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comment by Cedar
Cedar  ·  3156 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: So what happened yesterday [TW]

Hey, thanks for sharing with us, I'm sorry I've not gotten a reply back to you sooner.

I find that it is pretty clear what counts as a good day and a bad day, early indicators for the latter for me are getting anxious or stressed over small things, or a general feeling of unpreparedness. Usually these end up escalating an adverse reaction to what may otherwise be a normal situation. I feel like I tend to operate on more of a cycle basis where I'll have a few weeks productive and a few weeks destructive, I'm tempted to almost say happy and sad there, but I think it does boild down to simply what actions I undertake. This is something common with bipolar disorder, and I'm going to be working with my doctor to see if we should pursue that as a diagnosis for me. I find this cycle works on a sort of balance, so the happier I am more regularly, the worse I'll be sooner; for this reason I think it's safer to play it safe and have a more neutral output: Not the manic, elated, frenzies and not the angry, destructive, panics.

It does sound like you have a lot of demands on your attention, look at works for you and remove as much else that you can. Though trying to prepare a space to avoid them can become it's own procrastination. Rather than trying to create seperate work and play spaces, I've found having hard time limits prompts me into action -- whether it's rushing to hand in work before the deadline, or more usually trying to get something done just before going off to an appointment or otherwise semi-inflexible date.

I like your battle plan, it sounds like you've got a good idea of where to go next.