Yes, I know what an innuendo is, and yes, I understand your point of view. I'm just not going to humor it, nor am I going to validate it. For the sake of "making the world a better place" I'm going to tell you why we aren't going to talk anymore in the hope that you'll understand how needlessly combative you're making your world and, perhaps, take steps to remediate the situation. And by "remediate the situation" I mean chill the fuck out.
Do you remember how, not 24 hours ago, we were discussing neural networks? And how we'll never do that again? That's because you felt entitled to censor my speech for the entire world. You don't know me and I don't know you, but you took it upon yourself to scold me into a speech pattern well outside the norm of conversant society.
Your background in this is irrelevant - we'll get to it in a minute because you seem incapable of discussing it calmly. The simple fact is that you felt entitled to shape my behavior through shaming, despite the fact that my behavior is in no way deviant or offensive. My wife can do that. My kid can do that. My close friends can do that. You and me? You haven't begun to earn the right to ask favors of me. And asking me not to use the word "nut" is akin to you asking me not to use the word "blue."
When I pushed back, you doubled down - sarcasm, condescension, hyperbole, straw men - rather than acknowledging that perhaps you should have tried another tactic besides shaming and antagonism. So we're no longer cordial. Any leverage you could have gained via goodwill is gone. In effect, you made a scene, I asked why you were making a scene, and you chose to justify yourself by making an even bigger scene. An innocent bystander asked why you were making a scene and you dragged him into it. So now instead of shaping our behavior, you've dismissed yourself from casual conversation with two different people. 'cuz I doubt brian's going to be eager to engage you in discussion beyond this point, either.
Now about your illness - sorry to hear about it. But you know what? Your attitude towards it is completely, inexcusably abnormal.
Your only card in this is the victim card, apparently, which you are playing at every deal. So kindly allow me to trump it:
- Girlfriend's aunt had schizophrenia. When she described periods of deep insanity, she used the phrase "I was pretty crazy that day." When describing the behavior of sane people she found unexpected, she described them as "a little nutty."
- Girlfriend's uncle had schizophrenia. He regularly introduces himself as "I'm crazy."
- Sister's father-in-law has schizophrenia. He has said to me on a couple occasions, "take what I say with a grain of salt, I'm kind of crazy."
So that's three people, in my direct experience, who have absolutely no problems referring to themselves as "crazy". "Nuts" to at least one of them was a term used to describe eccentric behavior, not insanity... and this is from a woman who drowned her parakeet because it was slandering her to her boyfriend. But wait! There's more!
- My cousin refers to her catatonic fugue as her "crazy period." When describing (logical) behavior she dislikes, she calls it "nuts."
- My mother will say "I was a little bonkers back then" about the times she was (involuntarily) committed to insane asylums.
- My sister, when asked about her breakdown, says "yeah, I went a little nuts."
That's six people in my direct experience who have no problems with terminology - in direct discussion of mental illness. I'd bring up the ones I've met who do have problems except I don't know any. People who will change the subject in order to scold me about a perfectly innocuous phrase? Well, you're the first.
LISTEN CLOSELY. You say depression kills 1 in 5 people affected by it. In my family it's 2 out of 4. So take a step back and reconsider whether or not you're entitled to to deny my language to me because honestly? It sounds like maybe I'm just dealing with things better than you. Instead of scolding me, perhaps you should take notes 'cuz it wouldn't occur to me to shut down a conversation just so I could bring up my own lengthy suffering with mental illness.