Had this weird moment a few days ago where I just felt...happy and in the moment. Was at a bar with some friends before one went on a few week vacation, and just felt very in tune with everything, it's really hard to describe but I had absolutely no feelings of anxiety, wasn't thinking much, and just enjoying the conversation and the way I was feeling at that time. This partially carried over to the next day, but I think it's getting to the point where because of everything that has happened this year, it's easier to be happy and appreciate what I do have. Especially physically now that I'm back to heavy running. As a birthday present I took myself to a welding course at a local fab lab. Really glad I did it, wouldn't mind practicing more often but I'm not really sure how to go about that shy of getting a membership at a Fabrication Lab somewhere. Look at how ugly these welds are! (Note: I have never touched a welder prior to last night)
once at large dinner with friends... I had this same sensation... it was like I floated outside of my body and could look down on the situation with pure joy and "presentness". strangely - as I looked around the table, I happened to look at mike and after discussing it later - we were both having similar, happy-in-the-moment-completely-present moments. Crazy synchronicity. Cherish that... it's a beautiful thing. but like remembering a dream - the harder I search for moments like that - the quicker they flee away.just felt very in tune with everything, it's really hard to describe but I had absolutely no feelings of anxiety, wasn't thinking much, and just enjoying the conversation and the way I was feeling at that time.
It's carried over since that day, to some extent I don't feel quite like the same person I was and the only thing I can somewhat attribute it to is all the running/fitness as of late...which half-serves as a meditative 30-60 minutes and release of endorphins/what-have-you. No need to search for it, that's for sure. Which is how I feel about a lot of things right now.
They were pre-cut HOWEVER! the same place offers a course in plasma cutting which I fully intend on taking the next time they offer it.