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elizabeth  ·  68 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: August 19, 2020

I can't believe summer is almost over! I've been busy, but I can't shake this feeling like i've been wasting my time too much. Time has just been melting away the past few years, in a way it wasn't before. Is this what getting older feels like? I feel I will wake up being 60 years old in a few moments and didn't realize half my life has slipped away already. Somehow, I need to have some concrete accomplishments under my belt, some progress to feel good. I've learned a lot, done lots of random eclectic tasks. But it's all pretty directionless in general. Time to bang out some items off the bucket list and maybe make some more concrete plans for the rest of the year. But what I actually want to do with my time right now is take 1000 classes about all the random skills I'd like to learn. Screen printing, develop photos the old school way, learn to weld, build fire art, fire spin, pottery, sewing, basic programming, electronics, CAD software, get good at identifying wild mushrooms, fishing, butchering... all very doable things to learn at a basic level but all requiring a certain time/money investment and most importantly prioritizing. Some of these things I'm almost ashamed I don't already know how to do, as it seems so simple.The free government money's over - so it's time for my biannual "what am i doing with my life" review :)





thenewgreen  ·  68 days ago  ·  link  ·  

    Time has just been melting away the past few years, in a way it wasn't before. Is this what getting older feels like?

I have never felt like my time was particularly wasted, but I have felt like it moves faster with age. One byproduct of the quarantine, for me, is that I am using my time to serve me more. I am allocating it to things that I actually enjoy.

But time really does go by more quickly the older you get. Good luck with the life review. It’s a good exercise. Knowing you, you’re on the right path and I am sure something exciting is around the corner. Onward!

flagamuffin  ·  67 days ago  ·  link  ·  
thenewgreen  ·  67 days ago  ·  link  ·  

    However, because there are 365 days in a year no matter what, how fast or slowly time passes is merely perception. And it's actually kind of cool that you have the power to create your own reality by feeding your brain new information and adventures. So, if you've been putting off traveling to a new place or learning a new language, you now have a great reason to stop procrastinating.
It's interesting that the trips I take seem to be remembered as longer than they were. I was just at the beach with my family for 5 days and it felt like a month. New surroundings, new activities etc. But I have a really warped sense of time. I literally can't measure it well. I recently moved and I couldn't tell you if I've been in this house for one month or 3. Isn't that weird? I just don't care. I've been married for 15 years but it feels like 9 or 10. I am 43 years old, but I feels like I am 35. I am bad at measuring time.
nil  ·  68 days ago  ·  link  ·  

I was having the exact same existential crisis about time moving too fast. I almost made a Pubski post about it yesterday but didn't want to ruin anybody's mood.

The best thing you can do is keep moving forward. Do what you want. It's good you're at least aware, it means you can be intentional. I try to remember how stupid the younger version of myself was to remind myself I am at least getting somewhere.

kantos  ·  67 days ago  ·  link  ·  

    I almost made a Pubski post about it yesterday but didn't want to ruin anybody's mood.

Don't know whether I'll have meaningful input, but I am interested in where you're at.

nil  ·  67 days ago  ·  link  ·  

I basically just realized how lame I was being. There were a lot of things in my life I tended to complain about rather than take responsibility for. As if somehow the antidote to feeling emotionally bottled up was to unload on people, or complain about how boring my friends are, how everything sucks, or how my family acts. Life is hard - there's no doubt about that. But there's something you CAN do.

That time passing thing has scared me since I was a kid. I had a moment a few months ago when I pulled my car out after my shift and just kind of drove to the outskirts of the city. Same streets I used to roam down when I was a kid, that I used to practice driving on when I first got my license. I looked in the mirror and I swear I felt like a ghost. Like the figure staring back at me wasn't even me anymore.

I got over it though. I applied for a job in another city, had a telephone interview, got it, got in my car and hightailed it out of there.

In the end the universe tends to unfold as it should.

kantos  ·  65 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Won’t preach or over-praise, so I’ll leave it here.

    I got over it though. I applied for a job in another city, had a telephone interview, got it, got in my car and hightailed it out of there.

I’m glad to read this. Truly. Thanks for humoring me.

kantos  ·  67 days ago  ·  link  ·  

    ...get good at identifying wild mushrooms,...

I've been recently introduced to iNaturalist. It's a good way to catalog your finds and crowdsource for information on the plants can't ID yourself yet.

oyster  ·  68 days ago  ·  link  ·  

If you’re looking at taking any kind of college level certificate or diploma stuff they doubled the grants you can receive for this year ! So usually a full time student can qualify for $3000 in grants when they apply for Canadian student loans but now it’s $6000. It’s paying for both my semesters fully so I’m pretty damn stocked.

elizabeth  ·  67 days ago  ·  link  ·  

It's most certainly too late to apply for anything starting fall... but maybe something for the winter semester? I don't think I could commit to another degree but maybe there's a fun certificate floating around somewhere

oyster  ·  67 days ago  ·  link  ·  

I find there are a lot of options for certificates now. I’ve even seen a couple short beekeeping certificates