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Swedish person who definitely does not do IB. Likes writing, music, computers, politics and many other things. Blogs never.

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swedishbadgergirl  ·  16 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: February 17, 2021

Climbing went well, I'm still sore. I'll probably go swimming tomorrow, they have quite limited opening hours and are mostly just open during working hours but I'll be able to fit it in before lunch. I'm hoping it's basically empty. I really miss swimming, and just being in water.

I'm feeling quite stressed about uni work and just having a bit of a mental slump. I'm really a person who gets stressed from being very scheduled and I've had something to do every evening since Sunday so I'm just feeling really rushed and like I get no time for catching my breath. I don't think I actually have that much to do - at least not an impossible amount - but I still feel like I'm not quite keeping up with it. It's natural to have slumps now and then I think and hopefully I'll get out of this one soon. Some more time for doing the things I like ,a bit more exercise and getting my apartment tidied up and I think I'll be on my way.

swedishbadgergirl  ·  20 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: February 10, 2021

I'm going climbing tomorrow! The climbing gym near me has been closed for a while due to covid but they are now back with a fancy booking system and a hard limit of 8 people in the boulder-room at a time. I am beyond hyped to climb again and a bit worried about how much strength I'll have lost. At least I'll get the satisfaction of managing problems twice..?

swedishbadgergirl  ·  28 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Kingdom of Loathing still exists

I usually pop in and play the Christmas event every year.

swedishbadgergirl  ·  42 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: January 20, 2021

Sweden did basically that for the longest time, only it was people under 70 who where able to live their lives quite like usual. I mean of course not all the way as usual, my uni was distanced, people were encouraged to work remotely, not go to malls, large gatherings were banned and so on.

But I went swimming, started climbing, met up with friends all while being pretty firmly within the recommendations. And my uni had a partially in person introduction for new students.

Now restrictions are harder, my climbing gym has closed, so has the pool and no one should gather in a group larger than 8 legally (and not really meet anyone outside of their household). But I can go outside as much as I want, and I'm meeting up with a friend who lives in the same building as me. And visiting my parents occasionally.

I have mixed feelings about it. I am very thankful i got to swim and climb and all of those things, and I think I'd have suffered mentally from the lack of it. In a way it feels easier to not have it now since I'm kind of used to the pandemic in a way. Frog in boiling water style.

At the same time over 10 000 people have died. But would me staying at home have helped that? Many of those deaths were in nursing homes due to structural problems like under-staffing and a too high rotation of staff. But if the level of covid-19 in the general population was lower maybe that staff wouldn't have gotten sick?

But countries with hard lockdowns also seem to be suffering. It doesn't seem to have solved the corona problem there, and it probably wouldn't have here either. Would it have helped? Would it have helped enough to be worth it?

swedishbadgergirl  ·  42 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: What books are you reading hubski?

"Educated: a memoir" sounds really interesting, although maybe a bit sad/difficult/emotional.

swedishbadgergirl  ·  42 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: What books are you reading hubski?

I've gotten "Every Heart a Doorway"s follow ups from the library and I'm looking forward to reading them and seeing what the author does with the setting. Hopefully something interesting.

I'm trying to get more in to non-fiction, I basically never read it and I also basically only read for fun so it has to be about a subject that interests me and in a style that grabs me.

swedishbadgergirl  ·  55 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: January 6, 2021

Welp, I'm kinda, almost, maybe, probably, actually done with term 3 now. Halfway to a bachelors degree. Dang. I had plans to do a bit more with my app project but that didn't happen so now I might get a passing grade though I am kind of unsure. I'll continue work on the app in either case, so if I have to do more work for a passing grade it isn't that bad.

I miss my cat. Sometimes I hear the floor creak and turn around and expect to see her there.

We're getting kittens. I knew that I wanted to keep having cats after Kathlyn, but I did hope that "after Kathlyn" was going to happen far off in the future. I'm confident that the decision to get kittens is coming from a good place and not desperation to get back something that I can't ever get back. I feel like there is two aspects to feeling shit about my cat being dead, the grief over her being gone, and missing having a cat. And nothing but time is going to soothe the first one, but the second one can be solved.

Having this feeling of the one thing I want the most (my cat back) being out of reach has kind of made everything else feel less important which is kind of bad with deadlines looming. I managed the last one (though I don't know if I passed the exam) and I think I'll have something to hand in on Monday even if it isn't up to a passing standard.

A petty shit start to 2021 tbh, but I think it can still be a good year.

swedishbadgergirl  ·  59 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: December 30, 2020

So my cat is dead now. It fucking sucks but that is what you sign up for. You love a pet an incredible amount and then it dies. I think that there is something beautiful in the fact that even now when it hurts so much that she is gone the pain of losing her is a price worth paying for having had her.

I'm relieved it wasn't a preventable accident, I'm relieved we did everything we could for her and I am at peace knowing we didn't put her through any unnecessary suffering.

I've never been this sad before though, I've been deeply depressed and I have definitely felt worse, but never this sad. I know that I will be okay and happy in the future, but life now is in a real sense worse in a way that can't ever be fixed.

swedishbadgergirl  ·  69 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: December 23, 2020

Yeah, that reminds me that it is my turn to change it today. Thanks for the support :)

swedishbadgergirl  ·  69 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: December 23, 2020

My cats not feeling well. She's not eating, and laying still a lot. But the blood-work came back without anything serious. The current hypothesis is that she's got/had a stomach infection of some sort or maybe heartburn or something that means eating equals pain or nausea. I hope she starts eating soon, and I'm very worried it is something serious causing it that the vet didn't test for. In the meantime we're force-feeding her and giving her meds. She is as always very nice and doesn't try and bite and scratch so that makes it a bit easier at least.

I'm going to aim for exercising more going forward. The climbing gym and swimming hall have been closed for a bit more than a month now, and will be closed for at least a month more. Not climbing or swimming has taken almost all the exercise out of my life, and I feel like it's starting to take a toll on my energy and state of mind. I'm gonna play more ring fit and also do body weight exercises. I had an old routine saved on my phone that I did a few days ago and I had to make it easier and was still sore for a few days afterwards.

I managed to finish sewing my Christmas dress in time and I have a ton of sewing projects in mind moving forward. I want to make sweatpants, leggings, a dress, a skirt, a bikini, a t-shirt, a different kind of skirt and loads of other things.I haven't used the overlock I bought in July yet but I hope to have time and motivation during the holidays.

I want to start having a bedtime routine that includes not looking at screens for an hour before bed, and where I don't feel rushed and like I need to fall asleep immediately to get enough sleep. To facilitate that I bought one book of Sudoku and one of nonograms and a few non-fiction books. I also hope that this hour of none screen will make time for more reading and drawing.

The fall terms work isn't quite finished yet, I need to make a schedule for revising for my exam and also to finish my app. I don't feel to worried about it, and I get one extra week of vacation after that is done to recharge for the spring semester. It's distance learning until the end of march but I'm hopeful it'll work out fine. We have some interesting courses.

I also long for it being light out longer so I can go on walks in the forest after school. I have a lot to look forward to and a lot I want to do, which is nice.