This is super personal and all feelsy, but I think I hit the threshold on my "what the internet thinks of me" level, so it's all good.
Great read, thanks so much for sharing :) I find myself surrounded by a lot of fear of emotion, people shying from expression and honesty. I often get judged and harassed for conflicting with their close-mindedness. This was refreshing :)
True, losing friends it hard :( I regret I didn't make enough efforts to keep a good friendship alive ( but she didn't either), and now it will never be the same again. I always think, if only I would have pushed a bit more to meet up... And now I blame myself. I still see her a couple of times a year when we go out in a group, but i've tried spending a day just me and her and I feel we have nothing to talk about.