Thoughts: 1) I should be writing at this hour. I probably will after writing this. 2) I have to make phone calls in the morning. 3) I miss my grandfather. 4) I miss my life 4 years ago. 5) I have to pick up slack on so many different types of skills; it makes me tired just thinking about it. 6) Money is never going to fill the void(but it will pay for my favorite places); thinking of alcoholism/addiction as a disease is doing wonders for my creative process. 7) I keep using this site to drop poetry and I swear that it's helping me feel a bit better. 8) What I want to do has a lot of acronyms and I need to drill them into my head. But- if I do this right, this is going to make my 20s comfortable enough to start working on inventions. 9) Seriously. What is sleep? 10) I'm wondering when it's safe to start living an ascetic lifestyle again. ... I am going to go write.