Sex: male. Status: started dating about two moths ago. Do I love her? I think I'm getting there, but slowly.

It seems that when I get a crush on someone it's just mind-blowing. But this has gotten milder and milder during the past ten years. It also seems that the people I initially have crush on are usually some people that don't want to date me, and I think its cool. All this crush thing ever has done to me: it made me a stalker once(not a very bad one, I sent her four e-mails and that's it).

This is the third time I'm dating. My first and least serious dating lasted for two and half months. Second was very intense and lasted for two weeks. This one is least exiting, but most "warm" experience so far.

How does it feel? Actually like nothing. I'm engineering student but not the most typical one. I usually feel very strongly about stuff. Being with her feels just natural and relaxing. But when she is away I miss her. I usually don't miss anyone so I guess this is my way of knowing who I care about.

The weird thing is that I don't trust my feelings in these girl things much anymore. Crushes to some random girls feel lot stronger than meaningful relationship with someone who I actually like very much as a person, now that I know her. However I do feel very strongly that I have to be honest to her. And I'm confident I'm going to develop more feelings to her. Feelings can be wise but they can also be very stupid. So I would not advice people to do as their heart says. I think if your heart and mind tells to do something, only then it's worthwhile.