Hope the treatment is helpful in your struggles. not just bad decisions, when you focus on something it just grows and bad habits like that are so easy to pick up. After the radiation, how does it affect you? And how long 'til you recover fro that? I've learned to recognize and discard related fearful thoughts that pop into my head. Listening to your random fears will drive a person to make terrible decisions.
Thanks for asking. I'm more tired than usual after radiation. I did run 3miles last night. It was 60 degrees F in Michigan. last night. Couldn't pass that up. I've notiiced my left field of vision is shittier. My w and I went shopping for the week tonight. I'm having more trouble walking in public places. People that cut in front of me from my left aren't noticed immediately and I'm likely to bump ibto them. That makes me fell like an idiot. I aplogized to a shopping cart I didn't see today. thinking it was a personat the time. Fucking annoying to me.