There is that. I dunno. I like money too but I'd rather feel like I'm doing something with my life than contributing to a business. I suppose that's at the core of the situation, really: is the thing you are doing something that you love? I hate college. I really do. Its tedious. I hate my Gen Ed courses, I hate busywork in courses I otherwise like, I hate having to gamble on whether or not the professor is going to know less than me on the subject every time I take a class. Its frustrating. But, I really do like what I've been able to see of Communications, far more than I've liked history. And if I want to get in to the field, I know that at least some of the courses I take will be useful. So what if I end up poor? I don't have kids. I don't have a girlfriend, and even if I did if she would dump me for having no money then I wouldn't want to date her in the first place. My one ex is down in California with no job, but she's happy because she's doing what she likes. I'd love to get in to editing, for TV or film, doesn't matter. There's busywork on the way but an education is going to help, even if its just another hurdle. And if that saddles me with debt, well, so what? I'd rather be in debt than spend the rest of my life doing something I dislike. If you want to chat in messages on anything more private I'm all ears man.
We haven't quite gotten personal enough for private messages I'd say. But when the time comes for tears, we'll head that way. Plus, the more others see about what I'm thinking will allow them to provide a more specific answer. This is my favorite Alan Watts Speech. Especially what he says at 1:14. I don't want to be poor though. I want nothing to do with money. With lack of an attachment and dependence to money comes wealth in life I think.