The best way to deal with questions about family is to find or found a family you care about. I got nothin' on you but years. I can say that I relate to a degree and leave it at that. So allow me to point out, as one survivor to another, that "family" is anyone you care about and you aren't required to stick with the one you were born with. It's good to have family. It makes things easier. And it makes you less likely to resent people for telling you that their family is important to them. Your bliss is out there. The less attention you give to the rear view the more you can see out the windshield.
I've been remiss in not replying to this. I've been busy. Sorry. You aren't your environment. You are your aspirations. If you aspire to be other than someone who waits hours at the food bank, show that side to other people and you'll be surprised the support you encounter. Good luck.Quite honestly, I don't think I'd trust anyone who'd want to be friends with me the way my life is right now.
Fair enough. It is odd how your "friends" abandon you when you choose to stop drinking/drugging but it happens all the time. I can relate and would not do it with other people either even though that may be to better way to go. To be fair, any one that works in a non-profit has the best intentions of their clients at heart, in my experience. I have worked in food banks and other places like that and they can be amazingly positive. No one there will judge you and so please do take advantage of those services.