There will always be questions that physics can't answer, but you don't have to ask them. I'll ask occasionally, but not religiously.
True. I have quite a few such questions, but I rarely see the need to find an answer. Especially since we don't really have tools to find the answers. Countless religions and philosophies, both mainstream and fringe, try to do it but it ultimately seems like something that just fits one's own experience.
My oldest brother died when I was six. He had a liver cancer, or at least that's the prevalent theory that it started from a liver cancer, that was completely asymptomatic for a long while after it metastasized. He had no chance, he would have no chance even if it were to all happen today. Was he damned? Was it just a freak occurrence? Is it my fate, seeing how everyone sans my father and me had either tumour or cancer? Or was it some plan, one that is beyond any mortal's comprehension? Who would he become? Will I remember him as I do now, or are my memories already tainted? Is there an afterlife, and if so would I ever see him again?
I found no answers in neither science nor religion. I see no reason. There was no comfort in beliefs or knowledge. So I had the following options:
- Spend my life on trying to get answers to questions that matter only to me.
- Side-step the issue by assuming that no matter the reason (or lack thereof) I have my life, passions and the past that has already happened.
Thing is, I know that I can't know for certain without ultimately just making my mind about it and convincing myself to something. And I can't do it. To me, science and religion or belief of any kind are just sets of abstract rules that, when you really think about it, make sense only within their own paradigms. And even after such strict categorisation, while they are limitless in their own ways, my mind is not. People much smarter than me spent decades of their lives to find answers to my questions didn't present me with anything that is without a shadow of the doubt an absolute contender that when picked apart will not be pretty much an "it's left for your own interpretation" kind of deal. That's not what I'm looking for, and since it seems to be beyond my reach, why not do the next best thing and just stop worrying about it?
That's not to say that I don't want to reach answers, I just don't see a way to do it that isn't pointless in that it wasn't designed to answer them. Religion would seem to fit, but in a way that I can't put in words, I don't see it as a way for me. Science also isn't the way to do just that, it has an entirely different niche of problems. But in the absence of answers or ways to find them, I just settle for living my life and taking what it offers. That way I don't need to worry about answers or, quite frankly, waste time on fruitless search. The next best thing for a crippling doubt is to not dwell on it.
Eh, I think that I've rambled for far too long. Just, please, before anyone would drop on me something along the lines of "kid, what do you know about X, Y or Z to say such things" - fuck off. I am not fucking kidding, the argument "what can someone your age know about such issues" or "you are just being all emo and fatalistic because of the age" got old for me before I have turned ten. At the very least I demand an ounce of originality.