What you want is validation for your unhealthy worldview wrapped in an answer and you're not going to get it. All these people are trying to help you and none of your responses are appreciative because no one is going to validate your bullshit. I don't feel bad for taking a harsh tone because nothing anyone is going to say is going to satisfy you. You are the problem and unless you're willing to accept that and meet someone halfway you're going to remain miserable even if you get professional counseling where you'll probably try to rationalize your misery to the counselor like you do to everyone here. I'm speaking based on all your recent posts where you navelgaze looking for attention. I'm about to filter your posts. I'm depressed too but this isn't your blog where you can seek attention for feeling shitty. And every attempt you've made to leverage hubski into a therapy source just make you come off as borderline combative because you're not getting answers you like.
You're right: it is an unhealthy worldview, it is bullshit that I was saying when I was writing the post and I am not appreciative of others' help as much as I ought to be. I don't have the healthy marks, or milestones, in my head to measure myself against, so I appreciate you calling me out in such a way that doesn't diminish or disrespect me while providing a healthy, meaningful, thoughtful perspective. I find people at Hubski healthy mentally, even those depressed, so it's no wonder I come here looking for attention. So far, I haven't learned a better way to call others than to raise a shitstorm and see who stays around despite, which I recognize to be a bad practice that will alienate many of those who'd otherwise stay and provide an advice or even something beyond that, but I don't know how to do better. I also keep hoping to find here something that will set my mind straight; I don't have such resources around me unless I go out of my way to piss people off, which isn't desirable. Here, people speak their mind up and will tell far more eagerly if I mess up and where if I did. I wish that I'd know of a better way to reach out to people, especially to such a thoughtful and thought-provocative collective as Hubski. There's much more to the problem than what I've listed, of course. As such, I know it might be a stretch to ask, but - don't filter my posts; instead, look at them and tell me what did I get wrong. I could use a healthy perspective very much, especially when I'm in a shitty mood and willing to drag others along with me. This, too, isn't healthy, and I could use someone sticking a branch into my side at those moments. Whether you will do that, I appreciate you coming here and calling me out in a respectful manner.