I am late to the pub. Couldn't drink with a hangover yesterday.

Thesis

Am I supposed to feel this bad? I thought handing in my thesis would be great. But now I am sitting here two days later and I feel like shit.

Turns out I read the wrong checklist for handing in (there is a covid-list and and old list. I was supposed to read both). So I had to correct many technical things in my (already printed) thesis and run around hungover to get it fixed. Then, I get an e-mail from my already very shitty boss that the costs of my thesis printing are higher than he expected (even though I told him how much it will cost). Looks like I will be sitting on these costs... So I ended up binge watching the rest of The Expanse yesterday. Love the show, highly recommended.

Love

Two weeks ago I ended (yet another) short relationship. I feel like shit. I am making steps in the right direction but just don't seem to get lucky in the dating world.

COVID

My grandmother still doesn't want to get vaccinated. I just got off the phone with her, where she asked me if I want to come to her 85 birthday party this Saturday. I declined. Still not vaccinated, waiting patiently. Maybe I will get lucky and get some residual vaccination this Sunday. And she is blaming the government and politicians and the pharmaceutical industry. And I can hear my aunts voice coming out of her mouth... All her grandkids have degrees in biology/medicine. But somehow she chooses to ignore that and trust conspiracy theories. All of this comes after she traveled to Poland for a funeral of a family member that died of covid (and did not get vaccinated).

Friend

The mother of a close friend died last night. 3 weeks between diagnosis and death. Cancer in her liver. Checking if I can go and be there with her. It feels like the only thing I can really do right now.

So yeah. I am not doing well, even though I should