I'd like to think that everybody has their own definition of what "healthy" is. Physically, mentally, emotionally, they all mean different things to different people. You likely have a much better idea of what that means to you than most other people do.I've wondered what it would be like to be 'healthy' since I was a child. It moves me to tears every time I let myself stray too far down that path.
I suppose. I vacillate between 'Everything that has ever gone wrong for me starts and ends with having a shitty heart. Were it not for that, I could have socialized more and appropriately as a small child, developed the competitive mindset necessary for healthy self-image in contemporary America, etc' and 'Even if I was healthy I'd likely be the same vaguely dissatisfied asshole that I am now but a lot less interesting and sympathetic, and without many of the valuable connections that have helped me professionally.' The truth, as always, is likely somewhere between.