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_refugee_  ·  3882 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Lil's Book of Questions: When Have You Felt the Most Free?

It is hard to encapsulate why I feel less free, but I think it is the simple act of having to care about someone else, and that the way I spend my time also affects them. Sometimes I find it exhausting to have to go through the rigamarole of texting, setting up dates to meet up, listening to the other person's problems, and so on. I am selfish and I know this and I don't think that's a sin in and of itself. And I care; there isn't a doubt in my mind that I care. But the caring, in a way, is what limits my freedom.





lil  ·  3881 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Relationships are a lot of work and the work has to be worthwhile. It's nice when a relationship gives you a feeling of endless possibilities not endless limitations.

_refugee_  ·  3880 days ago  ·  link  ·  

    Are my chains of my own choosing and worth wearing because of the benefits they bring (e.g. a job, a family)?

It's this for me.

OftenBen  ·  3882 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Oh I completely understand why you would feel that way, I think it's a core personality difference though, or possibly just an attitude towards dating in general (Or a relationship in specific)

_refugee_  ·  3881 days ago  ·  link  ·  

That's reassuring, because sometimes I feel like something is "wrong" with me because of this :) Hence my attempt at justification.