If you really want to fuck up the way you see yourself for a year, go to metafilter and ask how the people there spend their day. The guilt will eat you whole. This reddit thread will put that guilt into perspective. Every comment is a different insight into someone wanting things to be better for someone like yourself.
The two in junction have the same effect as this on me? Kind of in reverse, I guess. http://www.ucl.ac.uk/news/news-articles/1114/121114_virtual-reality
I skimmed through the metafilter page, but didn't see anything especially weird - am I missing something?
My life looks nothing like the schedules posted. I felt like I needed adulting school for awhile. I'm a little better now, at the time I was functionally broken. I liked your post on flow. When I first learned about it, I had never heard of the goal setting parts of it. I always thought that taking the time to set goals was antithetical to MY-CHICK-SAI-HAI-YEE's theory, but I learned about it in an intro to philosophy class and interpreted it to my food service jobs and my love of procrastinating and panicking to finish homework in college. It's a lot harder to find flow in my freelance work, but I've kind of resigned to the fact that it will usually take me 8 hours of "work" to do 2 hours of real work, 2 hours in a real flow state. I've been thinking about how I reach flow state in the video games that I really like. I'm the type of person who loves the feeling of coming up with ways to optimize on the fly, more so than sticking with the optimal plan that I came up with the day before. (Stardew Valley / Harvest Moon / Factorio / Disgaea 5 come to mind as games I wanted to emulate) I came up with a system that gives me a lot of guidance while being simultaneously open ended. I've been chasing after flow lately (and making sure that I don't fall into rabbit holes) by prioritizing through a data sheet I made, loosely grading the amount of passion, income, and learning I'll receive from each project. Then I multiply the scores against each other, (for instance, passion * income = survival), and then have been prioritizing doing the projects by sorting by which has the highest score for the time. It's been helpful for the last two weeks for me, I'm unsure if it'll help for you as well. https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1_BQj7RZFAFJQ6p1LxYT0VFJpR2HzLOcmn7rHsQY1TvE/edit#gid=0
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