i give you a dot for shokugeki no souma only - I've been watching that pizza for the last week or so and it's been sustaining my desire for trash

the karaage competition episode was what inspired me to make them

i enjoy the absurdity of how they portray cooking, something pretty down to earth, as a set of godlike naruto-esque powers and special techniques

although i wouldn't like it without the apron jiggy ass guy who almost makes up for the gratuitous sexualization of every female character

british food culture is basically if you took all the interesting things out of french food culture and replaced them with the medieval version of depression-era "nana's famous potatoes" recipes

it's a combination of masochism, indifference to flavors other than "buttery" and "meaty", and. and it's just twisted.

honestly i think i hate food culture in general? it feels like offensive, almost, to take something that everybody does and turn it into some kind of pissing contest. it's weirdly macho and pathetic at the same time

but yeah i espouse anglophobia

mostly been revisiting some old friends musicwise lately

fishmans, portishead, guided by voices, the only kanye west album that i enjoy (hint: it's yeezus)

comfy familiar music is a nice way to ring in a new home

this post begins with a special shoutout to van morrison - everybody knows what this song is supposed to be about van no matter how much you try to deny it

ace ventura, silence of the lambs, family guy, south park, psycho... death spa? media is a hard time for people who were once men - off the top of my head i think the best movie about genderbending in any context is some like it hot

i think about the "i'm a man!" "nobody's perfect" line a lot when i'm feeling down and it never fails to cheer me up - i think it says something really important about the trans woman experience and if i was smarter i might be able to explain why

like a lot of generic sad teenagers i got really into the velvet underground and it blew my mind when i found out lou reed had a transgender girlfriend - apparently lester bangs called her "grotesque, abject… like something that might have grovellingly scampered in when Lou opened the door to get milk or papers in the morning" so such as it is i suppose

i read as much as i could find about her online and i was inspired to write this

for as much of a prick lou reed seemed to be he's the only person that has consistently written about trans women in his music in a loving, romantic way that i can think of and i think that's why i keep coming back to him because sometimes it feels like there's nothing in the world for us but porn stars and eddie redmayne to look up to and it's nice to have something that you don't need to blur your eyes to identify with

i guess what i'm trying to say is that at this point in time i think the culture war and trans rights thing is at the tipping point where maybe we don't have to educate nana about the plight of the tran because in a couple years she'll be dead, you know? i think often the people who are most focused on convincing each other of anything re: crocodile dundee type discrimination aren't trans people in the same way that it seems to be all honkies changing the name of aunt jemima syrup or whatever. there are more important things to worry about and there always have been, like canceling eazy-e

#CancelEazyE

yeah there's probably a total of about 30 or 40 people who regularly use this site anyway, there really isn't a big barrier towards changing the culture of posting on the site if it's something people have a problem with - i think over half the userbase of the site has already weighed in about it saying "yeah we should change" already so it seems pretty easy

i think people are just getting too maddycakes at each other on here and take that to mean the grand death of civility in america

it's worth taking a breath i guess for everybody on here i feel like

roughly 3 days after posting "i'll be moving out in 3 weeks and hopefully sooner" i moved out

the apartment is lovely and i've finally finished cleaning it out, organizing things, washing the whole dang kitchen (which was very neglected by 3 4-year generations of college student boys), and moving my stuff in

everything's coming up milhouse

passed the boof one too many times

should be moving out at most 3 weeks from now, and likely to be even sooner

i can't wait

what came out of that pot? i'm imagining a muddy shrimp porridge slurry

evaporated milk and shredded chheseeeee and if you mix in some cornstarch you can even shred your own like a bougie bitch

work out those forearms you hussy

on god

as someone who has been forced to be 12 hours away from my boyfriend i agree wholeheartedly

the persona 5 blame chain is the void that one guy was talking about when he was staring into it or whatever

i like the kwanzaa cake because it gives good insight into the cultural death of middle-aged white americans, but my personal favorite that i just remembered is the "two shots of vodka" video

also the fact that every ripoff of chopped is more entertaining than chopped - did you see that one show on netflix where it's basically "chopped but everything is an edible"? i watched that whole series

if it's possible to read it to the tune of carameldansen you should, but if not listening to it at the same time will be fine

the only good thing to come out of the food network, by the way, is the one picture where a bottle of estradiol is photoshopped onto a counter next to ina garten and the caption says "if you can't make your own estrogen store bought is fine"

the thing that annihilates me about that recipe is just how little each of it actually matters - the curse of recipes is that they never focus on the things that are good to know when you want to make something. it's the same way that math education is conducted in grade school - there's no understanding of why, just "do this and this just like i'm doing" there's this fucked up sense where it's not about teaching at a certain point

recipes are amazing as general guides for something you've never cooked before, but only as that, and after you make something once you should use your own experience and experimentation to make your own recipe based on what you like, for your personal use

what in gods name is this monstrosity - why "european style butter"? why "fleur de sel"? what if i use some offbrand soft cheese, will that ruin the whole thing

every step sounds like it was written by an insane person

this is a pizza

who gives a shit about edam applesauce or any magazine or newspaper in the year 2020

there are about two things in the world that don't suck and eggs is one of them, ok, eggs sustain me

i will eat an egg whoever or however puts it in front of me

when i make eggs for myself i will only ever do it one way

i fry them in butter until the white is mostly set and the yolk is runny, then i salt and pepper them

this is the only way i cook eggs when eggs aren't just a single component in something

i know exactly how long it takes and how hot the nburner should be and how.much butter because i only do it one way

who needs a recipe for an omelet eggs are like the cheapest food ever and even when they get all fucked up they're still at least edible

people who write recipes or guides for eggs are stupid motherfuckers almost universally

just cook the egg until it's the way you want it to be

i will punch anybody! don't fight me! I'll cry!

giving up is what all the cool kids are doing nowadays donchaknow

all the hip young old folks are joining the death cult of not giving a shit

america can have little a revolution, as a snack

over the past couple days i've been thinking that there's a pattern in my life where i go "the situation i'm currently in is causing me to feel this way, but once xyz happens it'll be better" and i think a much better explanation is that i'm depressed

i guess i already knew that, but it might have just sunk in

i've been on antidepressants for 2 years and as i've previously talked about that's basically when my life restarted - i've been back in therapy for the last couple weeks seeing the therapist who had seen me just before heading to uni. as i was talking to her about feeling uncomfortable being back with my parents she said something that really hit me, which was "two years really isn't a very long time. it makes sense that you'd be still affected by the bad things you experienced back then."

from how much my life has changed it's easy to forget how little time has passed

since that conversation a couple days ago, i've been able to consider / think about some things that i haven't processed emotionally or resolved in a satisfactory way from the past that i've been able to push away

it's rough but i feel like it's a good development

remember pike???? remember spock????? pike and spock are back!!!!!!

plus du français est meilleur am i right mon chum

good for her