So some of you know that I'm working on an art project which requires a combination of poems and interpretations of those poems. Because there are two pieces from each poem and there are 25 poems, I need a ton of artists.

One of my artists who I was really excited to work with just flaked on me. I swear to god it's like herding cats working with artists. It's not her fault, she actually is busy, but it's just one of many times where I can't convince artists that they are actually worth creating art.

Most of the time I meet someone and ask what they do and they tell me they do whatever boring crap that we all do and then I ask what their hobbies are and they say I paint or something else which leads me to talking about the project. And then when I ask them to participate they say, "Oh, I'm not any good." This is not unique to people who actually aren't any good! It blows my mind that working with artists includes not only hiring them to participate, but then also reminding them that they are actually capable of creating art. I've been going to talk to art schools and art departments at schools around here and even these students, who ACTUALLY WANT TO BE ARTISTS PROFESSIONALLY don't want to risk getting their feelings hurt to work on it.

Fuck.