A condition specific to the hubski demographic? So, 18-25 year old males according to the last poll, right?

I wouldn't be able to point this train of thought specifically to my peer group, as every friend I've ever had fits comfortably in the "I thought everything was fine" category. What I found most annoying was the amount of energy they all spent poking their noses into the lives of their friends' relationships. Early on I attributed this solely to girls because of the kinds of typecasts I'd seen on television and cinema -- but of course, everyone was at fault, not just the girls. When I was able to really see the corrosive effects it had not just on romantic relationships but the relationships of friends themselves I made a conscious effort always be completely focused on my efforts to sustain a worthwhile relationship with my own partner.

So, over the years there's been plenty to learn. I'd say the best benefit of turning away from the (very often, ridiculous) situations that my friends put themselves in was that, in putting my relation to the one I'm with into a perspective without the tainting effects of various failing bonds around me, really gave me all the opportunity I ever needed to reflect on how it is that I wanted a relationship to grow and progress. I stopped taking the advice of others, the dispensers of "knowledge" who themselves were the ones with the trailing list of exes. I stopped giving any kind of gravity to advice columns and editorials about the "Top 20 Little Gestures That Reveal How She Really Feels", and things like that.

After two years with my current girlfriend I am still always searching for ways to change my approach to our relationship. I do this because I realized in past relationships there was a point of acceptance where neither one party sought to do anything different in how the relationship was experienced. It flat-lined. In my present relationship, however, I've recognized that the both of us are independent individuals who are never satisfied with sticking around for too long in any one frame of mind. We are constantly growing as individuals, at our own pace. As a result, it may be that her opinions of the world are anchored to one particular period of history that she completely identifies with and uses that to interpret her situation now. But I may be at the polar end of her opinions there! So we discuss, we laugh, we cry, we learn. We agree and we disagree. We have built a relationship that revolves around our desire to continually learn and never rest.

Now. My fears of my being a terrible boyfriend come into play when I feel that she is growing tiered of what we have, that perhaps she'd actually like a standard or average for us to maintain. Am I not romantic enough? Would she be happier if I surprised her every now and then with cute little gifts? I worry that she'll meet other guys who are far more tuned in with what she is thinking and feeling and that I've grown apart from from her -- that the differences between us have widened a gap that we acknowledged long ago. Would she ever leave me if she found someone on the other side of that gap? I worry about that. And so I can never stop wondering what it is that I can do to ensure that this relationship is still worth something, to the both of us. She can explore the world and her spirit, always across the universe in principle and philosophy, and I can do the same. I want us to always be able return to what brought us together in the first place without compromising who we are. We are both so far along that I honestly feel if I ever just stopped wondering these things, everything would collapse around us, and we would be strangers to each other.