What you want is validation for your unhealthy worldview wrapped in an answer and you're not going to get it. All these people are trying to help you and none of your responses are appreciative because no one is going to validate your bullshit. I don't feel bad for taking a harsh tone because nothing anyone is going to say is going to satisfy you. You are the problem and unless you're willing to accept that and meet someone halfway you're going to remain miserable even if you get professional counseling where you'll probably try to rationalize your misery to the counselor like you do to everyone here. I'm speaking based on all your recent posts where you navelgaze looking for attention. I'm about to filter your posts. I'm depressed too but this isn't your blog where you can seek attention for feeling shitty. And every attempt you've made to leverage hubski into a therapy source just make you come off as borderline combative because you're not getting answers you like.