That's fair. And, in that case we can default to the "actions speak louder than words" scenario.

However, the reason behind why you do not give can still define your level of selfishness.

There's a big difference between me being willing to help you on moving day but having to work that day vs. me being "willing" to help you but staying home to watch Netflix 'cause I'm in the middle of a season.

The simplest way I can define being "too selfish" is being someone who takes more than you're willing to give.

I am a pretty selfish person, but I make a concerted effort to maintain balanced relationships.

Very similar for me. My native tongue is Spanish, but I learned English at age nine. If I'm listening to Spanish music, speaking Spanish with someone, etc. my thoughts happen in Spanish. Otherwise, I default to English in most settings. I can only pray in Spanish, though...seriously. It's super weird.

It's not where I grew up.

I don't know if it's long term, but I don't necessarily consider it transitional either. I guess I'm just open the possibility of still moving elsewhere.

Where I live is important to me, I need a place that has both the economy to support the way I want to live and the culture to actually make me want to live there.

I feel like the older you are the more cemented you are into your city, though. From work, to friends to family, it's not easy to uproot everything. I've been here almost two years and still feel like I'm visiting.

Repulsive piece. ;)

You mentioned it was written as spoken word, do you perform?

I've kept very inconsistent journals at many points throughout my life. Somewhere around here is an old notebook with a few dreams I thought were worth writing down. I have a folder with Google Docs of random poetry, lyrics, thoughts, etc. At one point, I had a personal blog I couldn't keep up with. The cycle usually starts off creating something that's "just for me", followed by writing a piece I actually want to share with others, followed by forgetting about both things.

Alphas. I binge watched all (there is) of it on Netflix and was left with a cliffhanger ending fit for a mid-season finale.