Would you say that's equivalent to developing a crush on someone? Or, are you enjoying this, but still not having the initial feeling you were looking for? MDMA is one of those things I've always wanted to try once, but never have.Fact is, I like her and I am enjoying getting to know her slowly. It is different to any interaction I had before because I was either full on in love or not interested. I am not sure what to do next but maybe I don't have to be sure. All I know is that it feels good.
MDMA was my introduction to the "world of drugs" and has since triggered my interest in the biology behind these substances. I think I posted the story of my first encounter here on Hubski. I remember walking across the Thames after that party at 7:30 AM and thinking "how can this be prohibited?", it did not make sense to me.
Because it was decided back in the early days of the 20th century that it was politically advantageous to make the sovereign right of altering ones consciousness through the use of entheogenic chemicals illegal. The US set the standard and the rest of the world followed suit. Modern drug laws directly descend from this decision. The DEA's refusal to even allow the phrase 'medical cannabis' in the court of law comes directly from this political motivation. Death to Tyrants.I remember walking across the Thames after that party at 7:30 AM and thinking "how can this be prohibited?"
It is particularly scary to think about this whole deal. Europe, specially Germany, which I would consider a country of science and reasoning just signing that UN treaty basically banning all entheogens and psychedelics over night. It makes me wonder if such centralized organizations are a good thing at all, specially when decisions are taken so fast and without proper research.
Usually, I have an initial obsession with a person. This is usually because of a specific trait of the person that I envy. My brain goes into overdrive, extrapolating a shared future and all the situations that we could go through. Kind of like a simulation. The person would usually be on my mind 24/7 and I would crave their company. This time this feeling was not there. Not at all and it really got me worried/panicking at first. So I would not call it a crush but rather falling in love.