Was feeling kind of stuck and unproductive the past couple of weeks. The not having any school/work is kind new to me and I was both busy all the time doing things a bit all over the place while not being productive and disciplined like I would like to.

Went volunteering to this real cool place with my friend today (havn't been there in more than a year) and it kinda got me out of my head for a bit which was nice. I was stuck on a loop of "what should I do with my life", "how do I want to make monies" and "who am I" which was getting kind of tiring. Feeling better, gonna commit to going there weekly now. It's mostly chopping vegetables which almost feels like meditation when you got 100 peppers.

Speaking of meditation, I was thinking about going on that 10 days Silent Meditation retreat thing but feeling unsure about it. Anyone ever done that? I'm not quite sure what I'd like to get out of it but at least I figured after 10 days I'd know if Meditation is my thing or not once and for all. Or maybe I'm a special kind of masochist that wants to test if I can shut up for 10 days. Or I'm secretly hoping for an epiphany? I don't know. Adulting is confusing.