Sorry for the late response, I missed it somehow... weewooweewoo I know the feeling of wanting to be hugged very well. My first MDMA experience actually changed the way I hugged people for ever. I didn't notice it at first until my best friend from home said to me: "You hug for real now. What happened?". I embrace and go into full hugs more often now. Before I would do a quick greet hug without actually thinking that people need a proper "holding" hug. And I also found out I need those hugs too. A friend did a workshop at the burn and showed people how to hug more fully. Basically doing a heart-to-heart hug, adapting you body to the person you are hugging :) Good luck with your process. If you ever need to talk to someone from far away, let me know <3