Booked a 3 week vacation to Mexico. Hopefully it will turn around my mood and dissatisfaction with the workplace environment at the moment. I like the work, but the seasonal funk coupled with a toxic environment has pushed it to the point I was crying on the metro home most days and talking myself out of up and leaving every morning.

The dude I can’t stand in the project has his little workshop right outside the office door. Which means he’s always eavesdropping and butting in with opinions on shit that doesn’t concern him. Or just walks in Willy nilly to tell us about how he hates going to Michael Coors while I’m trying to get shit done. And I’ve been too wiped to have a productive confrontation. Having booked some flights, I have newfound energy and optimism. Maybe I’ll tell him to fuck off and leave him the 3 weeks I’m away to recover. Because any confrontation will only lead to a pissy attitude and no real improvement from what I’ve previously seen. Would love to not be around for that bit.

My boss being a depressed insomniac and going through a hard breakup has not helped the general office mood. Especially since I’ve told him he’s been a shitty friend and we’re on a strictly professional interaction type of relationship at the moment where we don’t even ask each other about our weekends. It sucks, but I’ve told myself I won’t invest any efforts in repairing that friendship because I’ve tried and failed too many times before. He’s not a bad person, but I feel I’ve been dragged into some emotional turmoil and suffered some collateral damage from the aforementioned breakup, so I had to step away until things settle (if ever).

Can’t wait to eat some tacos.