I don't really know what I'm doing and mental health is hard to talk about but sometimes it's good so hi I've been back in Freiburg for 4 days and I'm doing really really poorly, I'm incredibly homesick all the time, depressed and anxious, can't get any work done and can't sleep. (And the stress nausea! Oh, the stress nausea!) I cried every day since the day before I left home because I just didn't wanna go and now I just wanna go back. Did some calculations and I'll probably have to stay here for 3 more semesters after this one's done just to finish my BA, which sounds like an unimaginable, unbearable length of time to be so far from home. And between work and school here, if I stay, I'll only be home around 2 weeks a year. Questioning if it's even worth it considering that I have no idea what I would do with my BA (and I'm 19!!) Today's been better, I guess. Got an extension on a presentation I was stressing about, finally got a fair amount of uni work done, even though I haven't left my apartment since yesterday. Plans with a friend this evening. And I made a doctor's appointment for next week so I can ask for a referral to a therapist and a psychiatrist. But for now it's just really fucking hard, you guys. Well wishes/prayers/whatever you believe in appreciated.
It's so hard to have perspective at 19. But, trust me... none of the things stressing you out matters as much as you think. Not even close. Take care of yourself. Do something active. Sweat. Make something. Go to the school of music and play a drum set. Go see a movie. When you go home those 2 weeks a year, you're gonna feel like a rock star. Why? Cause you are strong enough to get out. You are strong enough to leave the nest and forge your own path. You've got this, galen. Onward!considering that I have no idea what I would do with my BA (and I'm 19!!)
- Hey pal, I'm pulling for you. Always. But you are NOT supposed to know what you would do with your BA at 19. Hell... you're not supposed to know at 25. If you are one of the rare souls that knows your life's direction by 25, I kind of feel sorry for you. I'm 41, I have a pretty good idea of what I'm gonna be doing the next 2-3 years, but beyond that... No idea. My college education was a joke, from a specific career standpoint. What it taught me was self reliance, how to deal with loneliness (I had some dark times) and how to be social.
Hi Galen. I'm glad to hear that you have sought out help. Never be ashamed to ask for help. College is hard, it's a huge transition from high school straight into adulthood and high school doesn't prepare you much for how huge of a transformation it is. I promise you it will get better. Your friends will become a second family, and soon enough you will be moaning and groaning about having to go home for the holiday breaks and summers. Tough it out, a degree is never a bad investment. I recently graduated with a BS and got a job right out of college, but that first year was TOUGH... you will get through it and once you're graduated you'll say "Do I have to go into the real world now?" lol