Hey Hubski, I've not been as active as I would like and just wanted to give bit of an update. Things are feeling a little better, but it's kind of hard to tell.

My mood has been quite up and down lately, part of the problem is that I haven't gotten anything really done and have been lacking the motivation to change that. But today has been good, very different, I got on top of the chores (well some of them), we had good food and fun in the sun, and right now I feel ready to move on.

I've finally pulled out from teacher training, so in September I will not be returning. I think this is the right decision for me, classroom environments and the whole school structure in general is just not a good fit for me. While I enjoyed my time, and would absolutely encourage anybody considering a career in teaching to try it out, seriously working with those kids was so rewarding... I'd also encourage them not to be afraid to fail.

I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to do now, but that doesn't scare me so much, I have started to develop an idea of where I want to be, then working on how I can reach that goal. There's a version of me in my dreams that I know I could never meet up to, and I've always seen that as a huge negative against my life... but that's shifted into something that I think I should strive for, but not beat myself up if reality doesn't meet my own expectations.

I'm going on holiday next week, I think I'm going to go tech free, spend time with the kids and wife and use this downtime to chew on these ideas that are percolating about. There's a possibility I may have accidently landed an opportunity to write about depression in a magazine / newsletter, so I want to work on my writing and where better than a cabin in the woods eh?