Oh, don't count on being able to say that anytime soon. I haven't even decided what I'd do and what I'd want to say. Perhaps it'll be about this trouble! I love the encouragement though. I hope I do... I'm often unsure of myself. Some people think they're the only thing in the universe that exist--solipsists--and that everything is just a fabrication of their imagination. I'm the opposite; I often wonder if I don't exist and am perhaps some automaton created by the collective wills, hopes, dreams, etc., of everyone else, and the reason I can't ever seem to understand anything is because everyone elses ideas and thoughts amalgamated into the container I call myself and now I have to jumble all of these contradictory positions and form something like a coherent perspective...some day we'll all be able to say "we knew you when".
you've got some good stuff figured out.