Worried (as a ftm): Currently it's "what the hell am I going to do after high school" or "am I actually good enough to do anything after high school?" But the harsh reality is: It all boils down to if I'll ever save up enough money for the surgeries and medical things I want/need (top surgery,bottom surgery,testosterone,therapy, ect.) and with inflation and just the world going to shit within a blink of an eye, it's hard to do such things.
Hopeful: I'm pretty hopeful to leave my current living situation and hopefully live with either my friends or my partners (Poly tft relationship). I also am hoping to accomplish what I need to do with minimal drawbacks/problems.
Looking forward to: What I'm actually most looking forward to is Wednesdays, I host a D&D club after school every Wednesday and so far everyone is happy with my campaign
Dreading: I'm dreadful about a lot of things- many are that "I'll never amount to anything that people want me to be, I'll never be seen as a man or what people will actually see me as". The big picture is: Most teens (not all) with similar issues as me, are really struggling to just exist, so give us a little bit of sympathy- we're doing the best we can 𝙒𝙃𝙄𝙇𝙀 trying to appease the cis gender-norm of today (which is the most cruel today).
It's hard being a trans kid, it's even harder today to not become a statistic.
All I ask is for you and others to do is to read this with a grain of salt, I'm one out of many of us.
I hope you all have a good day and hope you all learned a little more about my lil brain.
Have a good day/night and make sure to care for yourself <3