I try so hard to slow down and really listen or taste or see -- but it's a headspace that's near-impossible to be in unless you've had something happen to remind you. I get caught up in routine where I'm living by rote for the next off day or the next road trip and that's frankly fucking destructive to your psyche. I'm sitting at a desk typing this but to be honest I fear desk jobs for that reason. I've had them and I guess I have one now but if I can avoid it I'm never going back. It's too easy to start wishing that gaps of time had already happened -- and that's insulting to people like terminal cancer patients. Fuck that. Great post. Badge.
I've been wondering that too -- is it possible to get this experience without some kind of big motivator like facing down a life-threatening condition. Sound like lack of a motivator makes it hard for you. I get that. Wishing gaps of time had already happened -- brilliant! Yeah, I think now of all the times I've wished I could fast-forward through boring or unpleasant time periods. I don't think I've done that in the past couple of years, even when facing an unpleasant medical experience I'm thinking "okay, what will this be like? What can I learn from it?" Interesting changes. Thanks for your ideas!