doing it wrong? [Potential major Hubski experiment]

With basically all other websites I don't feel like starting a new account would mean all that much. Maybe annoying to have to manually follow people, but that's it.

With hubski I feel like it would mean something.

swedishbadgergirl  ·  24 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: August 26, 2020

Nolle-p (the introduction for new students) is over! I'm honestly kind of sad about it. All my classes are online and I will have a sharp reduction in human contact from now on throughout the fall. The university is prioritizing new students when it comes to on campus education since there isn't enough space when everyone needs to distance.

The pandemic-proofing ended up being mostly about having groups of students from the same class interacting, and keeping a distance to all other groups. It was quite different from my nolle-p where one of the defining features were big crowds. But it was nice, the organizers did a fantastic job.

It's seldom your life ends up meeting in such a defined circle, last year I was new - this year I am guiding the new.

swedishbadgergirl  ·  53 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: July 29, 2020

Hello! It's been a while. My second year of university starts at the end of August, but I'll move down in the middle of the month to be a part of the introduction of the new students ( Nolle-p). Everyone is trying to make it as pandemic-proof as possible so I'm curious about how that will end up working out. This time last year I really didn't think I was going to enjoy nolle-p and I really did. And I really did not think I was going to sacrifice 2 weeks of my summer to help out with it.

I've started sewing! I've made 3 skirts and 3 tops so far. Each one better than the last. Next challange is t-shirts and then dresses. The dream would be to sew all my clothes myself, but that doesn't seem completely realistic. It sure isn't cheaper to sew things yourself though, I've spent quite a bit of money on fabric and other supplies so far. I'm telling myself that it is reasonable because I am learning as well.

I saw my grandma last weekend, and the weekend before that. It is quite hard to speak with someone who doesn't quite hear you when you are sitting next to them - let alone 2 meters away. But it was nice. She's 89, so you can imagine how worried we all are about corona.

I'm going to miss summer vacation but it will also be nice to be back in my apartment again, and maybe acually meet another person who isn't a relative. That would be nice.

swedishbadgergirl  ·  204 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: February 26, 2020

A few days after spring was officially declared by SMHI it snowed and was below 0 for enough days that I think winter would have come back if that's the way it worked. We had a winter though, which amazes me because I didn't think we'd had enough cold days in a row.