I absolutely should add that I in no way speak for any people who have served, or their perspective, so that is totally valuable, and I would never rob anyone who has been through trauma as you or those you know have experienced of your voice to express that experience. I spoke from my perspective, but yours is the more important one, so if anything I said or projected is not your experience, and isn't accurate/helpful feel free to put me in my place. Not a shitpost at all, I should hope my friends never have to deal with regret on top of everything else, and I am sincerely glad you don't either, buddy.
No worries man. I understand and appreciate this post, although I don't think it's necessary. I know the average hubskier isn't the type to take the kind of posture you describe. Someone considering military service should absolutely begin with your perspective. I think much like an alcoholic talking about alcohol, a veteran isn't always the best person to ask about how the military affected them.