There are different "kinds" or levels of failure in my life (as I'm sure there are in everyone's life). When I fail to get a job, or fail to get a good mark on a paper, or what have you, I look inward, but it is not malicious. Generally, when I am failing other people I can look at the situation objectively and grow from it. That has come from years of counselling for dealing with depression, as well as from the good example of my parent.s However, when I fail myself, I am still unable to achieve a positive level of self-examination. When I am unprepared for a performance, when I have a bad lesson with my teacher, when I am failing at a piece of music, even when, in my part time job as a dishwasher I feel as if I am not keeping up as well as I would like (my manager is satisfied). These are the times when I get the stabbing feeling my chest, the feeling that I've ruined everything, that everyone will see me for the imposter I am (though I don't feel like I'm good enough to truly qualify for imposter syndrome), or will see how bad of a dishwasher I am. So how do I deal with that failure? mostly pizza and youtube. I don't really have positive strategy yet.